You raised your hand to me
And when you were done
You put it down and said
"Never again."
But I saw your eyes
And there was nothing but
Hatred
And the promise of
Next time.

your breath
mingles with
mine
and i can hear your
solemn sigh
your sweat
flicks on me
but i don't mind
'cause i can feel your passion
and it's getting me off
tonight
i can feel you
inside
and all i can do
is close
my eyes
and get lost in this
ride
since i only feel fine
when you're on top
and
i'm open,
wide

there is a chance that i may never hear you voice again
and it is that chance that makes me pick up a cigarette
for the first time
there is a chance that i may never see your face again
and it is that chance that makes me wipe tears from my eyes
every single night
there is a chance that i may never feel your love again
and it is that chance that makes me pick up a knife
for the very last time

i love you and i can't breathe
without you, there's nothing left of me
i am nothing but an aching wrist
covered in blood
i am a mouth opened wide
but i can't make words anymore
you took my voice away
you took my golden smile
you took all that was left of me
and you've been gone awhile

everything good
is going away
making it harder
to get up in the morning
each day is a struggle,
a battle, a war
and i am losing

there is an urn
that will grow from ashes into a tree
i saw it today
and i thought of you
because you are so alive
and so in love with what is real
you will be a tree after you die
and you will keep on living
you will smile at everyone
and wave your full, green branches,
letting people breathe you in.
and i?
i will lie under you
six feet, to be exact
beneath a stone cold grave
proclaiming my death
for i am not alive
anymore

He kissed my eyelids, and that was very important to me.
It made him stand out in my mind
For kissing lips may be more common,
But eyes are the windows to the soul