It's getting harder to live
I got so much to give
To the girl of my dreams
But that's the girl of my dreams
It seems I'm on the edge of a drop
I just wish that i can Just stop
I'm close to having one of my blood vessels pop
Over thinking and thinking
My obsession will never lead to smoking or drinking
So I'm going to stay alone

painting creations to isolate me from the world
im curious about this girl shes blue red green
every color in between vivid and bright
i think about her at night her eyes are dark
different shades of brown her heart must be gold
her favorite color is pink like when she blushes
oh when i see her my heart rushes

As i grow older my heart does not get colder or weaker
I make sure i have time to just think
My mind is not filled with ***** dishes like a sink but it's not clean
I mean i make mistakes but i do not fake what i feel
When im beside the girl i like it feels like my heart heals
From the pain and loneliness left from past flames
I dont like playing games or mental gymnastics
So when im with you i do not doubt you i run diagnostics

Went from painting walls and anything
To me wanting to change the world
I have open mind so i dont judge crime
Went from always being alone now im trying to find the right one
Went from trying to write poems now i wanr that microphone

Its 12:05 and I'm not really feeling alive
I dive into situations understanding possible outcomes
But how come i can't have the things i want the way i want
Or maybe i can't have the things that downgrade me
I cant forget ive been saved
Lately you all have been forgetting about me

It happens all the time i cant be mad or sad
Im looking for something as bright as your smile girl !
The way you light up rooms , you left me right in a tomb
It happens all the time i cant be sad or mad
My interest doesn't die i never ever lie
I look up in the sky and realize you're too good for me
To good for an "us" another one bites the dust

you are not mine you're the world's
stars intertwined on a fine line
brake your pieces apart tell me where to find your heart
beautiful colors and vivid emotions in one big ***
you tell me give you what i got
all i have is a heart filled with blood and veins
It drives me insane i can't see what you are thinking
Blinking elegantly evidently im into you