happiness is fleeting
obsolete
cold like the sleet
it gets
when it wets
and success
comes in a disguise
wearing a dress
dreaming
of happiness
realizing
what it means
to be
not to be brought
or bought
or taken
with a restless mind
it's an image of time
in which relaxation
happens
without the need
of a glass of wine
or a drop of this
hit of that
the happiness to be had
do you think
you deserve all of that
to feel good again
to do something
that makes you feel guilt
something you feel
to be a rude awakening
that keeps you waking
in your sleep
your dream
you thought you had
could come true
unruly
attributes
begin to penetrate
what you had in place
what you wanted
thought you needed
a happy place
you built in your mind
gets crushed
by reality
now you're blind
to what happiness is
but you continue to live
and redefine
shape it
make it
and see
what you can find
is it happiness?
sadness
and gladness
and manics
panics
attacks
angry outbursts
not being able
to relax
has its way
into your life
how do you make
happiness
the number one
most felt
feelings
that you normally
feel
how do you make that real
that happiness
how do you not conceal
your happiness
without letting
the people around you
clown you
down you
try to put you in a place
where they are
which isn't at
the same spot
you're trying to be
the happiness
as it fleets
and you grasp
at your bed sheets
satin
slips away
through your fingers
give it time and let linger
feel breathe
get happiness
and when you see someone who needs it
and you still have some that lasts
go from within
and give it right back

The loneliness and the hurt
playing in my mind
a heavy metal concert
winds blow
I'm confused
how to recover my thoughts
how to properly use
it's no news
been happening for months
and years I fear
peace, solace, happiness
hope they are near
they whisper in my ear
how do I find
peace of mind
sickness through my spine
beware of steady decline
wake up in the morning
compose a rhyme
mix some lime
hennessee
and feelings go away
to tennessee
or wherever far is
I want to be

preach the reverend
for a second
minute
hour
year
quick shower
aqua flower
hot water
streaming
cleaning
pleading
misleading
devour
jealousy is good
for no one
damages
rational thinking
got me stinking
realizing
bad timing
say goodbye
be alone
now I write
rhyme
after
rhyme
on my own time
free spirit
mountains I climb

I'm gonna make it
I told you now
I'm gonna make it
told you before
I'm gonna make it
They can try to stop me
patience
I'm gonna save it
success
I'm gonna crave it
Haircut
gonna fade it
My soul
won't have to trade it
gonna get it
how I want it
Gonna prove to everyone
who left me
doubted me
thought I was boring
left me in the rain
cut me deep
with no neosporin
They're gonna see it
what they left
gave away
I'll make pain my slave
I forgive
but never forget
who I am
and what they made me became
I have come so far
keep going
see the hope
A smile
I'm not gonna fake it
Take the hits
keep going
I'm gonna make it

i'm telling you
you're getting better because of that
and it's a skill you're working on
getting better at
not letting people get to you
you're on it
you're doing well
but you aren't having that much fun
okay
so i'm going to get it going
and let it have be the fun
that is inside of me

Reality and existence
feel much better
but I miss this
way a drug
makes me feel
undoes the real
makes the body heal
next day
drug fades
pain come back
from gone away
now it's a face
in the mirror
staring
saying
what did you do
who are you
what will you become
of this
substance
will be your
decay
who is your slave
on the master
do you pray
to give you what you need
to look life face to face
and understand what it takes
to move forward in the rain

the acid rain
drips away

here you are today

talking to me
saying disparaging things
with his glasses
and pointy nose
i don't want them to see
the inside feeling i hear
i don't want them to ever be near
i want them to know
who they are dealing with
love and respect
they try to try me
betrayal
i can't forget
about me
the words i hear in my head
they ring
over and over
different melodies sing
it tingles
and shifts
flows and bows
up and down it goes
but i stay stable
and **** em
like cain got able