i have picked you up

you let me.

it is one thing i can thank God for.

you are heavy, and i do not know where we are going
but
i made a promise
and i will keep that promise

it is us now
it is harder now
it is us now

we are young
we are young
we are young.

if you'll have me
i will bleed as an open sore

i will do my best to carry you
if you'll have me

i do not know all of you yet
but i want to

if you'll have me.

i hope i do not fail, for my sake and for yours.

i tell myself you're nothing that can be taken.
i have not made you up.
but i will pick you up
with my heavy, heavy arms,
and carry you,
as far as you'll have me.

i get angry
and try to block it out
but it won't stop
and it can't
it's all up to me

i need to let it go
but that's something awful
and everything's wrong
i can't change it

im an alcoholic scared of beer

i wish it were easier

i worship the gods
that bug me the most

its worthless to me
i have never had hope
until now
until you

i believed i was better on my own
but not now
not when there are people like you

if there is a weapon
to fight all gods untrue

it is us
honey
it is you

fate is not a matter of believing

it is a matter of what has happened
has happened

i've looked in movies
and books
and stories from the sky
is that me?
is that me?
i look and i look
searching and observing

i was looking in the wrong spot.

i want to love like they do in movies
i need love like the sun and the moon

but how can i do this
without burning like the stars

i want to love you
because i smile when you talk
and blush when you breathe
love me too

do not let me go