guess ill just deal with it now
consider it down
and done
in my heart
it was there
from a spec
it grew
into hot lava
and now it's like
cold
ice holds
and shatters
every time i see you
i want to give it a new try
it's no surprise
this pain realize
and reappears
into my world
the clouds seperate
after it rains
and i see the future
without me ever in it again
you're somewhere out there
in the world
being a beautiful girl
and whatever decision
makes
or makes of us
we must trust
and continue on
to our destiny

dont listen to those thoughts in your head
that's how you end up dead!
or underwater
that's how you get to a place
that you can't blame anyone but you
for making
and creating
why don't you go for a walk
meditate
do something healthy
to make yourself feel better
about yourself
so you can not dwell
in the deep down well
costs more muscles to frown
i'll spend it wisely today
i'm going to grocery shop
for positive thoughts
think i'll have an apple
an avocado
a glass of orange juice

I'm a success
i fall on my head
every day
i feel like
no one wants me to win
some days
it feels good
and i know i'm okay
and then others
i'm like
**** this ****
no way
but i still
go through it
doggy paddling through the current
so i can hit a quiet stream
and float

Negative energy floats in and out of my brain trying to see if ill let it drive me crazy but itll never phase me cuz im faded i stay braided tight to the head and let everybody else spill their business my reality is far opposed to gravity and if i ever stop breathing itll be a got **** tragedy they should clone me or make a program a real life drone me ******* wanna bone me they deliver fruit on plates to my throne and refer to me as thee and thou and your honor please i am not worthy of your eye contact, but i put my hand on her chin and point her head up, keep your head up, one day you'll be this way a ruler and if you're not i pray that you at least get to get a taste in your own special way

this is my ****
have it on replay
and my seats sway
back and forth in the breezeway
im dancin on cloud 9
cloud 10 not that far away
im getting it in every single night
and at the end i want to pray
anger inside and anxiety bleeds
no one can see
i focus on positivity
to eliminate
the gravity
from taking me to a place
ive been before
no thank you
no can do
i'm going to enjoy my minute
hour
second
all that ****
only thing i have to do
today
is get high
go for a walk
and repeat
laundry done
clothes washed
i'm clean
i'm healthy
i'm living
i'm feeling good
and i move forward
from all the *******
that keeps me down
life always reminds
that it's in control
but i take the reigns
tell it to *******
and i **** it
and dominate
with my even keel
devilish smile
hidden
it is written
that i will be the best

i'm going to let my sins of the day wash away
i'm going to meditate
i'm going to pray
i'm going to the river
watch the waves
i'm going to take a walk
think about what made me this way
how i became who i am
i'm going to listen to the nothing
silent in a chair on the porch
close my eyes
forget about the violence
the angry waves
the bitterness
the hate
the death
the goodbyes
the lies
they'll go away
with nothing
i'll close my eyes
and let it go
let them all flow
watch them go by
like leaves on a river

lord please tame my ego
because it seems that i go
wherever he goes
and wherever he goes
i know
is a place so high though
i'm so tall
but like shaq at the free through
i fall short
clank
and here we go
again
back down to the bottom
try not to get swallowed
the pressure
the faces
the people
expecting
i get swallowed
pressure consumes me
my ego led me astray
the man i was yesterday
is a boy today
so i reevaluate
and try to understand
who i really am
him or me
my ego
i tell him to do what i want
matter fact
i just forget he's even there
and see where that takes us