Nothing feels right
I feel everything at once
Months of being numb
The pain has just now just begun
The meds just seem to keep the feelings away
But now I have nothing I'm left with the pain
All the thoughts just echo through my head
Am i better off here or am I better off dead
So confused and don't know up from down
I'm left out here looking like a clown
I need a home and somewhere to go
Don't know what to do when everybody is gone
I need some stability, just a little at least
I prolly could use a couple good hours of sleep.
Now I'm drunk and alone and I need you more than most.
And ur at home sleeping with no clue I know.
My heart feels like it's been ripped into pieces
Thinking about you and the reasons I had for leaving
I want you, and us and everything in between
Forgive me if I ever came off as mean
I'm so lost without You in my life
Please come back and let me take you in stride.
I love you always more than u ever will know
Please take me back and let me come back home

Slowly bending, and I'm bound to break
Slowly killing, and I cannot shake
These feelings that I will not make it
And everyday I have to go on faking
That I'm fine, and I cannot take it.
I want a home of my own
A place to go when nobody else is home
I keep fighting but these demons inside
They eat me alive
Put them away but they cannot hide
Always on my mind
Even when I try they are always there
I gasp but I can't find air
The nightmares they never go away
Every night I'm stuck and I can't be saved
I **** up everything good in my life
I should be use to it now but I cannot find
The peace I need to be able to shine  
I do it to myself and I know that this time
Somehow can't grow my wings to fly
I don't know how to be alone
How to run the show
I can't even make my own decisions I know
I have to do something to finally be okay
Is it go home or just stay away
Take it day by day
At least that's what they say
Keep your head up and just shake it off
My head may be hard but my heart is soft
Trying so hard to get back on my feet
But every time I end up hitting my knees
I feel so weak
I've made it through so much worse than this
But I cannot miss
All the feelings that I do not belong
Sing the chorus and they cut the song
It's my life and I'm losing control
Spinning in circles and I can't find home
Oh wait, I had it but now it's gone
Slowly bending and I'll prolly break
Better bring the tape
But I'll be okay
It's the only option at this point I know
It's time for me to reach out and grab control

Lost in my world I can feel it all around
I may notice a lot but I don't make a sound
Trapped in my head like a toy in a box
Trying to find my way out is like looking for a lock
The quiet ones are who you really have to worry
They may not say a lot because they hold in their fury
A mind can only hold in a couple thousand words
Before it just screams and it's longing just to be heard
Silence is deadly,at least that's what they say
Just holding in your thoughts can **** you a million ways
But what do you do when your opinion doesn't matter
When you talk and talk but they hear nothing but chatter
A voice is a voice, only when it's heard
Silence is more than just an ordinary word.

Night

The night time comes like fire
Burning her with flames
She lays in bed just waiting
Until the light of day
The demons dancing around her in every sleepy thought
She can't escape the memories
In the back of her mind they haunt
Dark is for demons that waltz in her bed
Dark are the thoughts that are dancing in her head
Dark doesn't describe the feelings of terror
Like looking at yourself in a half broken mirror
Piece by piece, falling apart
She didn't deserve this, She has such a big heart
But the scars that cover it make a light that shines bright
Sometimes you can even see it shining in her eyes
For every dark day, comes a much brighter sky
Just stay strong my darling, the sun will always rise.

Breanna Dixon