Adrenaline and fear
pump through my heart
As I see the words
RIP Corey
everywhere
I try to find out
if this is you
No one is answering me
quickly enough
I begin to imagine the worst
I had seen you just a few hours ago
Could you really be gone
Then my heart tries to slow
when I read it is not you
but another unfortunate soul.

You show up unexpected
a pleasant surprise

How overjoyed I am
to be reunited with you

You'll only stay a little while
but I am so grateful for the time I get

The days pass on quickly
things almost feel like they used to

Before we grew up
and carved our own paths

But then you must leave again
You wake me up to say goodbye

I give a bleary farewell
it feels more like a dream

I love you, I say
You reply, "I love you too. A lot."

You close the door
I fall back asleep

I wake up and
creep into the hallway

I look for you
in the den where you should be

But you are gone
and the house lays silent.

Risk
Is
Risque

The light beams through the shades
I roll away from the brightness
And smile as I see your sleeping face
How pure and innocent you appear
Like an angel sent to make me forget
All the negativity in the universe
I see the rising and falling of your bare chest
I feel the life pulsing through you as I caress your arm
You moan so lightly I cannot be sure you ever made a sound
Your eyes slowly open and a golden smile spreads across your face
You are here
In this moment
With me
That is all that will ever matter.

I've been so close to love
Right on the verge
I could feel it
But then it was cut abruptly
And now, I'm just
left with this ache
This burrow of what
could've been
but will never be.