Hello Alone, old friend
I always knew you'd come back again
You could not stay away, I see
And so you're here, haunting me
You brought along your friends, those three
Named Sadness, Confusion, and Misery
You all go through my heart's debris
Dancing around in endless glee
Singing, "No one is as sad as she"
I wish that you would let me be
Hello Alone, it's you, old friend
I always knew you'd come back again.

i've told ten thousand lies today
and each one came out rough
this poker table of life will
sooner or later call me bluff
but each lie turned out well, it seems
since no one questioned my word
i laid them down like playing cards
and the guilt inside me purred
there are still tears around my eyes
and an ache inside my gut
but there's nothing anyone can do
with their eyes closed wide shut
i've told ten thousand lies today
yes, this much is true
but none were close to the one you told
when you whispered "I love you."

love love love
i need it like
i need oxygen
in my lungs
like i need
a thorn in my side
you you you
i don't have you
but i need you
like oxygen
in my lungs
and a thorn
in my side
him him him
i don't need him
i know it too
but i suppose
he'll have to do.

I used to cling to "I love yous"
like they were the only things that mattered
I would wait months just to hear those words
One more time.
I became addicted
And I placed them under my skin
Pumped them in
One by one.
I finally became
A daily user of the phrase
And a daily recipient, too.
I never thought I would tire
Of the words
Dancing inside of me
Over and over again
And you knew it, too.
It got to the point
Where "I love you"
Was the only thing
You could say to me.
I became numb to the phrase
But I craved it even more
And I grew delirious
As the words
Built up inside of me.
One day I woke up
And I looked you in your the eyes
And you said "I love you."
But I was out of room
In my "I love you" bloated heart.
Yet an emptiness filled me and
I asked you "why?"
And all you could do
Was stare at me blankly
For you had long before
Forgotten the answer.

Love is a question you stopped answering
Love is a time and not a place
Love is a longing that won't go away
Love cannot be erased
Love is something that I can't feel
Love is what made me feel alive
Love has lost it's meaning, it can't be replaced
So all that's left to say is goodbye

boys boys boys boys boys
boys boys boys boys boys boys boys
boys boys boys boys boys

there are ghosts in my walls
and demons in my head
they enchant me with stories
of what it's like to be dead

they cradle me softly
when no one else will
they whisper how lovely
it is to lie still

they sing to me sweetly
and make love to me at night
they tell me there's no way
anything will turn out right

they carry me away
from this place that i call home
this place that feels so empty
and where i've felt so alone

they've dug me up a grave
and they've sung their lullaby well
they don't have to push me in
since all i've known is hell

i step down on my own
and they smile sweetly still
blankets made of earth
are the only things i feel

the spirits wave goodbye
and the last thing that i see
is a new ghost among them
and i can tell it's me.