Ruheen: Poems

Aug 2018 · 103

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Ruheen Aug 2018

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Do you hear that?
It's silence.
Can you see that?
It's nothing.

It was once there.
I could see it.
And when I called out
It always answered.

I know it's still there.
Even thought I can't see it.
But when I call out
There's no reply.

Aug 2018 · 613

Running

Ruheen Aug 2018

Running

I was caught off guard
I never saw it coming
Why is this so hard?
Why am I still running?

I keep running
But my problems don't disappear
I'm even more scared
I have more to fear

I'm so tired
I've been running for too long
Do I fight back?
Or should I just stop?

I'm still running, but it doesn't solve things.
It just makes them worse.

Have you ever wanted to just run away? From everything? Your problems, fears and secrets? Reality?

You can, but not for long. It won't help.

Avoiding the mistakes you've made makes you seem a lot more guilty than you are.

Jul 2018 · 736

Why Would I?

Ruheen Jul 2018

Why Would I?

Why would I want
The wind to grasp my hair?
For if it does
It may take me too.

Why would I want
To chase the stars
If they only crave attention?
I have better things to do.

Why would I want
To warm him in winter?
For I am also cold
As am I alone.

Why would I want
The birds to sing my songs?
It is music to only their ears.
Not to my own.

Why would I want
To yell so loud
When I have nothing to say,
And it is pointless for you to hear?

Why would I?

Jul 2018 · 666

I Don't Know

Ruheen Jul 2018

I Don't Know

I don't know
Why the wind blows
Or how far the stars go

I don't know
Why winter is so cold
Or why I'm left alone

I don't know
Why the wind strokes my skin
Or why the birds sing

I don't know
Why I yell
When I have nothing to tell

I don't know

Jul 2018 · 182

Are You Okay?

Ruheen Jul 2018

Are You Okay?

"Are you okay?" They ask.
I think "I don't know. Am I?",
But instead I say "I'm okay."
It doesn't matter if I'm not
Because that's all I'll ever say.

"Are you okay?" They ask.
I force on a smile and nod,
But I'm not okay.
My eyes constantly water,
And my head always pounds,
While my thoughts become dark.

Somehow they can't see it.
See me flinch everytime I move.
Why would they?
I'm excellent at hiding things.

"Are you okay?" They ask.
"I'm okay." Is my reply.
But guess what.
I lied.

As they say "It's for your own good..."

Jul 2018 · 173

It Doesn't Hurt

Ruheen Jul 2018

It Doesn't Hurt

He winces from the pain
She bleeds from her bruises
While they watch and laugh

It hurts to move

He wants to slit his wrists
She cries herself to sleep
And they have no regrets

It hurts to blink

He vows to fight them
She promises to stand up
But they hit back harder

It hurts to breathe

When he finally cracks
When she finally screams
They all begin to cower

It doesn't hurt anymore

When you have had enough of their torment and can't take it anymore.....don't lash out in anger or show them you're upset. Instead, be nice. They'll walk away...confused.

Don't be scared because you are never alone. Just show them that you don't care.

Jul 2018 · 2.2k

All That I Hear

Ruheen Jul 2018

All That I Hear

I can hear their whispers
Even when they think I can't
The rumours they spread
The lies they tell

It keeps on going on
And on
And on
I can't make it stop
It won't stop
It's driving me insane

But it's all that I hear

I see them looking at me with disgust
Because of the way I dress
They give me titles all day, everyday
Because of my intellect

It can go on
And on
And on
For as long as it wants
It may drive me insane
But I couldn’t care less

Even if it’s all that I hear

Jul 2018 · 107

Scars

Ruheen Jul 2018

Scars

I closed the door.
I opened old wounds.
My mistakes left marks.

Bit my tongue,
But only once.
Now I’m left in the dark.

I closed my eyes,
And turned away.
Look at me, I’m covered in scars.

You can fix it,
But you can't forget it.
There will always be something
To make you remember.
You'll always be left with a scar.

Jul 2018 · 114

Scared

Ruheen Jul 2018

Scared

I said I wasn’t afraid
You said you’d never leave
But we both lied
When I was scared
You comforted me
So at least you tried
When I faced my fears
You got up and left me
And I sat down and cried

Jul 2018 · 607

inVISIBLE

Ruheen Jul 2018

inVISIBLE

It’s like I’m here but I’m not
They only see me when they want to hurt me
It’s like they’ve sewn my lips shut
I only speak if I’m spoken to

My screams are soundless
I want to disappear
The pain is endless
Nothing to make it easier

My tears have dried
The pain has dulled to a throb
This is normal now
My fears are lost

No one comes to my rescue
Because in their eyes I don’t exist
And what do I do
I move on and I survive

Jul 2018 · 572

Bitter

Ruheen Jul 2018

Bitter

Bitter cries, loud sobs
Faded tears, make it stop

Bitter taste, salted cheeks
Sweet lips, let me be

Bittersweet, open wounds
Lost fears, in empty rooms

Bitter cries, bitter taste,
Bittersweet, it’s all fake

Bitter cries, bitter cries
Please just leave with all your lies

Bitter taste, bitter taste
I want you gone, but I miss your grace

Bittersweet, bittersweet
Without you here, I feel incomplete

Bitter cries, bitter taste
Bittersweet, my heart’s encased

Jul 2018 · 331

The Promise

Ruheen Jul 2018

The Promise

“You made me a promise
But you just broke it.
The tables have have turned
Don’t you get it?
It’s us against the world
Not you against I.
You promised to protect me
But you lied.”

“I made you a promise
And I didn’t break it.
The tables have turned
Believe me I get it.
It’s not us and the world
It’s only you and I”
I promised to protect you
And I’ll still try.”

— The End —