If this could be fiction I’d rewrite the end
Erase the part when you said I’m just a friend
I’d underline the place where you gave me your heart
and backspace the line when you tore it apart
I’d embellish the story to make it seem true
If this could be fiction, I’d still be with you

It’s all getting dull
And boring and old
And I remember you held my hand in the cold
Where did it go?
The fun way back when
But now it’s the same thing again and again
I say “Hey there”
And you say “Hello”
Where is the depth?
Where did it go?
You fixed all my problems,
and I made you laugh
But where has it gone? What’s happened to that?
I miss who you were
I’m done with the now
I want to go back. I want to, but how?

You’re rude, you’re awful
You’re liked, you’re loved
You always get your way
You’re mean, pathetic
Offensive but praised
And no one will stand up to say
That you don’t deserve
The laughter and praise
You don’t deserve the applause
I don’t deserve to be punished
For trying to help the cause
I may have been wrong
but you were worse
Who would’ve known courage
Could’ve been such a curse.

I don’t need someone to talk to
I really need a hug
I need someone to rid of
This stupid love bug
Crawling up my legs
And starting up my back
This bug is getting ready
Ready to attack
Bug spray will not affect it
It’ll only make it worse
I’ll falling for him, off a cliff
I’m stuck under his curse
The bug is growing stronger
Tearing me apart
Crawl over my shoulder
And crawls into my heart.

So many lonely nights
So many lonely girls
Not enough happy days
In a lonely, lonely world
So many lonely people
Lonely girls and lonely boys
So much hollow sadness
And never any joy

Our fantasy worlds were endless
With creatures, and castles, and more
Kings and queens from other worlds
A Crazy-town galore.
Then with one stomp of your tiny foot
A million worlds disappeared
Even the planet where our hearts held hands
Is no longer here.

If I could say another word
To tell him how I feel
One more word to let him know,
then maybe we could heal
But if I tried to say something
I know he’d turn away
He’d never want to talk to me
And there’s nothing I can say

It’s just a crush
I’m not obsessed
I’m not in love
I won’t confess
You told me I’m pretty
I fell into your arms
I didn’t expect
You to bring me such harm
It’s just a crush
But I’m still confused
“I’m not in love”
It’s so untrue

I could write a hundred poems
About the way I feel
I could write about my heart
How it will never heal.
I could write a hundred poems
Waiting for your love
I could write a hundred poems
About what I’m thinking of
I could write a hundred poems
Waiting for the sun
I wrote a hundred poems
And this is 101

I wish you were here
I want you with me
But you’d rather be there
You would rather not see
The reasons I cry
The reason for my tears
The reason I die
Because you’re not here
I wish you could see
The reason I’m sad
It’s all because of you
But I guess that’s just too bad

We haven’t talked in a long while
And I’ve never had I bigger smile
I’m getting over you.
I haven’t seen your icy eyes
Ever since those sorry goodbyes
But I’m getting over you
I haven’t stopped thinking about the words you said
About that wonderful day, that day that I dread
But I’m getting over you
“We’re just friends” you broke my heart
Or maybe it’s been broken from the start
I can’t get over you

The worst of the best
Like a curse that’s been blessed
Better than better
But all I am is just.
Just okay
Just average
But better than good
But if I could be better
I always would.
I wish I could be
As good as you are
And I can’t just face it
You are a star
*And I’m still just okay

I’m waiting for the bell to ring
For the doves to fly
For the angels to sing
I’m waiting for a dream
That just isn’t there
This beautiful daydream
Turned to a nightmare

A Wish
A Dream
A Yell
A Scream
A Love
The One
I Thought
It Seemed
Like You
May be
In Love
With Me
A Wish
A Dream
A Yell
A Scream

What is a dream
But false hope and lies
And crushed happiness
Turned into despise?
What is fate
But heartbreak and pain
Expected sunshine
Turned into rain?
What is happiness
But a figment of mind
A nightmare of happiness
Catches you in a bind?
What is peace
But war having stopped?
What is hope
But a balloon that has popped?
What is a dream
But false hope and lies?
And what is love
But heartbreaking goodbyes?

I’m almost there
I’m moving on
It’s time I let
Your memory will be gone
I’m tired of waiting
I’m getting rid
Of your haunting memory
And goodbye I will bid
*Goodbye.

What did we do right,
Except do nothing wrong?
What did we do good
Besides not doing bad?
How did we help?
By sitting here like bums?
What did we do at all
But make people sad?
Why award the lazy
For getting off their ***?
Why award the worst
For doing good?
Why not award the helpful?
The people who are kind?
The people who stand up
When no one would?

All these days of deprivation
From sleep, from dreams, from you
All these days of wishing on stars
Wishes that don’t come true
Waiting for something that will never arrive
Waiting for something unreal
Waiting for my heart to stop crying
Waiting for my wounded mind to heal
All these days of deprivation
From sleep, from dreams, from you
All these days of wishing on stars
Wishes that won’t come true

You told me I was fragile
I had to agree
I knew that eventually
you would hurt me
You said you would never
But nevertheless,
You hurt me more
than I ever could guess
And now I am crying
Like never before
Crying since the day
You walked out the door
*And I couldn’t miss you more

When I need you to help me
You make me feel worse
When I need your blessing
You give me a curse
When I need the sunshine
You bring me the rain
When I need a doctor
You just bring me pain
When I need you to fix me
You break me apart
When I need you to help me
You break my fragile heart.

Remembering the shadows
The remnants of the light
Because when the sun shines elsewhere
It leaves us here with night.
Remembering the storm
That came after the sun
Because when the sun hides away
We know the day is done
And when the day is finished
The moonlit gems come out
And the shadows cover the people
and darkness grows throughout.

I just can’t make it right
So everything is wrong.
Fine.
I just can’t fix the pain
So everything hurts.
Fine.
All you bring is problems
And nothing is ever solved
Fine.
I just can’t mend my broken heart
No one can make the pain go away
Fine.
But I won’t let you make it worse
I won’t let you hurt me again.
Not Fine.

You said goodbye and walked away
Said you didn’t want to go
But you turned around and I started to cry
but I couldn’t let it show
Was it easy for you?
To break my heart?
To say goodbye and leave?
Am I overreacting? Or am I just being naive?
You said goodbye, this is the end
and you went back to her
You wiped my mind from everything else
Now everything’s a blur
*And all I can see is you.

Don’t walk away when I’m talking to you
I clearly have something to say
You never stop to think how it makes me feel
When you simply just walk away
Don’t talk to him when I’m talking to you
Is he better or cuter then he is
Don’t you once maybe think that it hurts?
That here is just not where you want to be?
Don’t start to talk then leave ‘cause he arrives
Do you want me to feel like you don’t care?
Just don’t walk away when I’m talking to you
Don’t just walk away ‘cause he’s there.

I see you’re stained with tears
But you won’t let me know
The reason that you’re crying
You will never show.
I see you want attention
And I’m giving all I can
But you keep showing weakness
Like It’s always been your plan
To be front and center in the spotlight
All the eyes on you
I want to try to help you
But it’s time you helped me too.
Maybe I’ve been stupid,
for trying to help you out
But still if you ever need me
I’ll come running without a doubt.

Fighting with the world
Over what is right or wrong
Knowing that you’re right
And that you have been all along.
Arguing a lot
Over what should and shouldn’t be
Some one’s always wrong
Although it seems it’s always me
Fighting over problems
Problems never to be solved
And never admitting to failure
Until all the fights are resolved.

Everyone’s gone
and I’m left with you
But it won’t be long
Before you’re gone too.
Nobody cares,
No, not anymore
Are you even there?
I cannot be sure.
I can’t even talk
Without them walking away
But what about you?
Will you? Will you stay?
I get no response
They won’t answer my words
Is it just them?
Or is it everyone in the world?
Now everyone’s gone
and I’m left with you
But now that they’ve gone
You’ve left me too

Stuck in the middle of the universe
A universe with no edge
The end of an endless reality
And falling off the ledge
Stuck in the middle and spinning fast
Like a black hole of endless doom
Stuck in a little tiny cubicle
In the center of an endless room
Stuck in the middle of a false reality
A place that can never be
Captive in a box, a box with no walls
In a place where there’s only me

I hang onto the pieces
Those of what used to be
A relic of the romance
You used to share with me
I hold on to the pictures
Memories of what we had
And thoughts of what could be
That only make me sad
I hold on to the pieces
Because I think I must
Waiting for the relics
To slowly fade to dust

Nurture the nature
And celebrate rain
And let natural water
Wash away pain
Frolic through flowers
And soak up the sun
And look on the bright side
‘Cause the party’s just begun

A kiss brings bliss but all the same,
You can’t have a rainbow without a little rain
If only he’d hold me, I really wish he would
But without all the bad you can never have good

I won’t wait around
I’m not waiting anymore
So I’ll tighten my laces
And stomp out the door.
I’ll make a big scene
So maybe, you’ll see
That I’m getting over it
Now you get over me
I’m done with this madness
I want it all to end
But I won’t give up
I won’t just be your friend

Such hopeless devotion
I can’t help but feel
The pain that you’ve brought
The scars that will never heal
I want to break free
Of the ropes you have tied
To bind me to you
To keep me by your side
Such helpless dedication
I need to get free
of these unbreakable chains
Slowly killing me.

I took a picture of us
And hid it from them
I gaze up at it
Again and again
I’ll never tell them
They can never know
You’ll never tell her
You can never show
But I’ve been sitting here
Waiting for you
But we have to hide it
There’s nothing we can do.
I don’t want to wait
Until it’s my turn
I won’t hide this picture
I’ll just leave it to burn

Don’t be upset,
You have so much more
Than a boy who’ll break your heart,
Walk away, and slam the door
Don’t cry, peace will come soon
Just don’t let him get you
Don’t let him drag you into his doom
You’ve done nothing wrong
He is to blame
So don’t put yourself down
Don’t hide away in shame
You’re better than he is
We all know it’s true
Because he’s just a boy
There’s so much more to you

He looks at me
I fake a smile,
I run and hide and cry a while
He looks at me
Fear trickles down my spine
But again and again I tell him I’m fine
He looks at me
Like mind control
Staring me down and devouring my soul
He looks at her
Like she’s a work of art
He’ll love her, and he’ll break my heart.

I miss you
That's all I can say
Without you hiding
Or running away
I need you
But I have to hide the pain
You don't wanna hear
How my heart is sprained
I miss you
Because words can't describe
The pain that I'm feeling
The *real pain inside

I’m not the one,
but he still is
I’m like the second
Not even a part of this
I’m not the only
And I’m not the one
Now I’m sitting in the darkness
While he walks on the sun

Tell me the truth
Have I done wrong?
Or is it just me
Who’s been sprained?
Tell me the truth
Should I just let go
To get rid of all the pain?
But tell me the truth
Love me, Love me not?
Just tell me if you love me too
Don’t leave me here to rot.

Somebody outta close this window
Before I fall to my doom
I can’t stand being in your presence
I have to get out of this room
Somebody outta close this window
Before you push me out
Because you’ve built me up so high
But you’ll drop me again, no doubt.
Somebody outta open up a window
I need to escape

In my mind you’re perfect
In my fantasy
I am always smiling
You’re holding hands with me
In my mind you’re here
Just two feet away
Staring into my eyes
We went back in time to that day
In my mind you’re single
Free to be the one
But in reality there’s darkness
Days there should be sun.

It takes him 14 minutes to reply
And though I really shouldn’t count,
I’m caught in his captivity
Somebody get me out
14 minutes to even care
About what I have to say
I’m a dolphin in his fishing net
And I can’t swim away
Takes him 14 minutes to reply
But never say anything good
I’m captive in this jail cell,
If I could get out, I would.

I doodle our love
and hang it to cherish
Then I rip it down the middle
and leave it to perish
I hold on to the pieces
crumpled up in my palm
I don’t want to let go
Don’t want our love to be gone
But you’ve made it clear
There is nothing more
So your heart is free
And my heart is sore.
*But I still won’t throw it away

Okay. I’m done,
My final word
Until I can fly free,
On the wings of a bird
I’m done with the madness
The pity, The pain
I’m done with the crying
This sorrowful rain.
But most of all, I’m done with you
And hanging on
To your words that aren’t true.
I’m done

I know that you’re right,
We can only be friends
But it’s still not over
It still never ends.
I know that it’s wrong,
falling so hard for you
Because I can’t stop thinking
about what used to be true.
I shouldn’t be hurting
After all, you are right
Then why is it me,
sitting up late at night?
Crying my eyes out
It’s not the answer, but I need to.
Going through hell,
Because, really, I need you.

Words so sweet
Like those of an angel
Such a perfect threat
That my life is in danger
Everything good
Eventually goes bad
But I’ll always remember
*The relationship we never had.

A relation ship sank for another to sail
With the click of a button, those words "You've got mail"
The subtle death from the words of a text,
"We're just friends" good friends at best.
The end of a belief in dreams coming true
The end of the era of me loving you.
A wish come true turns to a lie come alive
Leaves the lingering question: Will I survive?

You used to be perfect,
until you thought that you were
You think you’re amazing
You think you’re a star.
You used to be sweet
Like candy like cream
But now you’ve been ruined
But I know you’re better than you seem.
You have a heart,
I know it’s still beating...
You still have some kindness
But sadly it’s fleeting.
I thought you were perfect
But you’re conceded and vain.
I’d never fall for you
No, never again.

I tell you this time and again
But you think you’re too cool to listen.
You think you have some sort of glow
Like people just love you, you glisten.
Do you want people to cry?
Or to feel the way that you do?
Bringing pain is never the answer
Whether or not you think that it’s true.
You walk the halls, with your swagger
Like you’re perfect in every way.
But I won’t give in to your horror
I won’t fall for it, not today.

Mirror, Mirror, on the wall
Who are you to say?
Who’s the fairest of them all?
We’re all beautiful in our way.
Mirror, Mirror, on the wall
How are you to know?
Some are beautiful on the inside
But cannot let it show.
Mirror, Mirror, stay away
I don’t need your lies
Everyone is beautiful
The way they are in my eyes.