Over Onyx and Ivory Keys
Her fingers glide
Sensually dancing
To its own melody
Majors and Minors
Sustained, suspended
Speaking the language
That the heart portrays
Happiness and Sadness
All coiled into one
A delicate compilation
A wordless song is sung

In the shadow of indecision
she concedes her past
compare her present
And contemplates her future

Who is this child
Staring blankly back at her
Through a mirror of dreams
Yearning to be free

Her innocence deprived
Shipwrecked ideals
Trampled to the ground
Her broken heart revealed

Can she find her way
In the dark complex maze
Through the pain and hurt
Through the condemning blaze

Where has she gone
This little child
Lost for too long
Her essence exiled

The signs where there
Like writing on a wall
Tug and pull
We would eventually fall

That very first time
When you asked me to choose
Between singing and dancing
Or only being yours

That very first time
When you walked away
When all I really needed
Was for you to stay

This roller coaster ride
Was really just buying time
Inevitably
We were heading for disaster

Like the Phoenix
From the ashes
I will rise again
See the light
Touch the sky
Live and love again
Not only exist
for today or the next
but feel the sun
as it kisses my skin
From the ashes
I'll rise again
Like the Phoenix
I'll fly... and be free.

Light to dark
Love to hate
Joy to sorrow
Friend to foe
May the one who claimed
Opposites attract
move from life to death
Opposites
Negatives
Pain
Disdain
There nothing positive
When it comes to opposites.

A solemn sad melody
Depicting my state of mind
Merely existing
To love and hate I'm blind
Day in and day out
Each breath a mere routine
While my soul decays
In the morbid state I'm in

My heart sings a sad melody
A song of dreams that used to be
Lost in a sea of forgotten wishes
Stolen hugs and passionate kisses
A beautiful love story
Left in purgatory
Forever to be
A distant memory

Darkness consumes me
Swallows me in
Waves of destruction
crashing around me
Chiseling at my soul
Hacking away
All resolve and reason
until all that is left
Is a corroded soul
Desolate
Destroyed
Depraved
A silent echo
Of the woman I once was

In her own scattered mess
Flawed perfections coalesce
She sits and contemplate
The difference between love and hate
A fine line of indifference
with subsequent consequence
She soars to new heights
Reaching for the starry lights
High above the night sky
Her soul flies high
To her own surprise
She is....
            Just....
                     .....Beautifully Disorganized

On the wings of the air
She dances with elegance and flair
Evoking the elements
Fire
       Water
                  Earth
                             Air
An harm ye none, do as ye want.

Arg...
Is that a poem?
Arg
An expression?
Arg....
I have no words
Arg....

In a crowd, alone
I yearn for an end
To just close my eyes
And start the descend
Into the grave
Death I do crave
Take me darkness
Drown me now
Withdraw my last breath
I welcome you death.

Surrounded by four walls
I sit in silence and wait
The drapes above the windows fall
Shutting out the light

My safe place
My serenity
The place where I can hide
my souls depravity

Where no one sees
or even care
How I became
or how I dare

Tempting fate
I throw a rock
Hoping my actions
would somehow shock

The light that forces
its way through the night
while I battle the conflict
and try to take flight

far... far... away

Like a mini ******
It surprises you
without warning
One, two, three, four
If I sneeze again
I'll surely die.

It hurts to keep you
and it hurts to let you go
a secret tomorrow
with no guarantees
Is it love or comfort
commitment or habit
Why can't I decide?

Here we are again
this cross road again
passing the beginning
and collecting nothing
A chance card is all we have
Maybe this time
Maybe not
Here we are again
Dejavu... my friend.

A century of words
A century of thoughts
A century of moments
caught one by one in verse
I made it, my first 100!
Now the aiming for the next :)

Boxes in the hallways
Memories on the walls
Our time together over
A room full of despair

Our lives we always shared
Now nothing but demise
as we cast another stone
to make our heartache known

Butterflies cocooned
A lonely cage of sadness
The thrill of love now gone
wrapped in pain one by one

Closing every curtain
In each and ever room
Shutting out the sunlight
On a love that once took flight

In the end our wishes
Shattered carelessly
Now in cardboard boxes
Lost in animosity

The End

Your voice calls to me
In the night when I sleep
Time could never erase
The love I always harbored
Through facades and lies
I pretended to move on
Only to realize
You were always the one

He seeks your life
He seeks your death
Your mind your blood
Your final breath
Inflicting pain
He Breaks your will
stealing your virtue
your voice he stills
his sins tattooed
on your broken heart
And abstract lie
his work of art
Leaving you bleeding
alone in the dark
while you slowly die
your life torn apart

Naked she lies
Her body tainted and bruised
cast aside by hate and demise
broken, torn, bleeding
her dreams shattered
her mind battered
discarded
forgotten
alone

It slithers through
my every fiber
twisting and twirling
taking me higher
my demons hidden
from the truth I am
The moonlight my beacon
the mask slowly breaking
as an icy breeze
consumes my mind
I'm numb
Nothing left
but my own
Demons

I want to laugh
at myself
yes
I want to look
at myself
again
Even with you gone
you still control me
I dislike it
And I'll smile
not because of you
but because I can
because I can love again
I will win again
I will stand up
and I will
climb this Everest
And reach the peak.

ugh
I hate you
you hurt me
and I wont let you
no more
never
ugh

I allowed you to define me
To mould me like clay
I trusted you with my heart
And you ruined it anyway
I trusted you with my design
but you abandoned me
Left me to the wolves
In the darkness I sit alone
While I gather the ashes
Of a desolate life
From the left over carbon
of my broken forgotten dreams
I’ll make a diamond
And start over again

A familiar melody
floats through the air
it echos from afar
just a memory
mere empty ashes
left over from the wreckage
of our lives
Too many wars
left battle scars
Too many fights
countless lonely nights
Now there's no way back
You're on that side
I'm on this side
And that's how it will stay

I laugh in the face of love
      I cringe thinking of the passion
              I bathe in the hate I now feel
if it takes away
         what you once were
                  what you once meant.
Every love song a beautiful lie
           Every poem an empty cry
I could scrub my skin
     Until the blood seeps through
           If it meant forgetting you.

There was a time
when I would do whatever you asked
A time when I would
take on an army
face any storm
That time was then
This time is now
And I'm stronger now
I am who I am
I am me
I am perfect in my eyes
I lack nothing
I have everything
I don't need you.

I'm angry
can you see it
A storm
like a tornado
leaving destruction
in its wake
I try to force a tear
but there is nothing left
my heart turned to stone
I'm angry
can you see?
There's nothing else
nothing less
nothing more
all such a mess
I'm angry
can you see?

Our love
like a desert
an oasis of hope
on the horizon
The closer we get
the less we see
A mirage
A dream
faded
Gone

Without a word
I had to assume
without a smile
my spirit died
without a tear
my heart shut down
and without a word
I gave up.
I'm done.

I loved you
I married you
I lost you
Tragedy

Silence
A deafening blow to the heart
as our love lies dying
like wilting flowers
on a cold winters night

Silence
Leaves me out cold
Torn and broken
Rejected and scarred
Lifeless and alone

Silence
Words without sound
Love without a song
I loved you once upon a time
But the silence killed us.

Life
Love
Lust
Hate
4 Letter words
Powerful
Intense
Real
The Truth

Frustrated
Emotionally constipated
Fiercely
  Unintended
     Compromised
        Kisses that lead to
           Expected
               Death

I don't want to stay
Right now all I want
is to run away

Good reads
pearls and beads
I go to seek a Great perhaps
Knowing so many
Last words
But I never knew his
With life in its beauty
and death in its finality
Good-bye,
I'm leaving
Because I'm bored.
But alas
don't let it end like this
Tell them
I said something... Anything.

Like an artist
The lovers touch
with his paint brush
Delicately paints
An invisible landscape
Enveloped in Euphoric desire
Stroke by stroke
The canvas is adorned
With light brushing kisses
And overwhelming pleasure
Bursts of colour
Blended to perfection
A master piece
My body, yours...

I'm tired
mentally wired
strung tight like a snare
about to snap
The End.

My mind is like
An out of tune guitar
Making senseless sounds
In a crowd

Dreams
Memories swirling
Like a haze of smoke
Upwards
Disappearing into mid air
Memories
Once an anchor
to my dreams
in a raging ocean
Now all lost
In Davy Jones' locker
Shipwrecked
Forsaken

Once upon a time
I called out your name
Once upon a time
I danced with you in the rain
Once upon a time
Your lips melded with mine
Once upon a time
Just a memory laid to rest

Ivory and Onyx
The keys that construct
the melody in my heart
Sadness and happiness
Loneliness and blues

Ivory and Onyx
The chords that bind
the song in my soul
forgiveness and hope
love and joy

The Piano
The musician
Perfection

Darkness
It haunts me
Talons from the past
Drawing me
deeper in
Lost in the caverns
of my own dark secrets
while your lies suffocate me
In a bottomless pit
of tar and decay
I let go of the life line
and sink further away

The ****** of a lullaby
a melodic soft
and gentle sigh
an expectant heart
where faith flies high
Only to watch
As the infant dies
Through death I'm hushed
My soul is crushed
Never a breath
Not even a cry
Never did you hear
Mommy's lullaby
Or see me smile
In no time at all
My little angel
Took flight
Into the light.

Crowds
       Music
             boys and girls

Dancing
        Shouting
                guitars and drums

One Direction
         Forward
                Don't look back

Live
      Love
             Sing!

You say you love me
Yet you do not help me
You say you brag about me
Yet you never support me
You say you'll be lost without me
Yet you do not care how you treat me
You say you hate to see me cry
Yet you do not care to hurt me
Promises are like dusty cobwebs
In a deserted house
Nothing but dirt.

On a heap of ashes
       a mother sits
               tearing at her clothes
                         as life's demands tear at her soul

On a heap of *******
       a mother makes her bed
                breathing in the stale air
                         as the darkness consumes her soul

On a heap of decay
       a mother sits and cries
                salt stained cheeks and bruised lips
                        as she watches her children pass her by

On a heap of mined soil
        a mother sits and contemplates
                the suffering and sacrifice, she willingly had made
                        the precious stones, the gold and diamonds

Nothing but natural resources - depleted.