There's strength in simplicity
Pain in duplicity
Terror in this city
That burns to the ground

There's power in numbers
Of trees burning, lumber
A lion in his slumber still knows how to growl.

Paint the words of your symphonies and sorrows
And hide them beneath your dreaded tomorrows
For tomorrow never comes.

There's one rotten string on my Ukulele
That holds me back from playing
Behind it, an inexplicable frustration
But the explanation goes without saying.

Strum, Strum, Buzz, Strum
Why can't I just play the chord
Is something wrong with the instrument?
Beyond repair I can afford?

Maybe it's me, that's playing wrong
Why can't I strum that string?
I can't play my freaking melody,
So I guess I'll just try to sing.

I'll show them respect and I'll do the right thing.
Words of good spirit, I promise I'll bring.
I'll do the good deeds you can no longer do.
I'll be a good person and I'll do it for you.

Love is not a triangle, love is a heart.
Love is a whole, not only a part.
Love is a bond that it harsh, but it's bold.
Love is a story that has yet to be told.
Sand that refuses to wash from the shore
A hold that is held forever and more.
Love is a wish, a promise, a prayer
Love is knowing that someone is there.
Love is shared between one and another
Love is being there for each other

Love is something you'll never know,
Love is a wonder you cross as you grow.

Some things go, and some things stay
But why did they have to leave this way?
Some people wonder and some people know
Why everyone eventually has to go.
But those who wonder, those so young
Who have they wronged? What have they done?
What can we change? What can we do?
To make the world safe for me and for you?
Who do we go to, to end the war
To make our lives last a little more.
For self-defense, we use are guns
But when people do otherwise, what is there to be done?
We can stay strong and with all our might
We'll help each other to be brave and to fight
All we have now is one another
But are we strong enough to just love each other?
Some things go, and some things stay,
But we don't have to live this way.

Tears bleed in early morning, speeding up as they drop.
Tears bleed every night; tears refuse to stop

To those who value looks more than they value mind:
I hereby propose a toast to your most precious waste of time.

To those who'd rather cherish sovereignty and praise
I wish you a blissful epiphany in your finer days.

I love what I do
But the things I don't do
Seem more important than the rest.
I love sleeping and writing and listening to music
And I love doing my best
But when my best has been done
When it's not enough
I don't pass the test
I cry in a ball and I want to start over
Doing my best

I've learned to love, at least, three things
God, myself, and my kin.
But I have grown to love so much more
To laugh, to learn, to sin.
I laugh with my friends
I learn from the best
I sin by mistake
And I love all the rest.
I laugh at my struggles
I learn from them too
I sin for myself
But my love is for you.

I used the think you were the strongest
But you're polluting my brain.
A kiss that lasts a moment, at longest
A kiss driving me insane.

Time flies, but there's no fun
No acceptance and no recoil.
The regret and somber thoughts have begun.
A kiss buried in the soil.

A wish that suddenly stirs me
Wishing for the end
The thought of it disturbs me
He has a girlfriend.

And then there's nothing
Nothing left
The amnesia fairy
The memory theft

Rebooting....

You can't please everyone.
Hell, you can't please anyone, can you?
That's who we are, as humans.
We try to please everyone, but all we want is to be pleased ourselves.
We're people-pleasers, we are.
Well, we try to be.
You can give all you want; take what people want to give you.
But you can't be pleased.
You can't please those who hate you,
But why care?
You can't even please those who matter the most.
But maybe pleasing them doesn't even matter at all.
And sometimes it seems that you'll never please yourself.
But it's trying that pushes you forward.

Lungs are frozen
Out of breath
Hurt, sorry
Never rest.

They’re running, sprinting, flying past
I can’t carry the weight of my over-sized ***

Trying to run
I’m done
This is it.
Because, of course,
I’m too fat for this ****.

I'm just afraid of the person I used to be.

I’m noticed for all the wrong reasons
With an attitude that changes like seasons
I do want to live
But I want to be free
I want to exist
but I don’t want to be me.

I'm loud because I'm passionate.
I'm loud because I care.
I'm loud because I'm hurting
Accept that.

I'm loud because I want to get it
I want to feel important sometimes.
And if you don't want to hear it
Leave.

I think it has been clear
To everyone in this town
That I don't give a ******* ****
About was goes around
Because what ever you do
It comes around as pain
So what goes around come around
But never to your gain

My artwork is clutter
My novel is ****
My poetry's raw
And that's pretty much it.
That's all that there is
That's all I can do
And all this time I've been blaming you.
But the fact is
That's not what hurts the most
It's not that you are gone
It's just my soul's become a ghost

I'm often delusional
I always assume
That in a world of tight spaces
they'll always make room
For the one undeserving
Who makes most mistakes
I always assume
That all that it takes
Is one more shot
One more day off
Because tomorrow I'll go back
And it will all pay off
But then there's all of the make ups
There is no restart
I'm not just delusional
I'm falling apart

National Novel Writing Month
Sit down and write some stuff.

Day 6, four thousand words behind
Go left or go right can't make up my mind.

So many more days to go
Still not enough to finish NaNo

Caffeine and sugar keeping me up
If I get to 20,000 I'll be in luck

The ups and downs, sorta like life
But I've got years and years to write!

I don't want to live in utopia
For once you peak, you decline.
However, aiming for a world that's better than yours is hardly a waste of time.

My utopia is a world
Where I'm happy with myself
Where myself and the people around me
Are happy and in perfect health.

My utopia is a place
Where there's always a reason to smile
And finally it is a place
Where utopia lasts a long while

What if I could go
To a place that isn't true?
A place so real, not real at all
To do things I wouldn't do.

What if I could go
To a different place that's possible?
To live like I know how
But in a place improbable.

I want a world like my own
But without pain or discipline
I want to live in utopia
In a realistic fiction

I'm so many things
But I want to be more
So much more important
Than an oxygen *****.

The air that I waste
The time that runs out
For I'm hogging the world
In an oxygen drought.

When the world is slowly dying
Bears on icebergs, melting, crying.
When you refuse to reduce or reuse,
Think of the people and animals you abuse.
All the talk of apocalypse
But zombies don’t compare to this.
The universe’s suicide
The struggle, the difficulty to stay alive
The problems we face, that we cannot erase
Someday we could lose this place.
So walk to school, ride your unicycle
Reduce, reuse, and finally, Recycle

Life's a house of horror,
And death's a bitter chill
Love's 1000 floors of hell
With just a second of thrill.
The only way to stop it,
Is to forgive those who've done you wrong,
But it only starts again
When you finally move on.
Suffering is supposed to end
It gets better, of course.
But even Cinderella
Could fall off Prince Charming's horse.

I can't even sleep
Breathing is hard
I can't cry anymore
I've been mentally scarred
Sworn into secrets
I can't tell a soul
But my heart is in half
*Unholy and un-whole.

We live on separate planets, it seems
But we come together in a world of dreams.
We laugh, we smile,
Our lips, they touch
And when you're gone I miss you so much.
We have a connection I can't comprehend
But when we're apart you're my *imaginary friend

There was this world that I used to love,
A world of flying on the wings of a dove.
This world where we could play pretend
And laugh and sing with peers and friends.
There was this world I used to know,
Dragged my feet but it still wouldn't slow.

I knew this world would never last
What I didn't know, was that it'd go by so fast.
And now it's hard to get things done,
I used to care, it used to be fun.
I visit the memories every day,
But I'll never again feel the same way.

That world's gone and I have to adapt
And just move on from
*The life I used to have.

What did I expect?
Fireworks or doves?
I know that all I wanted
Was your undivided love.
What did I really want?
You to finally see,
That you don't belong with her?
That you belong with me?

What did I expect?
Fireworks or doves?
I know that all I wanted
Was your undivided love.

Roses are black,
Violets are black,
Because love is blind
And I want you back.

You killed the commoner who didn’t do a thing
You let the ******* win and let the devils sing.
You killed the commoner and buried her beneath
Your screams, your lies, her filthy cries and the smell of defeat.
You killed the commoner and laughed as she died
Blamed it on the ******* who thought you were on their side.
You killed the commoner all you wanted was to win.
You blamed it on the ******* who supported all your sin.
You killed the commoner, and escaped from your cell.
You killed the commoner and you’re going to hell.

There’s a dead end at the end of the road
Where I go on my own to silently implode.
Where I lay on my back in the shade of a tree
Where I set my mind on fire and I set myself free.
Lightning strikes and thunder booms,
I lay in the rain, at my *dead end of doom.

At the dock, come one come all
There were ships, some big some small.
Some with stripes and some with flowers
Her ship, his ship, their ship, ours.
Our ship is tiny, not built to last,
Stocked with dreams and memories past.
At one point I believed our ship was a yacht
But soon I learned that you aren’t what I thought.
So now this ship isn’t big enough for two.
This ship has sailed, without you.

Is it my fault I’m jealous
Is it my fault I cried?
Is it my fault I go to bed teary eyed?
Is it my fault that you’re better?
That they all prefer you?
Is it my fault that I cannot handle what’s true?
Is it my fault you hurt me?
That I want your approval?
Am I the one causing our friendship’s removal?
Is it my fault they blame me?
Are we friends or are we not?
Is it my fault or is that just what I thought?

When what you thought you knew goes totally wrong
When you’ve been kicked out of where you think you belong
When you’re hurting inside and tearing apart...
You turn to your heart.
But when you look inside and find it’s not here,
You look for the one, not knowing he’s not near.
When you turn out dumb when you thought you were smart...
You look for a heart.
But when that heart beats black,
there’s no turning back
Maybe I’m state of the art
But I haven’t a heart.

It burns when you look in my eyes,
It burns when you hold my hand.
It burns when you say my name,
But it burns even more when you don't.

It burns when you talk about her,
It burns when you say anything.
It even burns when you make me smile
But it burns even more when I cry.

It burns, it stings, it pains, it hurts
But I would burn 1,000,000 shoes walking on sunshine with you.

When the silence breaks
The bell rings loud
And the murmurs begin in the whole of the crowd

When the silence breaks
Tight friendships fail
Only the strong, only one will prevail

When the silence breaks
Everyone cries
Hell to your ears
And poison to your eyes

But when silence fell,
There was bliss in this hell.

The battle scars and the gaping holes
The blood that bleeds 'til it overflows
The waiting for something that is truly lost
Is love really worth the debt that it costs?

We're fragile and weak
We breathe and we ache
We declare war and we let ourselves break

We want and we ask
We beg and we plead
Just bobbing about
And rolling in greed

We strive to be perfect
We fight and strategize
We hurt with our weapons,
Our words and our lies

There's this place called earth I could visit someday, but I'm stuck in a daydream and I like it that way.

I’m from wigs and hats and baseball cards
From perseverance and working hard

I am from “you can surely ace this test”
From “things will always turn out for the best.”

I’m from belief and passion and prayer
From the constant feeling that God is there.

I’m from a camp where everyone belongs
From cheers, from sports, from campfire songs.

I’m from the lake every summer in the sun,
From gathering the family and just having fun.

I’m from painting on doors and singing on stage
From constantly working so hard to behave.

I am from stories and poems and art
I am from passion and power and heart.

I am from hyperness and hysteria.
I’m from Doctor Who and Nerdfighteria.

I’m from often feeling that I’m not good enough
But from pushing through when times are rough.

Although sometimes I’m from pressure and loss
We make it through, because my family is boss.

So that’s it, it’s done
That’s it. We’re through
I’ve severed the ropes that have tied me to you.
You said you won’t hurt me
Well times have been tough
You broke your promise
now enough is enough.
You dragged me back in,
You know that I miss you
I could see it in your eyes
Demanding I’d kiss you.
A kiss that lingered
Stretched out so long
And a hug that made me feel like I finally belong.
But now we’re back
To the nothing we were
And now I’m holding air
While you’re holding her.

You kept your coat in the cold
You never let me win
Not my knight in shining armor
But the carrier of sin.
If I was stuck up in a castle
A helpless lady in distress
Would you fight a mighty dragon
To save your broken princess?

You treat me like I'm weak
But still you're not there when I fall.
If I really was to break
Would you even mourn at all?

Lucky I am strong
Though you slowly make me weak
But I was built to withstand
Your crap and not to weep.
I'd be there to catch you
If you were in my place
You are not my knight
You're a beautiful mistake

I am not that object that you can throw away
I am not that princess who needs you to save the day

I am not that fragile girl who always lets you win
Because I'm the queen of your castle
And you're the carrier of sin

Don't you know what I put up with?
Feel my heart and feel the pain.
My heart's not beating, boy it's throbbing.
Felt like you hurt me for your gain.
They said we had that connection
Not of body but of mind
Thought you'd always be there waiting
But you just left me behind

We are nothing but a lie
You and I
Falling out of touch
We are nothing but fake
As my heart breaks
I still love you so much
So don't ever let go
I want you to know
That I love you
But we are nothing but a lie
You and I
Will never be true.

You said you liked me
I thought you meant it
I typed up a message
But I shouldn't have sent it
I told you I loved you
You said it's okay
I got my hopes up
What did I expect you to say?

I'm just afraid that your vision is blurred
From the idea that I am exactly like her
You tell me I'm pretty
But are you talking about me?
When you imagine my face
Who do you see?
Your intentions are good
But you come across rotten
Do you know who I am
Or have you forgotten?

She can't find the fire to fight
She can't find the love in her heart
She cannot win the battle
She's been fighting from the start

She cannot hold a knife
She cannot hold a pen
But she wakes up for the war
And she does it all again

Her fists weren't built for power
Her fragile mind lacks might
But everyday's a struggle
Life's an everlasting fight