I don't want to be here
And I know that during the day and he whispers of the waves
And the scattered laughter of my family says otherwise
I don't want to be here
Because not mater what stupid joys daylight brings I will I ways return
To this hell of a bubble surrounded by darkness
I don't want to be here
Even daylight brings it's troubles as the adults sip their substances
That bring back memories of nights spent alone
I don't want to be here
Addiction will follow me through my life even if do live to be a happy
Housewife I know I will neglect my perfect life as alcohol wiggles down my throat
I don't want to be here
Because I know my future holds nothing but sadness and change,
Even if for the better, I will always return to my own tear, blood or ***** stained pillow