Words cannot describe,
What i feel at midnight.
Laying in bed,
Remembering the good-old-days in my head.

When you and me use to be we

When it was you and I
No one else on the side.
I want to be back in your arms
For you to hold me
Tell me I'm yours.

So why cant we break that door
And let me in once more?
I'll do better
Wont fall for another feller

'Cause all I need
Is for us to once again be we.

Matilda has been rolling cigarettes all morning.
Her fingers are nimble and pinching
"We're going out tonight," she says,
And I don't know what that means.

"But I have to work late again," I say,
But to Matilda, that does not matter.
Matilda does not mind.

Peter has been pacing around all morning.
His feet are bare and his toes are flinching
"I'm going to lose it tonight," he says,
And I don't know what that means.

"But you've tried so hard to keep it," I say,
But to Peter, this is meaningless chatter.
Peter has lost his mind.

Some days don't even start.
Like today.
Coming down off your high,
You make me shake,
You make me tremble with fear when I think what it will be like without you,
But more than anything else,
You make me happy.

<3

The echoing rain falls
With your shadowy back
In my sight once again
Where I walk towards to
Always in the echoing rain

There the sun hides
Beneath the grim clouds
I find you
Your back like the autumn leaves
A warmth feeling of something lost

If you could only see
What lies beyond these eyes
That wonder all these years
When you'd finally turn and say
I know you too

Because under the echoing rain
In a cold winter past
I stand and wait
For the skies to open
And for you to turn back to me

Where is the silence, O my Soul?
    I cannot find it here nor there.
I hear of violence, war untold,
    But stillness hides beneath my stare.

Love is in the quiet hour,
    Lessons learned from deep within;
Hope is in the blooming flower,
    Answers told to asking men.

Clouds will never cease to shower
    Rain upon the begging grass;
Stars will never lose their power,
    Guiding us back home at last.

Where is the silence, O my Soul?
    I finally see it in the air!
Beneath the violence, I now know,
    There rests a peace found anywhere.

02:34 19/12/2010


When all is closing in from every side
When no-one else perceives the good in you
When need can't rise above your walls of pride
And seemingly there's nothing left to do


If you should feel reviled for who you are
Feeling alone in pain and misery
No leap of faith could ever be too far
To call a friend, albeit reluctantly.


I'd catch a bullet with my heart for you
I'd take inside of me your worlds of pain
Bestow the wealth of love you never knew
Give anything to see you smile again


When all seems lost, when no-one seems to care
The one who loves you most is always there.

I can't get her out of my head
It's this girl
A stranger to me, yet all I can think of
Beautiful beyond belief
A million dollar smile
The easiest laugh I have ever had the pleasure of hearing
Its this girl
And she will never be mine

Walks in the park
Naps in the sun
I just want some tea by the fire
Skinny dipping at midnight
Kisses stolen, snatches of heaven
Secrets shared, sleep long forgotten
I just want to love, and be loved

That's not how it works though
For me, anyways
I will get loneliness
Nights spent by myself
Nobody to share the blanket with
Or to rely on, while being relied on

Its this girl
And she won't be mine

Why do you want for me to feel like this
Please don't taunt me with those perfect lips
Don't give me that look that sticks in my mind
Won't give in to that hook because you're not mine
Really wish that I could pull away from you
Now I feel like a fool because either way I loose
Red flashing lights going off in my head
Still tonight I want you here instead
How do I escape these feelings that are so bad
When I am not willing to give up what I can't have
I need a solution so help me please
My strength is fading and I need my energy
I wish you could see what you are putting me through
I need to get away but somehow you keep pulling me back to you

I've been crazy,
since the day I was born.
A little lazy,
and always torn.
But it's okay,
I'll succeed anyway.

You say I can be happy on my own,
that I am just phony who never picks up the phone,
but I refuse to believe that tonight.

I only know who I want to be,
I don't know who I am
it's getting hard to see.
It's two a.m.,
still won't answer the phone,
he calls but I'm not alone.

I crave your bitter honesty,
how you drown in every insecurity,  
you are the only one I know who scares me.

I'm a friend you say,
but one you can't tell anything to.
You push me away,
then blame me through and through.
You trusted her more,
then she threw your secrets out the door.

Hold me oh so tight,
please I don't want to fight.
I know you hate me and I can't see you anymore.

I've never cared for someone like you,
I hate the way you criticize me for what you do.
Go back to the one you love,
you don't care enough to leave.
Go live your life,
forget about this temporary bliss.  

Unrequited love is such a bore.