Why is it that I continually cry my self to sleep?
I find your jokes painful and crushing.
You call those insults jokes, how about you direct them towards your self! How would you feel if this was a continual thing! Day in and day out, night and day, morning to dawn. You just can't get enough can you I'm done with your **** now is when I step up and still get put down!

Am I scared to be in love?
Or to be loved ?
Am I the one pushing people away?
Or is it then pushing me away?
Could I possible be the reason for so much pain?
Or is it him who's cause these emotional out breaks?
I couldn't possibly be the reason for not wanting to be loved...  Or am I?

You never seem to want to help
You never seem to care
You never jump to save my heart
You never come when I'm falling
You tell me I'm an emotional girl
I'll tell you that you're a disrespectful dad.
You let her call me names
You let her rattle and toy with my emotions
You let her hurt me in ways you don't understand
And yet you think she's and angle.
The boy I like he's sweet and adorable.
But all you tell me I'm to young
So I'm calling BS  on all your so called "guenuine" feelings
Because this girl is gone!

I just want to be me
                                    again the old me

You make me happy
But sad at the same time
You chose me
Yet you haven't
You chose to be nice
And yet you still cause pain
I want to be in your arms
But I'm scared you'll drop me
I guess these are feelings of love
and yet I think I love you...

Could you not
         break my heart
                 like all the others?

This world is chaos
This world is full of terribly beautiful things
This world hides it imperfections
This world hide the damage it can cause
This world has volcanos, and earthquakes, hurricanes, etc... Have you ever thought of those things as the world breaking down from all the abuse we cause to it!
Maybe were not the only ones getting hurt
Maybe were the ones hurting the place we love breath and live our lives on

~ no one should have to cry themselves to sleep
~ no one should have to feel hopeless
~ no one is honestly 100% free to be themselves
~ no one should have to be fake all the time to mask the pain
~ no one should have to go through the pain others have cause them.

Maybe it's the way he walks
The way he talks to me
The way he changed so fast..
It breaks my heart
He looks at me like I'm nothing
He doesn't seem to mind anymore
He doesn't seem to care
I can't help but cry out for him..
I can't ask him to do that
I can't and I won't force him to choose