i wonder why the moon is so beautiful?
i wonder who she shines for

my brain is rotting,
into a maggot covered mess.
my limbs are dying,
crumbling onto the bathroom floor.
my veins are clotting,
running brown and thick.
my head is spinning,
filled with nothing but you.
im sick of this brainrot

If you loved me
Then why couldn't I change your mind?
If you loved me
Then why couldn't we try a second time?
You thought you knew me
But I'll never be fake like you
How you used me
How you moved me

i will never move on from you
you’re engraved in the back of my mind
similar to the way the pavement smells after summer storms
i’ll never be able to get rid of the late nights
or the shared meals and drinks
i’ll never be able to move on from you
i love you
i’m sorry.

sometimes i see you.
i hear your voice in certain songs.
and im not gonna say i miss my loverman,
but i kinda miss you.
not in the way you would think,
but i miss you a tiny bit.
keep that a secret

breath i n ,
breath o u t .

taste the flavor as it collects in your lungs.
feel the sting in the back of your throat.

breath i n ,
breath o u t .

its warm and inviting. do you feel it?
your head is starting to buzz. careful.

breath i n ,
breath o u t .

your dizzy, you head is fuzzy, stop.
the buzz is so inviting, you say.

breath i n ,
breath o u t .

if its inviting why cant you see straight.
it feels good? no it doesnt.

breath i n ,
breath o u t .

you did it to yourself. i warned you to slow down.
but you dont care.

breath i n ,
breath o u t .

the feelings to good to bare.
and now youre stuck in this never ending cycle,
of breathing in your own special oxygen.

we are nothing but people stuck in the past,
talking of the future which has already passed

ill sit here and pretend i mean something to you, while you give your all to someone else.
it feels great to pretend, i wish you loved me.

if only i could shake the rot of these bones of mine.
let them shine brightly, so bright in fact my skin glows pale yellow.
i want to be clean.

runaway with me.
i long to be alone with your heart

i could stare at you for ages,
getting lost in those ocean blues.
i could hold onto your hand forever,
letting our sweat bond together.
i could take in your air for eternity,
letting my lungs plant seeds into yours.
i could be yours evermore,
as long as you let me

you left me falling apart on the hotel floor.
melting into puddles of tears and forgotten memories.
you left me broken, crumbling, pulling apart.
all for her.