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428 · May 2016
HIM (for M.Floyd '01)
Butch Decatoria May 2016
I can't believe how much I love him

   don't stop these spells of static stirrings
   won't wash it away, like sleep
   in my succint showers
(rightly, comely in my hand)

And still I absorb
the absolute-arrangements of him,
the bear-bulk hulk of him

still I swoon,
   aroused with naive-named niceties
   ceremonial dreams of touchable torches...
And I am overcome,
by flagrant fuels, aflow
ever the more juvenile
   for who am I / to have
   the grand spectacles of him...?

I can't imagine why I love him so
   can't begin to convince or list it
   don't keep this leaping lush of laden love
   ungoverned / inside...
I won't ignore it
I can not hide
I want to tell him
   like laughter spreads its joy
   he's a riddle to be reveled in,
Want to know the questions
his face the answer I want to see...

It is he that silences
the noise of me,

it is he that revises
the mistakes of me,

it is he that spends
the worth of me,

it is he that lifts up
the truth of me

I can't believe
I can't begin

how much I am
                            in love with
him...
428 · Jun 2016
NOSTRADAMUS
Butch Decatoria Jun 2016
Doomsday soothsayer.
What vision doth entertain,
Medieval profits?
427 · May 2016
Untitled (7-10-2015)
Butch Decatoria May 2016
I can hear the heat in the vegas traffic / I can smell the pool water /
sitting here on the lumps of my mattress / I even can taste the lively
daylight, a confection of life's commotions, sweet gobbstoppers, and sour gummies /
I can feel the tug of the outside / sirens beckoning from earth and sky / inside
I can hear the trees pantomiming existence : the scent of church : gardenias : what sights
waking wide --eyes that love to awe in worship / Life /

and I am sitting Indian style, in my bedroom / coffin  /
peering through a digital window, at the world I want to feel /  
Natgeo in high def...

I am the blue pill consuming a matrix steak of ignorance called bliss /
and the emotion that is strongest, is a bad word known as /
Need... /

please free the caged bird /
see what new songs / what more can be heard / ... / please?!
Pretty Please?

/

Coocoo bird at noon o'clock
knows why it sings
after every tock and hour knocking
so why not
pretty please ?  / feel free
to notice

if briefly --    how we breathe...
even captive, the caged lung sings
I want such wings
that the air in my breast
is song of nightingales!

be the art form heaven
graciously experiments...

Freedom !  cry the river Nile
Freedom without denial
Freedom!
*(screamed the coffin's dead, ghost the lifeless poet's
restlessness)
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
1.
Monarch lacks her crown
awhile a worm's ugly state,
true beauty (is) within.

2.
Come chrysalis sleep
finest dreams take silken wings
at time of death, born.

3.
New life made to soar
love's bittersweet symphony:
A queen's heart of gold.
426 · Apr 2019
Soylent Green
Butch Decatoria Apr 2019
These names of prey
In “His Name” they pray
Men name
The products on the shelf
Hot dog Burgers
Bacon obits. &
Illegals
Wet backs
We the people matters
Of lives
Chinks and Blacks
The ***** stacked
The Street Meat
The Addicts
Shopaholics Alcoholism
The names of prey
We the products on the shelf.
425 · Nov 2017
Let’s Make A Porn
Butch Decatoria Nov 2017
Hmm, that twenties
Something young couple,
Maybe yours next door
Street tough sweet boys
Got deep that feeling one another
Hung like a monster
Drink of fresh new air
It’s the last freedom left to break
Into the norm...
Let’s make our own ****
The electric excitement
Recorded for quality assurance...
Turns him on
The two youths for reals
Kissing
They’re hot for each other

Deepnesses rising up in their glow
Exudes into the eyes
Witnessing the truth a taste of it
The divinity of god’s absolute
Something is felt
But can be construed
Since the world is awful full of liars
Yet what tears have Shed / did say,
Like being bled
This physical plane makes a drop
Spontaneous rain
A perfect combustion

Let’s make a **** about our love
Teach the world an example
Of how imperfect humanity
But perfectly
Do we love,
Even so cruel the wilderness of it
The everyday kind of
Wish...
as they watch on,
I wish I knew that...
felt that
Had that
Jesse’s James
Bond girl
But mainly
I wish I had true
Love...
As they watch on,
Is this it
Are we for real?

And heaven questioned
Hey man
What’s the deal?

*(You’ll never know Truth if you never know love)
Where’s the love?
424 · Dec 2015
AHHHH
Butch Decatoria Dec 2015
A perfect circle not yet
complete
has a gaping mouth
constantly
it will speak
has a void to fill
and so it eats
it can't help but be loud

C  how flat tires progress
U  may mistake for Pacuman
n ot so mindful without face
)criptid void's singularity

not so singularly polite
a circle incomplete is so similar
to an unlived life...

"No one will know the whole story
until its all been told"

Talk is cheap / Silence: Gold

and around and around
we go...
"Weeee!"

(Perfectly childlike
circles in the playground
laughter in our soul)
Free verse, spontaneously just written. Thanks Onoma.
423 · Sep 2016
Debonair (Senryu Haiku)
Butch Decatoria Sep 2016
Deans in gabled suits
Eloquent body, jazz smooth,
Sweeps her off her feet.
423 · Dec 2015
MOTEL ROOM
Butch Decatoria Dec 2015
Vegas heats up in these idle lungs
Summer weekends begin their urges / a dirge
like a roar of blood in the ears, no anticipation dwells so
not even those addictions we've reasoned to be just
or justified as youthful relief...

I sit as still as the neon blinking through drab curtains
can allow / without obsessing into a tick / a nervous twitch
The lumps on this bed, like ghosts
from forgotten trysts, seem to jab / to escape /
even when sleep attempts to drain itself from the body
due to the lack of it.

It smells vaguely familiar of 2000 flushes
and ashtrays with liquor stains
hurled from mouths overfed with parties and past
indiscretions / guilt / scattered
on the carpet, and in the corner
reminds me of our foolish frivolity / heavy with loss

hope, laughter / shapes and shadows
in that corner where you vomited
while tears and self realizations of mistakes
chuckle at the face of its absurd truths,
followed by a blank stare...

Your face in its tracks of saline depths
like a painting of twilight rites of passage
which we had to burden in bewitching hours
before the sun / sobering with early light
those times we diluted and ache for still

As I recollect in the hush of a motel 8
drunken neighbors with their sounds of *** / taboo /
echoes our lost twenties
learning to live by fine emotions - secret messages
from inner devils and Mormon Jesus

washing over us / growing up, by latter saints
losing days to nights / so doubtful and wretchedly alive
in the uncertainty of our pages yet to turn
searching for sage & celebration./
losing our true selves with every high...

I sit in this motel room
wretchedly alive / in and out of neon lights
trying to find a good emotion / some worth
staring at the corner shadows of you / vomiting
messages that I only now dematerialize
from sobs lost to the echoes

laughter still to tweet or fly / to the cloud
to oblivion and memory's burrow
I sit in the heat / still unfeeling / now
before dawn, the hours hollow
many a people inside / out there in this city

Still wretchedly in denial
not one will bother me to pity
a life like a motel room
by the hour / we abide by its tune

the hollow breathing of time
the real currency / their ivory tower.
my heaven seems malnourished without
looming over / where's the wonder?

In the distance, far from home,
I sense the arrival of falling skies
Father's angry thunder
even in the false safety of dark rooms,
while we hide
we all will shudder...


(It is not a home if lived in alone
and death occupies both my shoulders)
Rewrite from original titled HOTEL ROOM  in my writerscafe.org page.
Butch Decatoria Feb 2016
Le VALENTINE
                               Red rose and sweet prose,
                               Cyrano De Bergerac 's
                               Moonlit balcony.

MmMmMm
                         Heart-shaped chocolates
                         Each a bite-sized "petite mort"
                         Lifetime on the hips.
422 · Dec 2015
SPIRIT WALK
Butch Decatoria Dec 2015
Panacea
            Predestined
                        Predeterm­ined manifesto

The Mother’s womb where spirit blooms
Instinctual wonderment


Yet the kind are almost extinct
Wish and their screaming wings
To stars moon dreams…

The loneliest finds wisdom
Northward believing
So gains his willful strength

Being
            A “Self” beginning
                        Un-scrawling secrets

Once lauded in lament
Gone are its notes
And perforce coins’ anarchy

Collects in its place pockets full
Full of glory beauty
Accounts rather for star gazing,

Advice with considerations
Glow
Knowing now a purpose
In the Truthful

Journey
         Destined
                   Fulfilling

The lesser roads to constellations
Worthy of ghosts memories din
Renderings from every heaven

                        In evenings the stars destiny is written...
421 · Apr 2017
Halcyon (haiku)
Butch Decatoria Apr 2017
Idyllic Kingfisher
Your plumage stills seas to bliss,
Blushing midnight Suns.
418 · Mar 2016
L'il PONDERINGS #2
Butch Decatoria Mar 2016
In all dreams
there is a bright fondness of things
from our memories,
and those whom we love

Light to light and in kind
the dreaming heart will follow

spirit full and souls
with all that once was and will be
whom we are now with later

Every life as One
cosmic dreaming tree,
stars sparkling
with in deep infinite's
space
of sleep

not death no breath
but just like revisiting

a house or an embrace
of first loves / a home

All the times / together
a quiet place called
perfection

where & when & whom
we all get to know
"cheers to recollections"


To the masterpiece
of every brushstroke


that is where all
                             our dreams must go...
418 · Jan 2017
Paradigm (repost)
Butch Decatoria Jan 2017
The heavy dust from dry summers
selling Chiclets inside the rim of a sombrero

Tortured attire of a woolen rainbow
Poncho, pleading to appear a lowly vagabond

by an uncle who seeds alleyways,
Clothed in his tequila stench;

Instructed by an aunt, obese from endless
refried beans and Uno-Vision sopas.

“Chiclets! --at the top of your lungs, mejo!"
Louder as the weight of the dust devils possess

His voice : a squeaking version of itself,
Coughing at the same spot  in Tijuana’s

Miserable, the invisible, at market...
Dirt in his tears, no longer noticed, too often cried

There is no need to pretend how lowly
Or ***** his juvenile face has smeared;

A clown of earthen make-up, in misery’s portrait,
to example the tender, the precious,

have been left to pander to love, for sale.
A paradigm of angels, fallen with the truth;

Deep into this formidable fate in hell.
Here, he is not above the silence

But he must live in it, live to tell,
How wishes are often made without a well.
417 · Jan 2016
SECOND SKIN
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
I find sleep quite amiable

less resistant

after touching timpani and tiger

prowls

the other wilderness

that is yours

and my undoing

after we have done did the climbing

second skins held close

with tender cooing

the miasma of life's (bowels)

howling

bowdlerizing

the sensations of our

everyday heaven

I find sleep more pliable

after a swim

in you

and I taste myself

in the salt of our comingling

skin

swathed in mouths

and prim

rose

fragrant waterfalls

thunderclouds

and rain

in the aftermath

of the climatic victory

within and about

our dance of skin

I am washed away

a tiny death

a cry to heaven

I am naked

when you're not clothed on me

how strange to need

you to swim

I find dreams much better

aloft

my second skin...
415 · Oct 2016
A Kernal (of Good)
Butch Decatoria Oct 2016
In a Kernal of good corn
Inside such seeds: hope
And millions of futures fed

In the kernal of good deeds
Are all harvests fertile fields
Our hands to bounty wed

If only good surpasses ill
Of storms of greed and needy
No blind minds inept
Or powerful lusts
A contagion of men
Disease that eats all life's ken
To a green house death
As blue turns to desert dunes
Dirt and sky of red
All of us purchased, energies consumed
By hot days' heat
Hell's dry solar breath

If only good were keenly seen
And symbiotic sleepers were awake
In every seed a tree, a breath, a shade
A Kernal of peace
If only for goodness sake.
414 · Jul 2016
NINJA (Haiku Senryu)
Butch Decatoria Jul 2016
Shadow honors death
with stealth's sharpest steel, tonight's
thief of crimson kiss...
414 · Jan 2016
BOMBYX MORI (Senryu)
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
White mulberry leaves,
its veins Univoltine wines .
Silk, worm's waste of time.
Butch Decatoria Oct 2016
awake
in unusal hours my midnight wyrm
slithers to squirm
in our restless bed his fiery head
in water
downed dreams,
almost thrashing about
magnificently
blue swordfish from harshest seas
glistening skins,
hooked
on lines and sinking pipes
tremulous thoughts distracted
somewhere

in attics, dim dusty
addicts to something other-worldly than
he / wakes earlier now
to escape prying eyes discovery
preparingly
locks the bathroom door
         the faucet
sounds
         the shower's
hiss  rebounds, and mini black ipod
roars his secrets to classic rock,
guitar riffs to running ****
camouflage

soundtrack
star trek captain's cloaking devices
what i hear he tells me
It's all inside my own guilt,
paranoia,
          dementia from mind projections

he shrills i am imagining :
the tapping of fingernail on syringe plastic...
then why barricade yourself,
all that sounds
in hollow porcelain:
         steam without heat
         sweat without pores
my heart is sore, and is breaking
while you are slamming
without basketball diaries
Testicles even...
To have
the courage of simply waking
if ever
Or never
at all...

*(He locked himself in the
On suite
For at least two
Long hours...
I needed to take a shower.)
Previous to edit, the title use to be.   in sadness & courage.
413 · Jun 2016
GYPSY
Butch Decatoria Jun 2016
"And all I have are the embers of your fires..."*


A Tambourine, and the evening is beckoning
through the distance
of time : a serpentine road / echoes
the colorful blouses and silks
the memory of love's fire
casting lithe shadows outside the starry nights
fat with celebration
merely a breath from the walls
of this weathered tent...

You were a storyteller on my skin
your lips like fireflies igniting the dark
where only the cold unseen
had gone untouched
until the blaze of the starlight horizon
engulfs without consuming or burning us

you are wildfire magic
the emperor stag or wolf or stallion
and the world is one kingdom
with many heirs
and bright castles

There is a fire for keeping warm
and a fire so hot to shape iron into swords
you are both
mines in minds of wilderness

Every camp we make
a home to hold the embers glow

perchance we stay and mold stronger roots
claim the dirt and dig for gold
place a hat and dub a crown
nothing lifts like wind on embers

when love is not around
life is without fire
no warmth can be rendered....

when your love is not around.
413 · Apr 2016
NIJINSKY (Senryu)
Butch Decatoria Apr 2016
So divine such grace
Words not made to embody
Ballet when God speaks
413 · Dec 2015
MY LIPS
Butch Decatoria Dec 2015
Breathing hard,
we swam in the oceans of our skin

bodies hot,
flesh aflush

as you fall  beside me
feigning to be tired.

I close my eyes
and think about the twilight beach

if it will be you or the moon
walking alongside me

within the decrepitudes
of waning one nights,
stands your inconsequential manhood...

As our Friday night disco breathing
Slows with the silence of regret,

you get up to towel down;
Yet I allow your power to dry on me

but you come and wipe away our ***
as you kiss each place

where you had landed
yet you never consider

my lips...
Other title - "Bruce"
411 · Jan 2017
A Toast
Butch Decatoria Jan 2017
Here here!

Time to drink deeper
Life's elegant poison
The distillation
Indifferences
Quasi-Bliss, meaningless kisses
Vows long dismissed
And the distemper in slights

Eyes
Steel piercing loathing
Skull selfish
Pretenses with fake smiles
But feral quick
An itch to pounce
These Strange days's unfair fight

Human-kindness flounced

From talon to claw
I've become a **** lamb
In the fever of their masquerade ball

They're dressed to the nines
The tenth moment glowers
Eleventh hour molts
It's slime and skins
Even by knowing the danger
I'm still In

Life now feels slick
A snake eating its own tail
While Death, a rictus of teeth
Time in its hiss
(They all hail)

And now
I've become a lone buoy,
Smoke in the water / **** / deep
Adrift in this drowning,
Our ocean
Creation weeps...

I am
Raising a toast
To life even tho'
Far from shore,
I still love you so.

Sunk in their potions
Now made as tho' a mead,
Drink deep

Dark elegant poisons
The liars tend to speak

I will float upon every horizon
They cannot defeat

Cheers and Salut!

To this divine comedy...
410 · Dec 2015
FOREWARNING RHYME
Butch Decatoria Dec 2015
Witches are *******
bald as the ditches
aflood with mud


Witches with itches
hiding their switches
go stabbing ****** blood


Witches unflinching
beware the Hand, clenching
it's the hour of the good


Comes comely from wishes
Mum's babies' light / kisses.
Ten Fold Law be done.
Blessed be, mothers and the earth.
409 · Nov 2016
Tiger-Eye (Senryu)
Butch Decatoria Nov 2016
My August birthstone.
Stripes of golden Jupiters;
Storms of Summers' Suns.
407 · Sep 2016
TRAYSIKAD -(Senryu)
Butch Decatoria Sep 2016
***** knows where they go...
Uphill Battles, Rickshaw roads,
pedal nowhere fast.
TRAYSIKAD...Its a Philippine version of the rickshaw still popular and a well known mod of transport in third world countries and elsewhere.
407 · Oct 2016
Blight (sonnet)
Butch Decatoria Oct 2016
What great enemies have we become now,
Not only to ourselves unkind to home.
Exponential fields, dry deserts to plow.
Polluted seas, skies, to color life chrome.

How far ahead will the future venture
When our third Rock has had enough
Of cataclysmic change, storms of departures,
On the presipice, denying the truth above

Such intelligence and invention cannot find
The answer and the questions of waking life,
Might as well be the thieves in the night
Prophesie our demise : death by blight...

We consume Like a virus that eats away creation
Denying the truth to cure our earthly station,
Let the heavens be as beloved in our reflection's
Where is the love in this race for suffocation...?

Not for no one but all our futures', bright.
When home is hearth and hearth is light ...





Awaken us inside ... Mind and eye and time
*(Oh, day, which I can see... Gaia's beauty / Life.)
406 · May 2016
LEONTINE PRICE (Senryu)
Butch Decatoria May 2016
Aida* on stage,
brown queen's divine voice must climb,
for love redefines.
*The premiere female African American Opera Soprano. (We share the same Birthday Aug.10 - "Day of The Velvet Voice")*
405 · Dec 2015
UNNOTICED (A Nonet)
Butch Decatoria Dec 2015
High speed elocution and magnetized  

eyes / to one another's burrowing,

glaring / the two of you connect

touching without suspect smiles

secrets in lovers' stares

while I'm / unnoticed /

minutia leaf

in a sea

drifting...

Knots.
404 · Jul 2021
Mermaid (acrostic)
Butch Decatoria Jul 2021
Moonshine full upon our seas

Evening breeze sweet beckoning

Reach below, within me deeply

Move me in movements deep tidal pools,

Acquiescing the air a kiss or two.

Inside where we’re wet with need,

Drown me in your love.
Revised, repost
404 · May 2016
SIDEWALK (Cinquain)
Butch Decatoria May 2016
Concrete sidewalks

Tagged and littered with human stains

Walking through landmines

My nervous legs are close to dashing

The lane where its gutters meet the streets...
404 · Sep 2021
Meow.
Butch Decatoria Sep 2021
Some Cats are born free to roam,
Most Cats have pride
Other Cats find themselves a home
Where cool cats can hide
And make a bigger pride.
Big cats can’t abide their roar…



(King of beasts / Game for Rome—circa b.c.)
(Dire Lions hunted to extinction…)
Butch Decatoria Mar 2016
Part Three
WALKING AT MIDNIGHT (IN THE DARK)
_____


METEOR SHOWER

Friday night space-lights
as we caress the hours
streaks across the sky.

FULL MOON RISING

Brilliant face will shine
against curtains of the dark
evening super star.


CROW

Observant shadow.
Recalls the faces of your
jet black ***** deeds.


Le VALENTINE

Red rose and sweet prose,
Cyrano De Bergerac 's
Moonlit balcony.

MmMmMm

Heart-shaped chocolates
each a bite-sized "petite mort"
Lifetime on the hips.


A QUERY (OWL)

"Who?" rather than tweet
in the dark, keenly will see
all her nameless prey.


I DREAM

Sleepless and lovelorn
wishful, pining for the truth
hoping vividly.


A DREAM

To keep promises
enthusiastic as war,
men at last needless...


IN SLEEP

Cradled in silence
a loud mind coelesces
with the universe.


APPARITION

Bold soul from death glows,
in the dark should fear nothing,
up the long walk home.


LIGHTYEARS**

Space is Time is Light
its speed can measure ages'
infinite distance.
401 · Apr 2016
MORE THAN (PERFECT)
Butch Decatoria Apr 2016
When we say or use the word
"perfect"
(like placing a cherry on top)
nothing more can be added
and so it must done.
Why strive so heavily to be "perfect"
the end of being one
narrative
recipe  
picture perfect views
a day or night captured
Kodak moment
flight

"perfect"
monuments of yore
award winning shot
catastrophe and history
the good and bad
had and have not's
great wonders of the world
Instagrams of pearls

In the eyes beholden much
beauty is the art
and the heart is what is touched
ever gracefully
so it goes
the very Life that flows...

She wants a perfect nose
a face to match Shakespeare's prose
I don't
want to want at all
nor do I want "perfect"
I want tomorrow and ever more
the mystery with you
finding that love is more than
footprints on the shore
I want more than what looks
"perfect"
With you love is
more

than...

absolute.
Butch Decatoria Mar 2017
Poetry is...

A happy day, all holidays
And March Twenty First

It is a smile of a passerby
At a crosswalk in Times Square
After 911
When everything tastes like soot

Someone sees you
In the city's ossification of the soul
With all that is unjust
And with every separation
That fear wounds us

The fickle eyes we humans
Worship by
At least someone sees you

In this amoebic herd
Risking to get across the traffic
Precariously held by red

When green is safe
Is good / is Go /
It's a day
And a healthy sign of life

Here on March Twenty First,

Poetry is
A bright sun,
A Holiday.

Poetry quenches our
Withins
The soul's
Deep thirst.
Poetry (#7). Written on a whim, pardon it's banality.
400 · Nov 2016
SEA
Butch Decatoria Nov 2016
SEA
Landscapes of sound,

Sometimes static   chaos conflicts

Galaxies colliding    

With striking colors beyond human eloquence

Yet to evolve  the emotions we flounder

Within (Without)    Love's

Auspicious spaces  

Sound bleeds and whirls

(Particles pixels portraits)

Beams and waves explodes and implodes

Emotions are similar

And if only these mannequin eyes

Could behold

The ocean of the cosmos

The wide might of infinity

Vast and never void

We would witness the unspoken words

The loud actions of benevolence

Rise above it

The emotions they avoid and drown in

The music is as miraculous as

Love feels....

                     Like wet landscapes of colorful

....Sound.
Butch Decatoria Dec 2015
One of few
words that has no other definition
but itself both
written and referenced

with many synonyms similar
a muse universal and familiar
adds shade for heated
hearts all quite red

like a rose
it is it's own unique beauty,
long stemmed
Love
it is nothing but...

everything.

not Lust or Covet, for they are too brazen
and carnal with their hunger
unlike Love, which fills the need
steadily--in time, relieving the craving,
leaving contentment
then feeding others without requirement
of payment...


not Adoration or Crush
because they are still children
without the understanding
or compacity for self-sacrifice
which Love is familiar to
like years unconditional
this trust is a marriage between
naïve and wise...


not Passion or zealous Desire,
due to their one-sided tunnel vision
without compromise or sway,
almost indifferent to all else
but the prize at the end;
for Love has it's eyes in everyday
at all times in your corner


not Like or Fondness, for they are weak
in emotional life,
half devoted and half way gone
waiting for the other
to finish a simple thought
indifference is not a line to cross;
because Love cares for both
itself and yours and all the other,
"love thy neighbor as thy brother"

love is willing to carry the weight
always keen to always wait
no matter how long
or how late...


It is so wonderfully loyal
Love is
that it is at often times motivated
by a blindness for only it's devotion;

but true Love
does not worship
and sometimes must let go
to preserve it's integrity,

for if it is real
it will return with more fuel for the fire
to light the warmth of our hearth
higher...


Love commits fully
even unto death, whether star-crossed
or over time's deepening breath,
it is defined by each
and all
it's own victory and story...


Still,
one of the most difficult things is
to fall in Love
and never understand it

but you know it
like a lullaby from infancy

she whispers to you

do not fear

Love is always
here.
Edit and rewritten from first draft found in writerscafe.org
400 · May 2021
Windy Days in May
Butch Decatoria May 2021
The clouds are rolling in
Loud--the thunderin'
Now the storm's begun,
Rain falls upon the stone.
No wars are ever truly won.
Dark clouds are rolling in....
400 · Dec 2015
WHEN...?
Butch Decatoria Dec 2015
This will end with its beginning. When nothing never was, nor ever will be again. When metamorphosis' of worms to float like blooms of fairy flutter, or pillars of sequoias scraping sky can burn away to char, then from cold thin air or winter lungs of clouds can cry fractal flowers. Nothing comes from nothing, therefore there is always something more, even when our human sight is veiled, preconditioned by what we fear before we learned.

When will we look with not just seeing, peering with more of what is feeling, evolving to feel the pain of leaf and leaving? Cry with our world as it is grieving, heaving with the smog while all else is eaten; when will we realize that this is alive, the blue of all eyes are the same as the ceiling, browns of the soil enriched for seedling, and the blood of the world is not liquid nor spilling. It is the circumference of a heart, a floating castle, and the joy and the lively creates the splendor. The karmic rivers in our considerateness, lifting up to heaven as our worthy witness. See this here, of what we've made?  Rather than say, oh well that's life, **** happens and so it is, say, say, say...

A gift for a gift is given because we cherish whom we are with, when did we forget to celebrate the life that has been given : the basic breath we gulp, and quenching of every thirst, whether deep as poetry, or dry as elephants in desert lakes--we have water falls with queens in their names (yet people are starving and dying, mind you not that far away).
We are able and have enough, stockpiled for winters whether nuclear or Eskimo, yet nothing seems to still be nothing, but then there's peppermint ice cream pies. Starvation in Africa, but dead children do not cry, nor do they--too weak without the food or energy... but then again there's Little Debbie's fudge cookies and marshmallow pies...

And we all praise Ala and Thank the Lord our souls, our being spared of our sufferings, (pipe bombs to and fro) all the while admonishing and bigotry, hatreds and slavery / are given a different face, a dress of expensive tastes. Our only skills are selling wares that is our one time youthful flesh. Because just because we are desperate to have - something more, not having any less than a meal, a roof on four walls, the door.

In god's name we pray... we always see and say and sing and wait... yet nothing is still nothing, impossible I might add, since we are not without we should just all shut our mouths and do something more...

Because if this ends, we are the only ones - all of us - to blame. Not gods, alcohol, or the rain.

What there is to be seen now are dead oceans and forests in flames. Fire and more fire, some in forms of steel, and blades of atrocious acts, and influence of them our holies - accosting us with lies - crapping on our whiles, feeling unworthy because of this chapter / verse, because they're better than that and we are worse. All beneath our noses, defiling our future hopes, in the eyes of our own beloved - turned into wingless birds.

How my love to look upon the whole of the face of the world--becomes desperate pleading for mine vision to be done. When the sights are blindingly painful, numbingly remiss of the hopeful wonder when I was young and a telescope looking up saying this :

"One day I will visit that planet, go flying through the stars... When I'm old enough to be there, where the future are..."

Nothing seems to still be nothing, and never was or could. What is a nothing, when he thought that it was something, to live and just be good?

I'm still here waiting for the beginning, if this is how it ends... a ghost of a poet, with this heart ache and pen...

(Oh Goddess my Goddess...!  When...?)
400 · Feb 2019
Sol
Butch Decatoria Feb 2019
Sol
I am lightning and loudest thunder

A roaring lion, the fearless wonder, child

Soaring above It, becoming sky

All back to One, see then the light,

My third eye blind made merely mortal

To be torn asunder, all flesh will die

In cold coils of pitch portals Under

Yet my Sol will surely fly on high...

Made of lightning and loudest thunder.
398 · Dec 2015
SELFIE (Cinquain)
Butch Decatoria Dec 2015
Boredom

When you're not here

To agonize me best

Your skillful mouth-surprise, touching

Myself.
396 · May 2017
Foolhardy (senryu)
Butch Decatoria May 2017
Don't mistake the heart

As Thoughtful, when those in love

Are fools rushing in...
Butch Decatoria Jun 2016
Sarcophagus walls
mummified stones to *****
compass pointing home.
Pyramid as another possible  title.
395 · Mar 2017
Questioning. (10 w)
Butch Decatoria Mar 2017
Is there more to

Heaven

than just the sky

Light?
Butch Decatoria Jun 2016
Dark mundane corners'
hollow shadows are summoned
to Life's dancing flame.
Butch Decatoria Jul 2019
Moan.
      Y a w n.
Purr.

How I adore our meanderings.
Mornings of misfits, nomads,
waking to the sturdy fur of you,
     pecks, abs, inner thigh
unclad
body heat...

The world outside feels absent,
your hardness
your breath
presently
itching against yesterday's 5-o'clock
     shadow...

We breakfast on such sensations satin
A thousand thread count
sifting in grips of sheets
          creating
silken dunes of flesh creamy hues
soft mounds from our twist
                tied
tethered limbs
then opening those passages
with French kisses
     and humid licks
our lips like
camelback & cobra songs
to Sahara
           Heatwaves
where we worship obelisks
until slumber
has rendered us
              stardust and sphinx
mused and fused - our flesh again
in hymns
     this Sunday morning...

Less stealth of night but copious
is touch
         slithering undulations
         of parched needs
for us to swim in the hunger of its seas
Since sensing sensual stiffness
     your shifting
            your shaft
my blood collects
    to tighten what is mine within

When this grabs hold of us
like the blinding noon
we forgive
           that it is Sunday
mourn that I thirst for you.


Such thickets of urges
   juicy sweet confection / completion's
masculine deprivation
         half grin half flurry,
                     No worry
displacing thoughts of infection
secure in our relations...

Stretching with both my hands
behind me
        gripping with claws of the passionate
buttocks raised (waiting for rain)
as if to be seen & named
      by the gods' - creative breath and shame
           I yearn for your embrace
Heaven forgive me
for the heaven he gives me...

Affirmed
as though we were the firmaments
      sky without permission (or air rights)
to fly
comely
and in our rhythmic trance
we become Spartans
(with our war cry)
         Driven
                 Breathing
One defeat
          Shriven as we're falling
One choice to leap.

                          Exhale Olympus
Fallen pillars' hush.

Good morning, Love
   a taste of how Nirvana feels
constellations and the heavenly
wheel.
Stretching.
Eyes open to take in my world.
         Stretching

Behind
Reaching for you

if just briefly knowing
the whole truth...
Revised repost.
391 · Nov 2017
Hippity Script
Butch Decatoria Nov 2017
Uh hum.  (cough—clearthethroat)

There is no Try
Now let me write the rhyme
The Hippity Script

Let me...
Tell you How we do
Lovely so lovely doomed

There is no Try
Just do me The Dew
On my nose and eyelashes

Let me be your favorite thing
Lightning flashes
A Mohave storm...

Let me be clear
My throat my dear
Taste-touching her form

Please let me
Flip it into Legend
The Hippity script

There is no Try
No fatal end of Grand
Clear of minds/eye

So thus all began
Uh huh.
*(Crickets and sirens)
Butch Decatoria Aug 2016
Like a dragon to a child
                              the ones who fright
                              and hide away
          in fear before (never) knowing
what is seen for fantasy
is the same is
what we look for
                         and find in dreams
cannot be found - here's reality...

But if a dragon should bow
before them ones
                       who's gone sorely / so they'll go
                       screaming ****** ****** GOAL!
if when finally
if that One
(innocent of ignorance)
Look ups
                 A Sun
                (the light of our days)
                and blessed will we see
that a dragon and a child
art flying
              through the clouds now crying,
Happily.

For free.  

(Because what is ugly is to call someone ugly
by not a word to say--but the stink of your nose,
of running away... so think before you hate)


But friends
like a dragon to a child
Love will be - is overjoyed.

(Teaches - Gives - Life :
                    Wings flight to fit the sky)


"Dream Imagine Big
        & Wide,
        smile your shine
        L'il golden hearths,
For you Art / Light."
                                   *Magic in the dragon's heart...
387 · Jul 2019
The Flamboyant (Senryu)
Butch Decatoria Jul 2019
Deadliest to kiss,
From deep seas or coral reefs,
Bright colorful fish.
386 · Apr 2017
Youngster (structure 2)
Butch Decatoria Apr 2017
Take it from me youngster, figuratively
I literally
have no possessions

But surely
learn from your mistakes
More of less of those
encounters

More experiences
without the hate
Alive and happy
thankful just to be

So youngster

now take it from me,
My experiences
stand ahead you...

Live life for you
the truth of whom is
Grace
There is serenity in being
happy a face
Beaming

Real joy is honest a being
Who exudes the love of Life, a light

That is the absolute
of You know Who
                 Soul
          that is a River
Doubtless
we began, now to see

The constructs of trying
Try a brotherly peace,

The lovely existence
without drowning the pearl
The suffocations
Subdegation
of our miracle world

Take it from me, youngster
You only rob yourself
of illumine nations
(Ask)
I've been stealing from my own/me?
Who-dat?
(A puppet)
If nothing else
no one will dispair

When no one cares
to wake

Time will cease, when no one watches

Now Pay
close attention to the joys
Of life you have pretended decoy

Live like
you love to live your life,
Truly utterly Fear  free

Breathe each minute passing
With thankful
joyful and
sincerely

Return the gift of chi
Most positively
the peace we send out, now
Just be mindful
youngsters,

We make our own hells mouth

Chose to be
Yourself
enlightened
Be youthful and truly
speak
freely
Alright youngster ?

Now take it from me
I give you love

I wish you everlasting

Peace.
A rewrite and shift in structure. Experimenting with a new perspective. What'd you think?
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