there was a day when i got lost
and i haven't been seen since
i was slowly climbing up, up, up towards the sun
and the suddenly i was gone
i'd been doing so well
doing so much
and then suddenly it was all gone
and i've been lost ever since
i don't feel things the same way
his kisses that once made me fly
i can now shrug off without a glance
his smiles that made me melt and sing
do nothing.
we are not we
and i am not me
ever since i got lost that day
and i started going nowhere fast
i started feeling emptiness all around me
and inside of me
and he kept going
i stayed empty
and he filled up his world
i stayed empty
and he just wanted his girl
but i was gone
i was so far gone
i'm still gone
can you see me?
can i see me?
there's nothing left of me
i don't have anything
worth living for
all i have is plans for a tomorrow
that will never ******* come
all i have is hope for a future
that will never come to pass
but what about now?
right now?
i have nothing
and the emptiness in my chest
amplifies
the emptiness in my head
the emptiness in my brain, in my soul
the emptiness that remains in my heart
sometimes i can see it in his eyes
that he misses me
i know that i'm not the one he loves
i miss her
the she, the old me, who could light a candle in his heart
the one he truly loves
i miss him
he, the old he, the one who had patience for the pain
the one who truly loves her
i miss her
i miss him
i miss me

you start to forget...
but when you do remember
it hurts so much more

we fought on christmas day
and i knew it was the end
but i decided to hold on
for just a little bit longer
because even though you are a stranger
you were once someone i loved

don't give up
the feeling of catastrophe
don't give up
the feeling of life or death
that came with every boy's call
don't forget
that beautiful pain
when you see her
kissing the one you love
don't forget how you cried
and how you tore open your heart for a night
don't forget how it felt
to be young forever
flying down the street
in your beat up car
used long before you were born
believing that you were the king of the world
don't forget
that one day
you will forget
the painful feelings
of living like today
was your last day

it makes me sick that
you are not my last first kiss;
it kills me inside.

his mouth said that he
didn't care but his eyes told
another story

in a field of green
the bonfire burns bright
there are people everywhere
and your eyes see only me
friends gather 'round
the beer is getting warm
and i am beautiful
when i am in your arms