No matter how many times
I claim I don't care
I will never feel right
Without you there

No matter how far my heart is
From your beating one
I'll never be feel the same way
About anyone

If you were the type
I would hold you in my arms
If you didn't fight
I would keep you from harm

But you're stubborn and don't care
About much at all
So you see why it's dangerous
For me to fall

For someone like you
Whose someone like me

Sparkling disco *****
And music...
I can hear the music
Playing in my ears
I'm dancing with you
The colorful lights
And paper lanterns
Create flickering shadows
And all the while
The disco ***** are twinkling
And the music is forever playing
Some silent song

*~Marian~

I think I finally found the key
the mangled twisted broken key
to unlocking this broken mess inside of me
Inside of the piles of memories

Most tainted by what you've done
and some bent by what I've become
from the way you took what belonged to me
and left me broken and angry

By the way you ruined my life
and the way you beat the kids and your wife
By the way you lured me in
and unleashed demons on me that still haunt me from within.

You took my childhood straight from my arms
and you broke me into nothing.
I still see your face inside my dreams
hear your laugh as I would scream

I still cry when I hear your name
and when I think of you all I feel is shame
because of what you did
I have always hid

I am afraid of the world outside
because of the words you've left burned inside
I can't look people in the eye
because of you

But even though you're the monster of my nightmares
I am not scared
and I have only three words to tell you
even though I hate you
I forgive you

I felt a shift in overwhelming air
It tingled against my sensitive eyes
I felt the breeze run fingers in my hair
And I felt where the Earths heart really lies

The sun rested its arms against my face
And brushed away the shards blown asunder
Took me in and gave me a humble place
Beneath it's warm wings safe from the thunder

The rain washed away my dry salted tears
Held me in blankets of security
Erased my frothing belligerent fears
In a stronghold of true sincerity

This is the place that I call my real home
It's a place that I have built on my own