You hugged me goodbye
That was the end
I woke up the next morning
And you were only a friend
That's what we said
That's how we lied.
Like our "relationship" was over
Gone with the tide.
But that sand washed away
That sand of emotion
Just into the water
Only into the ocean.
And as that water flowed
Our "love" stirred with the water
But then you try to tell be I couldn't be hotter?
Is that fair to me?
That you'd lead me to think
That you actually cared
Then let the "relationship" sink.

I miss you
That's all I can say
Without you hiding
Or running away
I need you
But I have to hide the pain
You don't wanna hear
How my heart is sprained
I miss you
Because words can't describe
The pain that I'm feeling
The *real pain inside

Putting on a false façade
Trying to cover
The stupid, the odd
But it always comes back
Shining through
Because that's just me
And it'll have to do.

Paint the words of your symphonies and sorrows
And hide them beneath your dreaded tomorrows
For tomorrow never comes.

He loves me, he loves me not
Questions in my head
Flower petals on the ground
And tears in my bed

He loves me, he loves me not
Is he worth my time?
Making me feel this way should really be a crime.

She can't find the fire to fight
She can't find the love in her heart
She cannot win the battle
She's been fighting from the start

She cannot hold a knife
She cannot hold a pen
But she wakes up for the war
And she does it all again

Her fists weren't built for power
Her fragile mind lacks might
But everyday's a struggle
Life's an everlasting fight

You said you liked me
I thought you meant it
I typed up a message
But I shouldn't have sent it
I told you I loved you
You said it's okay
I got my hopes up
What did I expect you to say?

He makes me feel so special,
wipes away my frown.
He helps me feel amazing,
like nothing will ever bring me down.
I know he's unattainable,
and it leaves me with such pain.
He'll never see me crying.
Staring out into the pouring rain.
He makes me feel so beautiful,
like my life is a happy song.
He makes me feel amazing,
I've known it all along.
*But I just can't see it anymore

I just wish someone would care
Or put on a smile and pretend.
Because sometimes it just gets hard
To fight for myself: To defend.
I just wish somethings could change
Or maybe this whole thing could end.
I really need someone to help
Or maybe I just really need a friend.

My favorite landmark
That wooden star
The perfect place to be who we are
As the trembling bus passes
On the beautiful path
Left at the entrance
Our fear and our wrath
We haven't a worry
We need not to stress
Of all places on earth
This here place is the best

You took me away
From my awful dark place
You painted a smile
On my melancholy face
But then you dragged me away
Kicking and screaming
The best part of my life
like I was only dreaming
And now all I can do
Is turn around and imagine
That maybe you’ll be the prince
Who saves me from the dragon.

We're fragile and weak
We breathe and we ache
We declare war and we let ourselves break

We want and we ask
We beg and we plead
Just bobbing about
And rolling in greed

We strive to be perfect
We fight and strategize
We hurt with our weapons,
Our words and our lies

I’m noticed for all the wrong reasons
With an attitude that changes like seasons
I do want to live
But I want to be free
I want to exist
but I don’t want to be me.

I don't know but I've been told
You've not learned until you're old
I walk on carpet, you walk on gold
I don't know, but I've been told.

I don't know but it's been said
Fourteen years and almost dead
Haven't a reason to get out of bed
I don't know, but it's been said

I don't know but you've said it enough
Life is unfair and that's ******* tough
Pushed around and yelled at, rough.
I don't know but you've said it enough.

I'm not sure, but I think I know
I need you to just let me go.

Love is not a triangle, love is a heart.
Love is a whole, not only a part.
Love is a bond that it harsh, but it's bold.
Love is a story that has yet to be told.
Sand that refuses to wash from the shore
A hold that is held forever and more.
Love is a wish, a promise, a prayer
Love is knowing that someone is there.
Love is shared between one and another
Love is being there for each other

Love is something you'll never know,
Love is a wonder you cross as you grow.

I’m listening to music
Songs that remind me
Don’t wanna believe that the past is behind me
I’ve fallen for you
I know it’s pathetic
But I really hope that you’ll be sympathetic
I hope that you’ll feel the way that I do
I hope you have fallen
In love with me too
Won’t you come back
as if this was a movie?
But you’d never return
‘cause you see right through me
I remember your arms around me,
that dance
If this were a movie
You’d give me a chance
But this is reality
And although it’s tragic
Imagine the movie
Imagine the magic
Imagine what it could be
If this were a show
Maybe it’d be perfect
But how do we know?

I want you to take me away
Somewhere we could hide
But I'd be too afraid
That you'd leave me behind

You’ve always been free
Perfect to me
Like you haven’t a care
As I notice you stare
Deep into my eyes
But still you disguise
The pain and the stress
You’re simply a mess
But always know I understand
You and I could walk hand and hand
If only this love could possibly bloom
Instead the small bud is falling to its doom
But you could make it all okay
So tell me, my love, will you stay?

I don't want to go forward
I don't want to go back
But I can't stay here
I know that for a fact.

I just want to go home
Escape the present, the past
Terrified of the future
Coming way too fast.

His words will last forever
scarred across my heart
his words will never disappear
tearing me apart
I’ll always be the victim,
he’ll always be to blame,
He’ll always be the reason
that I hide my face in shame.
His words will last forever
like a tattoo or a scar
His words will never go away
and they’ll never wander far

Tears bleed in early morning, speeding up as they drop.
Tears bleed every night; tears refuse to stop

He didn't say he loved me too
But what had I expected?
He challenged me to kiss him
Challenge accepted.

Words so sweet
Like those of an angel
Such a perfect threat
That my life is in danger
Everything good
Eventually goes bad
But I’ll always remember
*The relationship we never had.

Warn the world of hate and sorrow, but it will all be fine tomorrow.
So listen well and don’t forget, don’t drown your life in your regret.
The sadness we’ve gone through is such a shame, but make your mark and they’ll remember your name.
Words are flowing from my heart, or maybe my head, but it’s a start.
Someday someone will hear my words, in a song that is sung in the whistles of the birds.
So listen close for someday you will remember, the day when you read this, back in September.
That was the time that I realized, the tears swelling up in the corner of your eyes.
I wanted to help but there was nothing I could do, but give some good advice to you.
So listen well and don’t forget, don’t drown your life in your regret.

So that’s it, it’s done
That’s it. We’re through
I’ve severed the ropes that have tied me to you.
You said you won’t hurt me
Well times have been tough
You broke your promise
now enough is enough.
You dragged me back in,
You know that I miss you
I could see it in your eyes
Demanding I’d kiss you.
A kiss that lingered
Stretched out so long
And a hug that made me feel like I finally belong.
But now we’re back
To the nothing we were
And now I’m holding air
While you’re holding her.

I like to deny we were ever in love
I'll say we were stupid and naive and young
But it used to be there and it used to be real
How do I rid of what I used to feel?

Awake in the nights
Asleep in the day
There's nothing to stop me
From  making my way
Down this road less traveled by
Leading me awry
In a life full of answerless questions like "why"
Why am I awake
Why am I here
Why have I pushed away all I hold dear
Why am I alone
Awake in the night
Why am I swallowed by this never ending plight
Where are you now
Hell, where were you then?
Who, what, where, why, how, and when?

I wonder how he's doing without me
If his new girl is funnier and pretty
Or if he's alone
Under covers at home
Wallowing in his own self pity

I wonder how he's doing without me
If he's rid of the remnants of our love
Or if they're held holy
To that boy that's now lonely
I wonder who he's thinking of

I hope he's doing well without me
I hope he is more than satisfied
I hope it is worth it
To him and his girlfriend
Worth all of the tears that I've cried

You asked if I think about you
You asked what I thought about you
You asked when I think about you

I told you the truth
I said all the time
I said I thought you were perfect
I said when I go to sleep at night

I think of you at night
And at 3 in the morning
I think of you at the anniversary of that time
When you held my hand
And for a minute
You were mine.

But what I never told you
Was that I loved you
And maybe I should've told you
A long time ago

I guess that's who we all try to be
That "Little Miss Perfect" that has haunted all our dreams

You see her
And you really want to be here
But you know your dreams are unattainable
They see you
And they're lucky they can't be you
'Cause they don't wanna be invisible

I guess that's who we all try to be
That "Little Miss Perfect" that has haunted all our dreams

You see you
And you sure don't wanna be you
Because you really hate yourself
You see her
And you really want to be her
You just wanna be anyone else

I guess that's who we all try to be
That "Little Miss Perfect" that has haunted all our dreams
Not me.

I see you
Why don't you wanna be you?
Why can't you see you're wonderful?
I see her
Why do you wanna be her?
You're Little Miss Wonderful

You want me to kiss you
You've made that clear
But what happens after?
You go back to your dear
The one that you love
The right one for you
In this situation
I don't know what to do
I want to kiss you
I've made it clear
But for the time being
I need to escape from here

Can't you just be serious?
Notice the matter at hand?
Can't you just get a clue?
Just try to understand
The mess you're really making
The people to whom you bring hurt
Just look them in the eyes
See the pain that can't be cured
Notice what you're doing
Notice how bad this can get.
Notice that all you ever do
Just makes people upset.
But most of all just be serious
Notice the matter at hand
Just get a clue for once in your life
Just try to understand.

I miss you.
I hold on to the memories
waiting for you to return.
I need you.
I hold on to the pictures of us,
as I slowly let them burn.
I love you.
I hold on to the love we once had
waiting for you to come back.
I lost you.
I hold on the that moment
until I fall under attack.
I miss you.
*But I have to let go

If I could only see, how this war and hatred came to be,
I would have ran back in time for my family and my friends.
If I only knew how, the war would end right now,
and the peace and harmony would never end.

I’m moving on,
It doesn’t matter where I’m going
as long as I’m not coming back to you.
It’s wrong and I wish we could make it right
But for now I have to say that this is through.
I’m moving on
It doesn’t matter if I’m happy.
Just know that I don’t want to say goodbye.
It’s bad and I wish I could make it good
But we know it and we just cannot deny.
I’m moving on
Because I know it’s wrong
and I know you know it too.
It’s stupid I wish I could make it smart
but I just can’t come back to you.

The clock doesn't stop ticking
My heart won't stop to beat
I will not stop breathing
Because you stopped being sweet
I won't let you hurt me
This is where it ends
because we're only lying
because we aren't friends
We've always been more
But you didn't know
You were my love
but now you're a foe
*But I'm still alive

A relation ship sank for another to sail
With the click of a button, those words "You've got mail"
The subtle death from the words of a text,
"We're just friends" good friends at best.
The end of a belief in dreams coming true
The end of the era of me loving you.
A wish come true turns to a lie come alive
Leaves the lingering question: Will I survive?

In sickness and in health
But lately,
Just sickness.

I took a picture of us
And hid it from them
I gaze up at it
Again and again
I’ll never tell them
They can never know
You’ll never tell her
You can never show
But I’ve been sitting here
Waiting for you
But we have to hide it
There’s nothing we can do.
I don’t want to wait
Until it’s my turn
I won’t hide this picture
I’ll just leave it to burn

I'm not leaving
I'm not waking up today
I'll stay here
And sleep this ******* world away
I'm not leaving
Not getting up and getting out
There's no reason
There's no benefit of doubt
I'm not leaving
I will not face this ******* life
I'm just tired
Wake me up later tonight

Everyone’s gone
and I’m left with you
But it won’t be long
Before you’re gone too.
Nobody cares,
No, not anymore
Are you even there?
I cannot be sure.
I can’t even talk
Without them walking away
But what about you?
Will you? Will you stay?
I get no response
They won’t answer my words
Is it just them?
Or is it everyone in the world?
Now everyone’s gone
and I’m left with you
But now that they’ve gone
You’ve left me too

I wonder what he did
With those pictures on his wall
If he loved them and kept them
Or let go of them all
Those photos and paintings
The pictures of us
Did he betray them
The way he betrayed my trust?
I wonder what he did
To those innocent pics
Left them like he left me
Lonely and sick

You used to bring out the best in me, but now you make me worse
I used to think you were a blessing, now you're just a curse.
I reflect on the heart break that I had to endure
Now I suffer from an ache, an ache without a cure.

I'm drifting asleep, just waiting for him.
Days like this, even the sunshine seems dim.
He'll never respond, he'll never return.
Still I let myself wait, let my heart churn.
I might just collapse from all the heartbreak,
But still just waiting for him keeps me awake.
My mind’s floating away, away with the night,
Missing the days when the sun was so bright.
But I'm drifting asleep, just waiting for him.
Days like this, even the sunshine seems dim.

So many things I want to say
He doesn't want to hear
He's miles and miles away from me
But I really need him near.
I see him for who I want him to be,
He sees me for who I am.
So that, of course explains why
He doesn't give a ****.
So many things I wish I'd said
That may have made it right,
But the things that I did say are why,
I cannot sleep at night.
So many things that I regret,
And things he'll never know
So many things I have to hide,
Things I'll never show.
*And it's killing me inside

Make up your mind
Are we friends or not?
Because maybe we aren't as close as I thought.
I stood by you when nobody would
I'd be there by your side
If only I could

I've learned to love, at least, three things
God, myself, and my kin.
But I have grown to love so much more
To laugh, to learn, to sin.
I laugh with my friends
I learn from the best
I sin by mistake
And I love all the rest.
I laugh at my struggles
I learn from them too
I sin for myself
But my love is for you.