I Love You               Sarah
Three words that anyone can say
But not everyone can achieve its meaning
I wish I can have your personality in my life everyday
To see a movie or whatever you would like and then cuddling
I know we spent less than a week together before you left
But we are still going strong though all this distance
You mean everything to me and that is the truth
But I really do love you with all my heart
Not just a single, lonesome part
With all my heart
I love you

I worry so much about you
Just being simple and clear
I know very little and few
Without you anymore here
I fear all the negative outcomes
I fear the pain you go through
I fear you unhappy and alone
Although none of that fear is new
You may wonder why I still fear
We aren't together, yes I sure know
I do still think this feeling is queer
But there's nowhere for my fear to go
When I try to talk to you, it's to help
But when I do, it seems you no longer care
I know other worries will soon develop
But giving up on you now is not really fair
If you wish to still talk, I am always here
For you are my Polish Buddy, my dear

This may be way too early
But as people always say
You only live once, YOLO
But I usually don't follow
This is not a normal poem
There is no rhyme or pattern
Just an explanation to you
I know it hasn't been long
Since it all abruptly ended
But I am just not quite sure
Not sure on when it's right
Or even when it is wrong
But I am sure on one thing
The facts about you, Maddie
You're adorable, cute, pretty
Beautiful, stunning, lavishing
Any description that you want
You ARE absolutely amazing
I've been debating to do this
But I am needing to ask you
I know I said I wouldn't go
But will you, Madelyn
Go to homecoming with me?

Everyone is full of immense beauty
It takes someone special to see it
Only that special someone can see
True beauty hidden from the world
You may not seem beautiful to all
You may be pale, skinny and short
Or even a pearly tan skin and tall
Beauty is seen by someone special
You may think you see the beauty
But our eyes can deceive the mind
It's just the outer shell that you see
Inside could be a whole other creature
You must be patient for them to appear
Your eyes must be one with your mind
Maybe even face a newer pesky fear
If your heart and soul agree, go for it
Opportunities flash in the blink of an eye
Beauty is something not seen by us all
You may live life alone until you will die
But you know you didn't have fake love

You may have an idea
You may have a thought
But I'm like North Korea
Everything? I think not
You don't know my experience
You don't know my background
My story exceeds your intelligence
The mysteries while I'm not around
You don't know what people say
You don't know how people live
You hear something new everyday
And you have no intelligence to give
So back away from lives other that yours
And learn about yourself before taking tours

Sitting here late at night
I think about you, and I worry
I hope my assumptions are right
And not visions that are blurry
I worry about you everyday
I hope that you’re safe
Worried and afraid in every way
But not losing hope or faith
I hope you’re not feeling sick anymore
But I have a feeling that’s not true
As now the tears in my eyes begin to pour
Dripping down my face, as I worry about you

No matter how it appears
It’s always the same to me
Shining through all the tears
Showing that you’re breaking free
Your smile being clear or mischievous
It still will brightens the room
Being totally innocent or devious
It still erases all my undesirable gloom
No matter what it should mean
It’s always the same in my eyes
Happiness and sadness and in between
Remains the same, from the smiles and cries
No matter what anyone else thinks
I know that it’s beautiful in every way
However, due to the distance and few links
I don’t get to see that smile everyday
I wish to see it sometime soon however
But it really seems totally inevitable
No matter how much someone is clever
They know that now it’s near impossible
Despite us not being together anymore
I wish that I would be yours until the end
But our love is now flying out the door
Telling this story to others, it hard to comprehend

I am not talking of the dreams
For what you want to do in your life
The ones that occur in your sleep
But over the past couple of nights
I have encountered unwanted dreams

A few nights ago
I dreamt of being in a plane
Going to see the person I love
And the plane crashed in a horrific manner

Then there is last night’s dream
I drove 1500 miles to see the one I love
And when I arrived, I held her in my arms
And she soon passed away
Sobbing while cradled in my arms

I don’t want these dreams
They’re showing me unwanted ideas
Unwanted predictions of the future
I wish the happy dreams would come back...

I try hard at all I do
Yet I always fail
I try to pay attention
Yet I still doze off
I try to walk proud
Yet I slouch in pain
I try to be composed
Yet I break down
I feel worthless now
No value left in me
I am a wasted soul
Walking amongst the world

It will be alright there
Just cheer up buttercup
I know these scars hurt
Bringing back memories
But the past makes you
Becomes who you are now
Without it, you are nothing
And to someone here today
You are their everything
Just remember that
You are now confused
No knowing what to do
In an unnatural situation
Thinking about someone
But just go with the flow
If he likes you, then he does
If not, it's not the end of the world
There are plenty of fish in the sea
You find the right guy eventually
Just keep your chin high buttercup
Put that smile back on your face
Prove that you are proud of yourself
You don't let the past hold you back
Don't let others take you down
If he doesn't like you, it's okay
You're still beautiful to someone
And just remember to be happy
And just stay yourself

These islands are magnificent
So much to see and a lot to do
Between people, money is lent
As we always see something new
Full of romance and pure beauty
Sights some may see in photos
Up an extinct volcano feeling free
What's new to see, no one knows
Now my time here is far from boring
I'm enduring pain and also confusion
Busy with free and organized touring
To me it all just feels like an illusion
I think I found someone that I like
She happens to be pretty and sweet
We talked on the Diamond Head hike
And got through it together in the heat
I don't know what to do in this moment
It's not the first I've have to quickly decide
While climbing the volcano that's dormant
I realized that I am no longer able to hide
I'm limping around with a strained calf
It happened while swimming in the ocean
It felt like my calf had been ripped in half
Now it's in pain like a while ago it had been
I'm in this romantic area full of compassion
But I'm alone with my own unique fashion

One must be grateful with what they have
Some out there are not as fortunate as you
We often take our simple lives for granted
While others struggle to find themselves
We must be grateful for the food we have
As there are some that struggle to survive
We must be grateful for the roof above us
As some sleep in the harshest of conditions
We must be grateful for the clothes we have
As some freeze due to lack of their clothing
We must be grateful for our transportation
As some walk all day to their destination
Lastly, we must be grateful to simply live
There is going to be someone out there
That is struggling more that you are now
No matter how difficult you think life is
It is harder for someone else in this world
You're not the homeless man with no food
He has to dig through your trash cans
To find the food you waste every day
You're not the child dying in the hospital
To a disease that affects one in a million
Wishing your tax dollars can save his life
But you're too stubborn with your money
We need to be grateful with what we have
As there is always someone out there today
Struggling to survive throughout the day
While we "struggle" with pointless issues

I stood there shocked
As if my world stopped
My feelings were blocked
My legs gave up, I dropped
I couldn't believe what occured
I thought it was all a horrendous dream
I knew it was true, it all just was blurred
As I tried to wipe that unwanted memory clean

A hairline fracture is painful yet goes unnoticed
We go on with one of these as we are overly focused
The pain of this slice is felt by oneself but not noticed by peers
Because it's not visible, but it may be as the breaking time nears

My life today is identical to one of these fractures
Full of pain that goes unnoticed by those around me
This fracture is constantly worsening from negative factors
But soon, all this pain will go away so I can finally break free

The many emotions I feel right now is insanity
It is too much to be able to contain inside oneself
Especially for such an inexperienced youngster like me
As these emotions make this life extremely tough
The sadness enveloped in me is starting to escape
It’s slowly breaking through, creating havoc on life
I don’t know how much more I can possibly take
Until these emotions cut my life apart like a knife

Counting down the final days you may have
I think back to the times we spent together
Those few times where we just sat and laughed
To the time when I sent a surprise birthday letter
Not many memories can be reminisced in my mind
Due to the little time we spent together, before you left
I wish that I can put those few memories on rewind
The future memories taken, unwanted theft
I then fast forward to the times we could spend
But those times may never come, be always gone
But I’m currently doing something I sure don’t recommend
That is, the dying days left, to create your final countdown

I'm not prepared for anything
I'm not prepared to face my fear
Not ready to give someone the ring
I'm not ready for anything, far or near
Not ready for what my future has in store
Not ready to accept the certain facts
I'm not prepared to shut the past door
I'm just wanting to lay low and just relax
I'm not ready to be in a wonderful relationship
As much as I want to, I'm not mentally ready
My happiness remains hanging with tight grip
While my aching heart remains alone and needy
I'm not prepared to meet new people anymore
Because I'm afraid to break down in the mix
I'm constantly fighting my internal war
Waiting for something new in life to fix

My heart remains free from all
My soul is on a cliff about to fall
My ****** lips still remain shut
My feelings still deep in my gut
I will not show love anytime soon
I will lose my soul by the next noon
I will never seem to kiss someone
I will regurgitate my love on the run
I always say I will remain forever alone
I always give my self a surprise there
I always speak in my calm, shy tone
I always end up in a deal that's not fair
I wish I could fall in love once more
I wish my soul would remain near
I wish happiness in behind the door
I wish my new love is nothing to fear
I am a crumbling mess it seems to me
No one else can see much difference
No one can tell happiness is lost at sea
I am now the only considerable reference
I have the only people needed to fly by
And those are just me, myself, and I

Luscious long dark brown hair
Blonde is not preferred there
Big brown eyes, peer in my soul
Shorter fit build is much preferred

However, looks aren't all to me
Kind at heart, touching personality
A cute laugh that I never get sick of
Magical smile to enlighten my world

She must be trustworthy with all I say
Respect each others decisions everyday
If I find this girl, my life will be complete
However, it'll be difficult in this huge world

The sun beating on your face
Sweat drips down your back
You can't move out of your place
No time to go eat a day snack

Commands to the left and right
You reply by yelling your reply
Clarinets sounding shrill and bright
Visuals where you pretend to die

The cheers of the applauding fans
All there to witness a marching program
There to support all the local bands
Not as simple as Mary Had a Little Lamb

The season ends like a firework finale
All hard work and dedication pays off
Until the final band's ferocious rally
They leave the field silently, not even a cough

Dut dut dut, band ten hut, band left face
All the wonderful sounds of a new start
A new year to set the show back in place
And play the music majestically from the heart

I will guide you until you succeed
I will give all necessary knowledge
I will give you all the help you need
To help flourish in life after college
I will teach you all the needed skills
I will assist you when you need help
I will turn all your maybes into wills
To help you believe more in yourself
It is my duty to brighten your future
It a must to push you through it all
It is my job to put you through torture
While I am friendly as you walk the hall

The vile feeling stuck inside us all
The evil word that haunts the human race
All people, the short and the tall
Pasting a worried expression on our face
Harming people of all ages
Students studying to the elderly in a nursing home
Sending these people in angry rages
All ending with the feeling of being only alone
Infecting our body in unwanted times
Times where we want to work hard to succeed
But stress and failure are perfect bonds
To make our final work quality drastically deplete

The lavish red of amaryllis
To the dullness of a full fern
Nature is full of true beauty
Letting others have their turn
The smooth blue of hydrangea
No match for the sweet carnation
Full bloom excites the active mind
Much more that a grand vacation
The daffodil's eye popping structure
Is unlike the chrysanthemum spray
Pointed edges point in new directions
For you to be able to follow every day
The orchid with it's numerous variations
Can not be tamed by the colorful tulip
The stem of the orchid shows a long life
Full of tranquility only at a tequila's sip
Enjoy the beautiful flowers around you
Everyday, you will see something new
You may see rarities seem by just a few
And you'll see something you never knew

First I will say you look wonderful
Despite being out in the humidity
Your spirit remains peppy and full
Even over a temperature of ninety
Your smile brightens those around
Your hair flows freely in the breeze
You try to help those that surround
Telling them to stop and to freeze
You like to be surrounded by peace
You're still with some that are a pain
Even those like me that tend to tease
Now you silly chipmunk orangutang
I must ask you one thing before I end
Would you, Madelyn, be my girlfriend?

I feel like life is a giant ride
A roller-coaster of mystery
No place to run or to hide
Past is gone now history
Once in line, no returning
You now are strapped in
Your stomach churning
Shoulders in a tight pin
Just like your emotions
Changing automatically
No remedy or a potion
To cure this lone bully
Sad and happy all day
Not knowing the change
Knowing in a distinct way
It's now in a different range
Can't control the machine
But you can control you
In a world of bright green
I only see a brownish hue
I want to get off this ride
I want to run as far possible
Before it gets close to my side
Leave behind all chaos and rubble

Thinking about your decision you made
Just the other night, deciding to break up
Hope to see each other had continuously fade
Us both being weary, you saying this is enough
Both of us were constantly over-stressed
I knew the time would come, like it was a past vision
But you are trying to put that stress to its own arrest
And in saying that, to break up, I respect that decision

Every girl that wanders into my life
Is facing their her own different strife
No matter how they are in distress
I treat them like a special princess
I do my best to be compassionate
Be better continuously since we met
I put forth her emotions before mine
Then go to mine when hers are behind
However I feel like a tattered rag-doll
Used until it faces it's disastrous fall
I am constantly loved then thrown away
Not to be important anymore on any day
I'm like a brand new rechargeable battery
Used once and then dropped like gravity
I am using up energy and forgotten about
Then when it is gone, I am a pile of doubt
I treat others the way I would like to live
I serve others and give all I have to give
Yet I am still worthless after a short while
Which leaves me alone, tattered, in denial

I wish I was able once again love
I just need that encouraging shove
To push me to continue carrying on
Not to wait too long, until time's gone
I wish to hold someone's gentle hand
Make her smile to make our time grand
Peer deep inside her majestic, deep eyes
Wipe away her tears from her previous cries
Have a wonderful and beautiful wedding day
Live a long life together, enjoying all we say
Take long walks on the beach, through a cave
Deeply mourn the death on the others grave
Our love has taken it's course upon our souls
Helping succeed at our most important life goals
Having a successful, lifelong true love

Despite you being a thousand miles away
You are right next to me here in my heart
But I still wish to feel your presence anyway
And again I can be next to my life’s missing part
I miss you like crazy and I wish you were here
But I’m hoping this long wait will end someday
Even though time’s almost gone, don’t you fear
But I am not fearful even in the slightest way

I feel like a pawn in this nasty game of chess
Always forced going into some sort of mess
All my important decisions are made by others
And it's seems there's no one that even bothers
I am the first to face a conflict in all my peers
And it only seems to intensify over these years
People use me so they can benefit and gain
Leaving me alone and in a great deal of pain
I wish to leave this chess game of endless hell
But it's hard to leave with how far I already fell
I just wish to break free of the kings unholy grip
Just so I can leave the path of his unruly whip

She's here in town tonight
And here for a few weeks
I want to go and see her
But she will not talk to me
I want to be friends again
And it is killing me inside
I want to see her once more
But I am now nothing to her
I dream that I am seeing her
And I am making her smile
Just like it all used to be
But I wake up to reality
I think I will never see her
And I may just give up on her
She made me who I am today
But I need to forget all about her
She is always in my thoughts
And I want her to leave my head
She will slowly start leaving
But soon return to no avail
I do not know what to do now
And I know I need to move on
I know I need to forget about her
But she meant so much in my life

Through the sickness and cold
You remain strong and bold
Leaving all your friends behind
It’s too much pain combined
Remain strong my darling
Fight until your mind is swirling
Think about the happy moments
Combine happiness from many components

Of all people that endure most
It’s the innocent who take almost all
The one’s dying while on their post
Serving their country, standing tall
The children suffering on cancer’s fate
Can’t do anything to defend their own
Dying at a quickening and increasing rate
To most, this issue is just something to condone
More must be done to help with these matters
So we could stop those tears from its pitter patters

You get on as soon as you’re born
No maximum or minimum height requirement
Your body tenses up and becomes warm
As you get strapped in for the ride of your life
Throughout the many twists and turns
The different amounts of speed and velocity
Leaving small little wrinkles and wind burns
Scarring your body until the very end

Everyone’s ride on this coaster is utterly different
Many different experiences between all individuals
Some of these riders will encounter many hills
While others will experience more corkscrews and spirals
Even though some rides are shorter than others
And although everyone ends the exact same way
Only most people have a calming and soothing finale
At the end of everyone’s ride is the exact same
Finally they come to the end, entering into a dark, quiet valley
A valley that leads them to their final resting point

To be totally honest
I really am clueless
I may seem modest
Inside I'm speechless
I don't know how I feel
Don't know when to do
Don't know what is real
Then all thoughts go to you
I'm clueless overall on life
I'm stuck in the ocean blue
Filled with agony and strife
I don't know the near future
I'm clueless on the current day
This is pure, self created torture
That I can't stop in a known way

Even though it seems as if already defeated
You can’t just give up all at one time
You have to fight until you are seated
Remain strong like a thick grape vine
Even though you lose a few battles
It does not mean you have already lost the war
Your body will obtain a few rattles
But the excruciating pain will soon be nevermore

Playing hide and seek until it got dark
Going every weekend to a local park
Keeping and cleaning a pet rock
Having a bedtime around 9 o'clock
These were always the good old days
Piling unhealthy food on lunch trays
Tag and army men was not just a game
It brought those champions internal fame
Why do we all have to grow into adults
Why can't we have nothing be our faults
I do not even want to grow up anymore
I wish to not see what is behind the door

I have quite a lot to overcome
Many decisions must be made
Quick and quiet like a faint hum
Few with some prices to be paid
Deciding if I should give you a visit
Deciding if I should ask someone out
Each could carry a consequential hit
In could also benefit without a doubt
I know both can course some harm
One can be a last time to see someone
The other could easily set off an alarm
I with that both could be easily done
I'm not sure what to do in this mayhem
But time can be running short with each
I know I but be quick with both of them
Both ******* the life out of me like a leech
I must decide what's best for us everyone
But if I don't think soon, it'll all be gone

I truly wish I had one today
Someone to hold and care
Show affection in any way
Even when I am not there
She's beautiful like Hawaii
And sweet like a sugarcane
She's always right beside me
Through the sun and the rain
I wish I had at this very time
To be able to rant to at night
About nothing we can define
Just something in our sight
We can work together as one
We laugh together at nothing
We will always find some fun  
We cry together in mourning
But as of now, it's not there
My care is aside for later use
It is now just painful and unfair
After I've faced all this abuse

The gentle rain falls down my face
Expressionless, yet full of despair
The rain having a wretched taste
An unwanted experience to share
Hoping the rain washes the misery away
Leaving my world lifeless and dull
As everything is colorless and only grey
It never leaves, leaving me miserable
Oh rain, rain, please leave be alone
It’s difficult to explain how I feel
These feelings, I can’t condone
The pain, the sorrow, seems unreal

I don't know what to do anymore
I can't make a simple decision easy
I'm clueless deep down in my core
My view in this world is quite hazy
I don't know which direction is right
I don't know which direction is wrong
I can never find the ever glowing light
I hear nothing but the fading of a song
This song pointing me somewhere near
Someone near where in supposed to be
I don't follow because of what I now fear
I fear there is no more happiness in me
I don't want to go through any more pain
My heart is currently torn without repair
It's not a simple fix as if it were a strain
Nothing can fix it unless love is there
But love to me is nowhere to be found
I have to yet decide what sign to follow
I choose which way by a distinct sound
Hoping it can fix my heart which is hollow

As the first flake hits my lips
A cold sensation flows through my veins
Continues all the way to my finger tips
Until they tingle, with little pains
The cold wind tenses up my face
As I bundle up to remain warm
The snow starts to fall at a constant pace
These small flakes meaning no harm
This cold and snowy winter day
Is beautiful in every single way