I thought if I swam out
of our stagnant waters,
and let the current carry
me forward you'd feel
inclined to follow

Realizing you weren't going to,
made the water seem a little more violent
and my limbs feel a little heavier
It was painful
I was confused
And scared
But never once did I consider
drifting back into the world we
"lived" in as an option

So
I guess
Maybe...
You were never the reason in the first place
Just, maybe
You weren't the force that kept me
standing still
And maybe
You weren't the force that pushed me
forward
Maybe
You weren't a guiding force at all

Perhaps it's possible
You were never even necessary
Perhaps it's possible
I'm strong enough all on my own

We'll just have to
wait & see
But in the mean time,
*don't wait around for me

She wrote love on her arms
with blood and ink
and watched her life
flow into the sink.

She didn't care,
no one was there
to help her see
the world's beauty.

She tried so hard to fake a smile
she tried so hard to walk that mile
to try to reach out for help,
but she decided to be alone for a while.

That's no good.

The walls constrict around her heart
and her veins constrict around her soul,
and the more her skin came apart
the more she seemed to fall into the hole.

She tried so hard to get back up,
but her walls had finally broken.
Too many people tore her down,
with the unkind words they'd spoken.

She was filled with so much hate,
she just couldn't survive in this world.
So she wrote love on her arms,
and watched as death unfurled.

and the bombs sing their requiem in silent accord
while those with blood stained civil hands
think themselves out of thoughts
while running from their own feet
and here find strained in protest
words to pierce the ear of grief
and find that an elusive possession,
human identity,  is trampled by larcenous wiles
such a theft that suffuses a merciless and malicious twinship
both spurious and misplaced
and produces understandings that mystify
by a succession of inexplicable events
disorientates and masks
a comedy of daylight thoughts
at once touching and grotesque
where disorientation and danger lurk
and have us believe, that which would
restore order and reason
making the ordinary world ordinary again
becomes lost in its co-ordinates
of a self made illusion
whose features lead to an uncertainty
at once plausible and disturbing
one distinguished by solemnities
of disturbed incompetence of well meaning
whose distance of sorrow evaporates
in a poignant lament

There better be a reason to why I was put on this earth.
Becuase I have been suffering like it's my talent.
I have yet to find the meaning of life.
I have yet to actually live it.
I love to sing with such passion but no one can hear me.
I want to know what it is I am suppose to do because I've tried everything.
They say there is an explanation for all the things but no one helps me find it.
I change the person I want to be everyday like it is a shirt.
I find myself as pathetic as everyone else on this earth.
Yes I am talking about you and you and you.
Don't you dare get upset because you know it's the truth.

Run
Run
Run
Away
Jump
Jump
Jump
Out of your body
Let
Let
Let
It go
Don't
Don't
Don't
Think twice
Never
Never
Never
Regret
Just
Just
Just
Breathe

I don't seek love. It is revenge.
And right now I don't understand your meaning of "friends".
Can you make this situation a bit more clear?
The words "it's over" is what I want to hear.
Be a ******* man and stop tucking your **** in between your legs like a *****.
Say what you mean and need to say so we can get on with it.
Yeah it will hurt but don't we all get over it.
I hope the same thing happens to you over and over again.
I will find somebody new eventually that will do the same thing.
And the cycle will end never.
Because there is no love affair that last forever.....

I cry my eyes out every chance I get
Sometimes I wish we had never met
Loving you is a battle within
****** levels running thin
I tear my body to ****** pieces
****** frustration steadily increases
Why the hell do I still care
No one else will ever compare
I've ****** everything to ****
Her love flickered and quit
And she's not the one to blame
It's me, I'm just not the same

Oh ******* **** **** ****!
Why does my luck ****?
I didn't even see it coming
Various thoughts keep on humming
Conscious tells me it's nothing good
But she basically told me that I could
And so I did what I did
And that was that
Right or wrong wrong wrong
It went on for long long long
But I found myself wanting more
Her boyfriend ended up on the floor
I need to wipe this smile off my lips
Oh my but oh those hips!
Stop! **** just stop stop stop
All these thoughts need to drop drop drop
Out of my head and out the door
Nothing like this ever happened before
I think about her like she's mine
But I'm pretty sure I'm at the end of the line
She'll never drop him for me
He's got the right equipment you see
But oh boy would I love her
Hold her, kiss her, touch her
But it's so wrong to think like that
I know this hope is running flat
It's only wishing from here on out
But my head is still filled with dreadful doubt