Paint the down blue
Drown it with tears
Crying from pain
Hiding from fears
Trying not to cry
Living to die
Alone and lost
Me, myself, I
Bleeding a river
Crying a sea
I don't want to be here
I don't want to be me

Make up your mind
Are we friends or not?
Because maybe we aren't as close as I thought.
I stood by you when nobody would
I'd be there by your side
If only I could

I am not perfect
But I am not fake
I'm really crying
I'm not acting like I ache
I am not pretending
I don't need your views
I'm crying 'cause you hurt me
I don't want to be the news
It's not for attention
That's not why I cry
I cry because I'm hurting
And you're the reason why

As I float away
Into a dream I drift
Imagining life
If you didn't exist
And I wonder, I wonder
If my world would fall apart
Or if my spirit would go on
Without this broken heart

You want me to kiss you
You've made that clear
But what happens after?
You go back to your dear
The one that you love
The right one for you
In this situation
I don't know what to do
I want to kiss you
I've made it clear
But for the time being
I need to escape from here

Nobody listens
To what I have to say
Nobody cares
What I think anyway
I spill out my heart
But they don't no this
Even if I scream
No one will notice
The number of people
Who care about me
Shrinks everyday
As far as I can see
You took it from a handful
To two, as it seems
It's like I'm speaking yiddish
You don't know what it means
All that I ask
Is that you'll notice me
I'm withering to nothing
But you just can't see

**** me now
Please do, please do
I'd rather face hell
Than face the likes of you
I don't want to see your face
Kiss your lips, feel you close
Because the heartache pills I'm taking
Are more than my dose
It feels good for a moment
Then the guilt fades in
For a minute it's bright
Then eternity is dim
I know what you want
You want that moment of lust
But I want you to love me
But instead I must
Let go of all of the things that we had
What once could be happy
Just always ends sad

**** me now
Please do, please do
I'd rather face hell
Than face the likes of you
I don't want to see your face
Kiss your lips, feel you close
Because the heartache pills I'm taking
Are more than my dose
It feels good for a moment
Then the guilt fades in
For a minute it's bright
Then eternity is dim
I know what you want
You want that moment of lust
But I want you to love me
But instead I must
Let go of all of the things that we had
What once could be happy
Just always ends sad

You don't care about me
Or your best friend in the school
You don't care about the people
who think that you're cool
The world worships you
Build you up so high
Now all of my friends
Have left me for a guy
A guy who doesn't care
If they love him or not
A guy who just thinks he's the best in the lot
But he's not the best
But you don't know
Because what is the truth
Is not what your hierarchies show

He didn't say he loved me too
But what had I expected?
He challenged me to kiss him
Challenge accepted.

I'm weak. He could drop me two inches and I'd shatter.
I am just a thing that doesn't matter.
I am not his love, I'm just a friend.
But still I know I'll love him 'til the end.
She is his future, his present, his past.
We're just a game. A game that won't last.
Of all that is perfect, he is the one.
Of all things that burn, my heart is the sun.

Exhaust fumes and cigarettes
Drunken parties placing bets
High heels tripping on the floor
Losing it all
Still playing more
*That's what you get for waking up in Vegas

he doesn't understand my plain english.
He doesn't understand my clear pain.
He just moves on,
to somebody else,
while I sit and cry like the rain.
Just because he wants it,
I don't want it to end.
I lose someone that I care for...
because he doesn't know
*what it means to be a friend

I've always had four words I wanted to here
but now "I love you too" is my biggest fear

Can't you give me a break
After all I do is ache
From all the things.

You ignore the tears I cry
Pressure me to fly
Without wings.

You treat me like an adult, when my mind's in a cradle
The stress that I face is a disease that is fatal
But you want me to do well.

You say I can do it when you know it's too hard
You've made me feel stupid, you've left me scarred
Still you can't tell.

The inferiority, the pressure, the stress
You lie and say I can do it if I try to confess
I can't take it anymore.

You've made it harder, harder to believe
You've made me want to storm out, to leave
And I'm halfway out the door.

They say you've gotta go
Look in their eyes and tell 'em no
The world is not your boss
You are not a fool
Do not let them act cool
Pointing out your flaws
You can beat 'em all
Don't let them make you fall
You're the center of the world
Don't let them put you down
Don't show them your frown
You can be supergirl
*Show them

Trying to sleep,
Really, I'm trying
But thinking of you
I can't help crying
Losing the only thing I knew
But I'll never stop
Thinking of you

You think you're great
You think I'm less
I'm starting to agree,
I have to confess.
You may not care
And I know I can't make you
You've broken me
But I refuse to break you.
You can be mean
But I won't fight back
I'll fight by your side
And myself, I'll attack.

Misplaced punctuation
I don't know where to stop.
Commas run awry
Jumbled up word slop.
I can't find the middle
I can't find the end
There is no flow to your sour words
The sentences don't blend.
I can take your spelling and grammar
Leaving me just a bit confused
But I can't stand your punctuation
Finding commas you should've used.
You're a book that I can't read
You don't make any sense.
The endless run on sentences
And the constant shift in tense.
Your words change their minds
As you do the same.
But it's not the words' fault.
The writer's to blame.

I burn inside of my mind
I ache inside of my heart
Tears bleed down from my eyes
My hands tremble
I bite my lip
My face goes red
*When I look at you

You try to entertain us
But all you do is strain us
We're supposed to believe you
When your words just aren't true

I am not a fighter
My words are my igniters
I will start a fire
Without flame
But I'm not here for lies
So look me in the eyes
and say I'm not a player in your game

I'll deflect your misinformation
And show it to our nation
That I am not a pawn
I'll make it perfectly clear
That that isn't why I'm here
And that we're waking up now
It's our dawn.

My favorite landmark
That wooden star
The perfect place to be who we are
As the trembling bus passes
On the beautiful path
Left at the entrance
Our fear and our wrath
We haven't a worry
We need not to stress
Of all places on earth
This here place is the best

You asked if I think about you
You asked what I thought about you
You asked when I think about you

I told you the truth
I said all the time
I said I thought you were perfect
I said when I go to sleep at night

I think of you at night
And at 3 in the morning
I think of you at the anniversary of that time
When you held my hand
And for a minute
You were mine.

But what I never told you
Was that I loved you
And maybe I should've told you
A long time ago

He holds me in a cage
Seals it with a lock
Leaves me there to wait
Staring at a clock.
He displays his endless love
The love he has for another
But still leaves me to wait
Believing we love each other
But this is one ended love
His feelings aren't real
Holding me in solitary confinement
Feeding off what I feel

If I could reach 600 miles
Reel you in and see your smiles
I'd reach out toward you, miles and miles away
And pull you in close to me and say:
"I would reach 600 miles
To have you here with me."

"All is fair in love and war"
But nothing is fair in life anymore
If this is love then the saying's untrue
Because it's so unfair that I'm stuck loving you

Tugging on a rope with no visible end,
Playing this stupid game like children, like friends.
You're pulling me into a puddle of mud,
Making me believe that this flower might bud.
The burns are incurable, the rash from the rope,
The burns on the hands that once held some hope.
But the hope has gone and I have gone numb,
Fell into your trap, I have been so dumb.
I want to escape, don't wanna play anymore
But still I hold on, in this love tug of war

Give me an explanation
But don't tell me how I feel
Tell me that you love me
I already know what's real
Tell me who you are
I know who I am
You try and try to get it
But you'll never understand
I don't need someone
To give me definitions
As I travel along
On this crooked expedition

I think of you so often
But I could never tell
Because I know of course you don’t
Think of me as well.
I think of you so fondly
Such a perfect memory
I think of you just wishing
That you would think of me.
But I know it’s useless
I’ve never crossed your mind
Because while I’m thinking about you
You’re just leaving me behind.

You can't define who I am
You don't know me at all
Maybe you think I'll be fine
So you go and you let me fall

She can't find the fire to fight
She can't find the love in her heart
She cannot win the battle
She's been fighting from the start

Distracted by you
Can't think of anything else
Hurting other people
Hurting myself
Ignoring the facts
And the real honest truth
Hurting everyone
Because I'm distracted by you

I'm just afraid that your vision is blurred
From the idea that I am exactly like her
You tell me I'm pretty
But are you talking about me?
When you imagine my face
Who do you see?
Your intentions are good
But you come across rotten
Do you know who I am?
Or have you forgotten?

I want you to take me away
Somewhere we could hide
But I'd be too afraid
That you'd leave me behind

It's all just too hard
Always dealt a bad hand
Never get the right card
But you won't understand
No matter how I try
I still get it wrong
A I don't know why
I don't know what's going on
But I know that it's real
This is my now
I need to change how I feel
I just don't know how

Is this the friend zone?
Or is it just hell?
Do you even notice?
I could never tell.
Is this the friend zone?
Or am I lost?
If this is what love is
It comes at too high a cost.

Leaving it off
Until there's no time left
And I'm just out of luck
Second guessing
Always wrong
I'm just giving up
People tell me I should try
But I don't give a ****
Because honestly they just don't know
That I really am
I try to try but I don't succeed
All I ever do is fail
But I can't tell the future
Maybe I'll prevail.

Putting on a false façade
Trying to cover
The stupid, the odd
But it always comes back
Shining through
Because that's just me
And it'll have to do.

Hanging on to every word
Hoping someday
That my heart will be cured
But I know that it can't
And I know that it won't
Because I just love you
And you simply don't
But still I hold on
To every word
Waiting for a heart
That can never be cured

What used to be true
Has evolved into lies
Falling in love
Then doing otherwise
Not even paying attention
To what we do
Ignoring relationships
We used to pursue
Like nothing's important
And nothing makes sense
Pointless conversations
No longer intense
A meaningful sentence
You just go along
I'll always remember
Before it went wrong

Empty compliments
But sincere goodbyes
Shallow pools
Of abysmal lies
Stupid apologies
And awkward conversations
Supposed truth
And repudiation
Always ignoring
What's really true
Always ignoring what's there
*Me and You

I look at you
And I don't know which way is up
I stare deep in your eyes
And I'm just out of luck
I look at you
And I dunno what's real
I'm blind and clueless
To what it is that I feel
I look at you
and my voice goes off key
I look at you
But you don't look at me

I don't understand
What's going on
Everything fades
Melancholy song
Everything grows
But reality shrinks
And suddenly I care
what everyone thinks
I don't need your opinion
But still I feed off your thought
And slowly go against
Everything I was taught
Now nothing matters
Everything's wrong
When everything fades
To a melancholy song

Can't you just be serious?
Notice the matter at hand?
Can't you just get a clue?
Just try to understand
The mess you're really making
The people to whom you bring hurt
Just look them in the eyes
See the pain that can't be cured
Notice what you're doing
Notice how bad this can get.
Notice that all you ever do
Just makes people upset.
But most of all just be serious
Notice the matter at hand
Just get a clue for once in your life
Just try to understand.

Why am I the one
Always left behind?
Everyone understands
While I just rack my mind
Searching for the answers
I just don't have a clue
You're always in the loop
I'm always behind you

You're tearing a hole in the ozone layer.
The earth is a vampire and you are its slayer.

For one day
I want you to see past
The size of my jeans
The size of my ***
For one day
I want to stop caring
about the way that I look
Or the clothes that I'm wearing
For one day
I want you to get
That the way that you are
Makes me so upset
But from that day on
I want you to see
Who I really am
Not who you want me to be

Everyone has a mask that they hide underneath
But under every mask is the tears of defeat
Because everyone cries and everyone hides it
But sometimes you know that you just can't deny it