I may look OK the way

I joke and laugh all the time

but on the inside I'm truly dying

It hurts to laugh and upsets me to smile

If you knew me you still would not understand

the pain I feel on the inside but want reflect on the out

So who do who really see ?

Someone who is living with pain and anger but know peace

I want joy but can't get over my past

I just think about how long this pain is going to last

I can't proceed because of the hate I have within myself

and the anger  I have towards someone else

who hurt me I wanna be strong

I wanna be free