Would it scare you if I told you I still loved you a lot?
Would you tremble? Would you cower away just at the thought?
Do you miss me? Do you want me even though I'm far away?
Do you fear me like I fear what you would say
If I asked you to your face if you still loved me too?
Do you fear me? Do you still love me? Please say that you do
'Cause I don't know what I'd do if you told me you've moved on
Do you miss me? Do you want me even though I'm far gone?

We make a lot of wishes
On candles and shooting stars
Maybe we're superstitious
Or maybe our lives are just hard

We make a lot of wishes
For we don't like ourselves
We wish to be anyone, anywhere,
anyway, or anything else.

We make a lot of wishes
For we want things to change
Wishing for a difference
But everything stays the same

Some things for which I'm grateful always seem to go unmentioned
And I'd like to tell these things to you that clearly deserve attention
I'd like to thank you for the times that I needed your help
The calls you answered every time in sickness and in health
I know it might seem strange to give my thanks for all the struggles
For all the little things for which I managed to get in trouble.
For some reason you accept me and I find that quite absurd
But I'd like to reciprocate and give you my sincere word
That regardless of what you do, regardless of what you say
I'll be there for you no matter what at the end of every day
I'm grateful for you always and I'm grateful this thanksgiving
I'm grateful for my friends that always make my life worth living.
I'm grateful that God blessed the path that I chose to take
The path that led me to meeting you, just a culmination of my mistakes
The mistakes I made, the struggles I faced, and the stupid things I've done
I've lost so many times but finding you means that I won.
I've lost so many people but I've won so many more
And I'm thankful for every open window and every deadlocked door.

Society fears
Us looking in mirrors
And liking what we see
Posting 'selfies' online
Is a narcissistic crime
Because we're not allowed to be
Proud of how we look
'Cause in society's book
Insecurity plus jealousy equals pay
And when we cry
We're likely to buy
And the world wants us that way

The words, unspoken
Cracked and broken
Hanging in the air
We don't need to say them
But we know they're always there

The stale taste of words unwritten
White teeth clenched and pink lips bitten
Eyes, unblinking, stare
We don't need to write the words
We know they're always there

Tales untold and clauses unformed
Letters and punctuation swarmed
On a page and everywhere
We don't need to hear the words
We know they're always there

The words, unspoken
Cracked an broken
Hanging in the air
We don't need to say the words
But we know they're always there.

The fast lane is too **** slow
Stop signs never turn to go
The geniuses just do not know
The fast lane is too **** slow

I'm tired of nothingness
Monotonous, lonely, stupid ****
Careful kids and reckless authority
Empty, broken, stupid conformity

The fast lane of moving assembly lines
The same **** action every time
"Gimme, gimme, it's all mine!"
Conveyor belts and assembly lines

I'm gonna go against the majority
Redefining your priority
Careful kids and reckless authority
Empty, broken, stupid conformity.

Maybe ADD is a conspiracy theory
Popping pills 'cause authority is wary
That we'll think harder than schools allow
But our brains are more than numb by now

We know that Martians don't exist
And monsters don't hide under beds
We know that imagination's dead
That's what you've drilled into our heads

We know that robots won't abduct
Not until you turn us into them
We know not to listen to a word you say
We won't make that mistake again

You won't listen to our problems
We had dreams but we lost them
You chased them away
But who needs dreaming anyway?

*We do

I don't believe in water under the bridge
People don't just walk away
And I'm not simply holding a grudge
But I'm still not okay
I'm not okay with what happened
And though I won't let you know
It's still there deep inside
Whether or not you let it go
No, I don't believe in water under the bridge
You hurt me and I'm still in pain
And maybe I'm just holding a grudge
'Cause I refuse to be hurt again

This one isn't about you.
Don't worry, though, the next one probably will be.  
But this one, I promise, won't be about you.
It won't be about how you left
Or how you lied
Or how you made me feel
It won't be about the good times gone rotten
Or the times I let you control me
This one isn't about you
Or about my feelings for you
The feelings that were my fatal flaw.
This one doesn't even concern you.
It doesn't even mention the way you tore me apart
And then pretended I was the one who hurt you
This one isn't about the time I told you how I felt
The time when I told you I was broken
And you blamed ME for breaking you.
No, this one isn't about you.

I like to deny we were ever in love
I'll say we were stupid and naive and young
But it used to be there and it used to be real
How do I rid of what I used to feel?

The literal descent into actual madness
The inability to tell the happy from sadness
Thoughts bouncing around: silly and inane
Actually mad and actually insane

Can you capture forever in a box?
Can you ship it to me overnight?
Can you capture eternity and store it
In the shadows where you hide from the light?

It's hard dealing with not being accepted
But it's worse when your thoughts are always intercepted
By a screen, by a door, sound-proofing your brain
By that "censorship" **** that drives you insane

And it's hard, concealing all those stray thoughts
Being force to think something you do not
It's worse being locked in a cage
That immediately closes when you have something to say

Something to say that is said to be wrong
So you suppress that **** thought until it seems fully gone
It's hard when it comes back, it's hard when it returns
When you're raising your hand but it's never your turn

Remember the first time we kissed?
The beginning of a relationship that was always hit and miss
But now the misses are consistent
And if we're being honest?
*I really don't miss it

Early today I went on a walk
My brain started to babble and it started to talk
It said Cameron, I want to be heard
So I let it out, set it free
And I gave it my word
I said I'd speak my passion
And maybe you'll listen
Like any burning passion
It starts with ignition.

I though I could ignite a flame
I thought that perfection was my middle name
But perfection's not from heaven, it's from hell
And my middle name's not perfection
The middle name's Michelle

I thought I was an angel; I was wrong
Every **** thing I thought that I knew was gone
Everything I thought was from heaven above
But what did I ever know of love?
Maybe I'm an angel, just an angel who fell
But my middle name's not angel
My middle name's Michelle.

Now I feel nothing that I thought that I felt
And maybe perfection's not from heaven it's from hell
And maybe I'm an angel, just an angel who fell
But my middle name's not perfection
My middle name's Michelle.

He loves me, he loves me not
Questions in my head
Flower petals on the ground
And tears in my bed

He loves me, he loves me not
Is he worth my time?
Making me feel this way should really be a crime.

I used to think that I was a terrible student
I was terrible at learning
Then I grew to think I was good
I knew the answers for which I was yearning
I devolved, I suppose, and soon I was sure I was a failure once again
F's and C's and D minuses felt like my only friends
I tried to convince my stupid self that it didn't really matter
But I had to choose between learning and grade-earning and I guess I chose the latter.
It scared me to death what I had become a zombie fueled by grades
Focused more on that god ****** score than the progress that I made
I used to think I was good at learning but it was all pretend
I could play school but in the end A's and B's were not my friends.

I used to think that I was a terrible student
I was terrible at learning
Then I grew to think I was good
I knew the answers for which I was yearning
I devolved, I suppose, and soon I was sure I was a failure once again
F's and C's and D minuses felt like my only friends
I tried to convince my stupid self that it didn't really matter
But I had to choose between learning and grade-earning and I guess I chose the latter.
It scared me to death what I had become a zombie fueled by grades
Focused more on that god ****** score than the progress that I made
I used to think I was good at learning but it was all pretend
I could play school but in the end A's and B's were not my friends.

She was happy.
Not happy in the way that makes you smile every day
No one smiles every day.
That's what she told herself.

She was happy.
She was happy, or at least, she didn't cry herself to sleep
Not every day, anyway.

She was happy.
She wasn't full of laughter and there was no happy ever after
But she was happy. That's what she told herself.

She was happy
She wasn't completely wrecked, at least not the last time she checked
Maybe she was now, but still.

She was happy.

She was really happy.

She told herself she was happy.

She wasn't happy.

I didn't document today
For it didn't really matter
I suppose that it's always the same
Yawning, crying, laughter.

I didn't document today
For nothing really changed
It's always mild or milder
And it remains within that range

I didn't document today
Maybe, I just forgot
But the monotony is drowning me
And happy, I am not.

I don't like quadratics
And it really doesn't matter
It won't help me in life to know how to factor

I don't like quadratics
A formula for disaster
negative B plus, minus
Doesn't matter

I don't like quadratics
And I don't like graphing
Rather spend my time with my friends all laughing

I don't like quadratics
And I don't like math
I hate this parabola
I hate this graph

I don't like quadratics
I really don't like quadratics
I hate 'em I hate 'em
I hate all of mathematics

What is life without perspective?
How do you set your mind free?
It takes no detective
to use your eyes to see

Open those eyes
Experience today
Take your time to realize
And free yourself to make your way

Make your way into happiness
Living and learning
Find the answers for which
You have been forever yearning

It used to be easy
Making a friend
In Pre-K you just played
And you supposed it'd never end
It used to be easy
Passing a test
You just had to study
And do your best
It used to be easy
And all was stress-free
But now it's too hard
It is too hard for me
My head in a book
My pen on a page
Late nights and waking up early the next day
It used to be easy
It required no thought
It used to be easy
But now, it is not.

We are a sum of all of our choices
Of all our experience and echoing voices
Voices in our head that tell you what to do
Voices outside that are nagging at you
Voices of people who tell you you're wrong
Frustrate you and break you until you're long gone
You're inherently good; you were born to be kind
But society ***** and it changes your mind
You're inherently good; you were born just that way
You were born to be good, you were born to be great
You're inherently good, so lay down your arms
'Cause a baby never did you any harm, did it?
*A baby never did you any harm.

It's tomorrow already?
Well I s'pose it's today
I haven't seen tomorrow
In all of my days
But still I watch the clock
As eleven becomes twelve
As night becomes day
As heaven becomes hell
It's another today
And it's already tomorrow
And another long day
That is characterized by sorrow
Eleven becomes twelve
And twelve becomes one
It's already tomorrow
And today has begun

I spend all my time with my head in a textbook
My pencil on paper
My mind in the sky
I spend all my time
Countless hours of the night
Using pages of questions
To wipe the tears that I cry

Those tears turn to blood
As the paper cuts sting
As the tongues of the books laugh and jeer
I spend all my time
Cleaning up the mess
That my brain left when it disappeared

This monotonous life
A ringing in my ears
As consciousness drags me through all of these years
This monotonous life
This never-changing frown
A life that refuses to turn upside down
Light me on fire
Set me aflame
For this monotonous life
Is driving me insane

I swear one day I'll die
Drowning in tears
And I'll look up from hell
On all of those years
Those years that I hated
I hated my self
Those years that I waited
With my *** on a shelf
I waited for you
I waited for me
I waited to die
And I waited to see
What lurks in the shadows
What dances six feet under
What causes the rain
And the lightning and thunder
Maybe I'll die
Drowning in laughter
And I'll look back from heaven
On a happy ever after

It was nine years ago we met
Three years ago we parted
Twelve years later reunited
And we're not back to where we started.
Oh where did time go?
We were inseparable once
But now we're separated
And the feeling isn't fun
I supposed that we've both moved on
We've moved past "best friends forever"
But maybe our relationship
Will go on, misremembered.

Throwback to the days
When love was all that we needed
When we barely even studied
But we always succeeded
When tests were a breeze
And homework was breezier
When we had social lives
And everything is easier
Nobody told me
Of the hardships underneath
Of life's hard tests
And life's sharp teeth
Nobody told me
Of the terrors, so small
But they feel so heavy
And they make you fall
Throwback to the days
When we hadn't a care
Throwback to the smiles
And the wind in our hair
Throwback, throwback
For we can't turn around
Throwback to the days
When we were *safe and sound

Help me
Engage me
Love me
P**lease

Your eyes flicker open
That ******* alarm
You cover your face
With the inside of your arm
5 more minutes
Is all that you need
But it's time to get up and it's time to succeed
You're scared
You're lost
You're stressed
And you're dizzy
It's time to get up
It's time to get busy
5 more hours
Is all that you need
But it's time to get up
It's time to succeed

There's a certain sort of stillness
In the air
The oxygen is stale
The livelihood's not there
Where did it all go?
What happened to the spirit?
There is terror in the air
But the whole world's too afraid to hear it.
Too busy with their lives
With their work and with their play
Too busy with sweet dreams
To hear the nightmares say:
"Come out, come out, where ever you are
Come out, come out to dance!
Come out, come out, whoever you are
Come out and take a chance"

It's all the same I guess
There's a minute to breathe and a second to rest
It's all the same to me
There's nothing to do and there's no one to be
It's all the same in here
Where is the love and where is the fear
Monotonous life's a test
But it's all the same I guess

Give me five more minutes of summer
Give me time to prepare
Give me a little more time
I'm not ready yet; I'm scared

Give me five more hours of summer
Give me time to rest
Give me time to be free again
And let me be my best

Give me five more days of summer
A work week that's free of work
Give me an escape
From everything that hurts

Give me five more weeks of summer
Hell, give me fifty-two
Give me time to spend
On me, before I suffer through

Give me five more months of summer
Please, just set me free
Give me five more years of summer
And please, just let me be.

Walking around
Aimless and confused
Where do I go?
What do I do?

Walking around
Which way do I go?
There's no one to lead
No yellow-brick-road

One foot
In front of the other
Keep your head down
Don't be a bother

Lost and confused
A white puppy in the snow
What do I do?
Where do I go?

Let me sow words into a field
Water them and watch them grow
Let me sew my words onto my sleeve
Hang my shirt as a flag, watch it blow.

Let me bury my thoughts
Into pages of text
Let history recall me
At my worst and at my best

Let me be remembered
As I go down in history
Let my deeds become famous
As my sins live in infamy

Let me teach the world
What I had to show
Let me sow words into a field
Water them, and watch them grow

I can't tell what will come next
In the next month, year, or week
I can only recall the past
For tomorrows are all unique

I can't tell you what mistakes I'll make
What obstacles I'll face,
What risks I'll take

I can only learn from those moments that have past
Those slow and those fast
And I can't make them last

I can't tell what will come next
Can't say if it's wrong or right
But I can tell you here and now
I'm living in the moment tonight

Can you hear that bell?
Or is it my mind?
That bell that tells
I'm out of time

Can you hear that bell?
Can you hear that ding?
Can you hear the screams
And the monsters that sing?

Can you hear that bell?
One you can't escape
As a labyrinth appears
Right in front of your face

Can you hear that bell?
Or is it just my mind?
Can I escape
This labyrinth in time?

I'm alone in this room
I'm alone in this world
Just a girl and her mind
Just a mind and a girl
There's so many people
But still I'm alone
But for the next four years
This place is my home

Years, they are years, and years go by
But time is arbitrary and time is mine
Time is a *****, but time's by my side
So I'm just living like I'm living
And I'm living my life.

Years, they are years, and years fly by
A million precious moments in the blink of an eye
Time, that *****, has left my side
But I keep living like I'm living
And I'm living my life

Years, they are years, and tears you cry
What happened to the time I knew that time was mine?
But time is arbitrary and time is lost
I guess I just don't have enough to cover
Time's high cost.

My mind is racing
My head is spinning
Nothing is okay

It's like I've been here all my life
It's only the second day?

Hundreds of faces
Familiar and not
Hundreds of voices
and millions of thoughts

Busy and loud
And loud and busy
Lost and confused
And nauseous and dizzy

Laughter and tears
Sunset and sunrise
Tears from laughter
And tears from cries

It never ends
Or so they say
*******, I hope
It'll end someday.

Some angels fly
And some angels fall
Plunging to earth
Feathered wings and all

Some angels, they guard you
Watch over your rest
Some angels abandon you
To wish for the best

You're one of those angels
An angel who fell
What happened to heaven?
You're giving me hell.

You are goodbye
I am hello
So I'll close my eyes
For I can't watch you go

Even as I blink
You're farther away
I see your image shrink
And I'm not okay

It tastes like a disaster
And it smells like a ***** lie
I can feel it in my body
And I can see it in your eye.

Every time I touch you
Or sense your presence near
You tell me that you're sorry
But an excuse is all I hear

*but it all makes sense to me now

If i tried a little harder
I could be a little smarter
But what's the point in trying
Just inching close to dying

Yes, I've got minutes plenty
but I'm living like there's twenty
Maybe I have got a century
Who knows? I'm just fourteen

But years, they are years, and years go by
But time is arbitrary and time is mine
Time is my ***** and times by my side
So I'm living like I'm living and I'm livin' my life.

I'm living like I'm living and I'm livin' my life.

Let the sun set quickly
Let the moonlight die slow
Hold me tight in the faint light
And never let me go

Let the clock tick on
As quick as it likes
Just kiss me in the darkness
And hold me, hold me tight

I was just a person 'til you came along
I was just a little girl who couldn't tell right from wrong
I was not a warrior; I was weak
And I thank you in advance
For the next time that we meet

I'm trying to tell you a story
To let you know you're wrong
To tell you that you're beautiful
Whether or not you feel you belong

I'm trying to make you acknowledge
That, darling, you're perfect to me
The beauty in your heart
Is really all I see

Why so insecure?
When did you stop following your dreams?
Why don't you see your life
Is worth much more than it may seem?

I'm trying to end this story
Though there is much more to tell
So tell yourself the truth
And stop saying that you're well

*Just please, get well soon