this isn't me. the reflection i see in the mirror cannot be the case that surrounds me. this just isn't right. i see my hands moving, i see my eyes blinking, but that simply cant be. this just isn't me.
today is a Gone day the kind of day where i can't see past the blood on my fingertips the kind of day where standing up or thinking too long makes my chest ache
today the world outside my thoughts is cloudy and irrelevant i want to sleep but my head is too loud i can't even speak over the deafening sounds those wretched voices reminding me that i'll never be enough
today I can't leave my room reality slips under me and i'm in a Gone world my senses evaporate and i'm left in my head, alone, again
today will disappear from my memory in the stream of coming days it's already starting to slip away one moment, and it's Gone.
quarantine is perfect for dissociative episodes :) hope y'all are coping okay and staying safe and healthy.