Barker

Aug 2018

Nevaeh Lynn

Sos

You say do better
But in doing my best
You say try harder
Dont you see im in distress
Im drowning in my thoughts
I cant catch my breath
Your making it seem like my lifes a quiz
And im not passing the test

Barker Jul 2018

Time takes everything

Oh, love,
Our time is up.

Love dies out
Just like hope
And everything else.

(C)ibarker

Barker Jul 2018

Car rides and panic attacks

Every car ride I end up going on
I'm always in a state of panic
Because I know what cars can do.
I know that they've killed more people than the number of digits on my phone.
I know that they have taken away the people I have cared the most about.
And so I sit wondering "Who's next? When is it going to happen."
Praying that I will be next so someone else doesn't have to take the hit.

(c)ibarker

Barker Jul 2018

Hidden

You will never know
How I feel about you
Because I feel more
Then I would ever dare to show
And more then I would ever dare to say

(c)ibarker

Barker Jul 2018

Nightmares

Nightmares
That's what the memory’s become
...
I wake up to the stars
Pain shoots up every limb.
My vision clears up and I realize that they aren't stars,
They are shards of glass.
I look down at my hand.
It's covered in blood.
I can hear my heart beating to the sound of sirens.
I clutch my chest.
I hear shouting but it's distant.
My vision goes in and out of focus.
I realize I'm dying.
...
Then I wake up.
Sweat drips down my shaking body.
That's the only memory I have left of you.
Everything else is locked away in my mind,
Suppressed by medication.

(c)ibarker

Barker Jul 2018

To My Darling

Ain't nobody hurt you like I hurt you
But ain't nobody needs you like I do
I know that there are others that deserve you
But my darling, I am still in love with you

But I guess you look happier, you do
My friends told me one day I'd feel it too
I could try to smile to hide the truth
I know I was happier with you

Baby, you look happier, you do
I knew one day you'd fall for someone new
But if they break your heart like lovers do
Just know that I'll be waiting here for you

Ed Sheeran Happier

Barker Jul 2018

Turn to gold

Everything I touch just turns to stone,

I want someone who will hold me when I’m sad and whisper in my ear to wake me up,

She told me how she doesn’t like how my head is always in the clouds.

She said “If you just grew up then it wouldn’t be so rough.

I just don’t want to leave this life all alone.

So darling please listen to these 4 words.

Please Keep Loving Me
Because our hearts speak fluently
So baby,
Please Keep Loving Me

(C)ibarker