Sleep,
It scares me.
It allows my mind to roam.
The white canvas sleep creates,
Lets my mind paint terrifying pictures.
Some are images retold,
Others are oil-paint horrors.

Once asleep
I am no longer in control,
Sleep snatches the reins
Jumps off the horse
And watches it run wild
Through puddles of memories
And past feelings
Then, explores new caves.

I am afraid
of what sleep will let
my mind uncover
in it's frenzy of freedom.

Depression's cold hearted grip will slowly tighten,
And strangle you  to the point of just past broken,
And keep you prisoner.
It will hold you captive for as long as it pleases,
For as long as you are not strong enough to break free,
And emerge; spreading your wings like a newly awaken butterfly.
Except you won't be new the day you emerge,
Your wings will be bruised and battered.
But over time, we will see,
They will regain their beauty and help you, once again, to fly free.

One summer evening in the grass
while all the bees were sleeping,
I tucked a flower in your hair
and asked you if you'd keep me.

You tell me this is your last goodbye
And the tears begin to fill my eyes
The pen and paper, your only escape
From the dark world you encounter every day
You tell me about the things you do
And although I know not what you go through
It breaks my heart, and I die inside
Is this the only way that you survive?
I make you promises foolishly
And when I lay my head to sleep
Its YOU who haunts my thoughts and dreams
My ruined pillow soaked with tears
My heart racing with new fears
But not for me, for YOU my friend
The one who’s life should not yet end
My soul is screaming, hurting, crying
For the one that’s slowly dying
Too many dreams for us as friends
I’m not ready for this to end
How often do I say I love you?
You say you know, but I don’t think you do
You’re the one who’s made life bright
The northern star shining in the night
The rare beauty in a field of dirt
But also the one who’s been hurt


I think back to that rainy day
I played guitar and sat and sang
You smiled at me from over there
But inside was brimming with despair
I didn’t know the thoughts on your mind
I couldn’t make it better that time
But here, you’ve taken over my life
You’re in my thoughts from day to night
I wish there was something I could do
To make the whole world love you
To the one who makes life better
Here is your own love letter


This here is my final battle cry
For you alone, I’d give up my life
Don’t underestimate my love’s power
I cry for you this very hour
If you leave, I’ll miss you when you’re gone
PLEASE…don’t leave me here alone….