Give me a minute,
To cry out my tears,
Give me a second to think.

Give me a minute,
To overcome fears,
Give me a second to blink.

Give me some time,
To think it through,
Who do I want,
To be to you?

Give me a second to prioritize,
Give me a minute to close my eyes.

Watching you these days
Is like watching a snake bite victim
As his bulging eyes glaze
First a general malaise, then no hope of being saved.

The serpent's fangs injected venom
Deep into your veins and then the fear set in,
The anger penetrated your consciousness,
Pulse forcing poison, cutting off oxygen.

Higher and higher, your heart rate
Makes the venom strangle sooner,
Squeezing your heart in its burning hand,
This is the serpent's last revenge for you not being her man.

She sneers as she strangles
Surreptitiously from the inside of your chest.
Soon your lungs have deflated,
And your struggling heart is compressed.

All I know now is that I need to find,
A new heart for you, so I offer up mine.
I cut open my chest as my lungs begin seizing,
Extract my last gift and place it in your hands, bleeding.

But little did I know, I was a moment too late,
Because then in your eyes I saw you had accepted your fate.
You gasped your last breath, and I gurgled out mine.
The serpent has won. This is not the first time.

This tiny precious growth
Was nestled in my womb
Until the day they wheeled me
Into that god-forsaken operating room.

Translucent paper gown
Is all I have to catch my tears
If only had more to cover myself
I might disguise my fears.

The doctors were well-meaning
The instruments they used, cold
They cut into me right past my heart
And straight through to my soul.

Can't you see you've taken everything?
All that might have brought us joy
I asked the nurse what my growth had been
You killed our son. My boy.

Bugging out,
Want to shout,
All my dreams,
I'm starting to doubt,
Because I'm not as big as I thought I was...
I'm actually quite small...
And the numbers aren't helping.

Can’t turn my back,
Can’t look away.
Can’t take a break,
Because today could be my day.
Can’t ever give up,
Can’t turn around.
Can’t look to the sky,
Or look to the ground.
Can’t catch my breath,
And can’t waste time crying,
Cause life is too short,
So take your time flying.

I stay up all night,
Thinking about you,
Wishing that you would talk to me,
At least...
Answer when I ask,
But, no...
You just stare,
As if I am not there,
You seem to see right through me,
Though I'm right in front of your eyes,
What have I done?
To make me feel...
As if I'm not there?

Love...
It is like quicksilver,
Leave your palm open,
And it will stay...
Forever in your grasp,
But,
One thing you do wrong,
Can change all that,
The minute...
You try to clutch it,
It darts away,
Leaving only...
Your...
Broken heart and bitter tears