i need a girl who doesnt do drugs or any of that dumb ****
not always talking **** or doing ******* **** or running her mouth and ****
none of that ******* that cheatin **** that lyin ****
none of that manipulative oh poor me that cryin ****
that's all the same ****
to a person who sees real ****
no fake ****
no i love u no i dont none of that mixed ****
no hot no cold none of that wishy wash ****** sloshy
*******
**** that ****
i dont want to hear any of that ****
or see that ****
i just want some real ****
someone who loves me
no *******

they say if it aint rough it aint right
but at some point a man has his pride
he doesn't know when to say goodbye
or how to say it
or when the right time would be
he just prays
gets on his knees
and cries
and hope no one sees
he's so sick
with this emotional disease
on stages he goes
he tries to please
he makes them laugh
his mind's at ease
but as soon as he leaves
he goes right back to
that sad feeling
of feeling blue
time has passed
and he still wonders
where she is
and if she ever wonders
about the time we had
that we can never take back
and the words we said
that marinate in my head
we aren't something you can just forget
what we had was special
and we can never take anything back

there was one thing we forgot to tell each other
i guess ill just have to wait to tell you in my dreams
that i love you
and i know it doesnt seem
like i'd ever mean to say that
or ever let myself do it
and we try to play it off
like it wasn't anything
but just a fling
not to me
it was important to me
you'll forever be
ingrained in my memory
i hope we get back together
and get married
and start a family
and be happy
cuz i miss having you
to lay with
and give me company
and listen to all the words i speak
and i never ******* listen
i'm sorry
i wanna be quiet again
and listen to u
and help u
just by being there
do you need me?
do you even need me?
i don't know
i hope so
i wish i didn't go
but it hurts 2 bad
and u kept saying no
**** everybody else
i never listened to them anyway
i miss u
despite what they say
that you're bad for me
you're just gonna hurt me again
i still miss u
i write it every day with this pen
even though it's curses and words that are bad
i called you so many bad names, it's sad
but i still miss u

i woke up this morning
with a rage inside
that i never want to subside
put my hat on
threw the hood up
cigarette lit
thinking bout
who i'm gonna **** next

mask and gloves
barrell of sulfuric acid
ready to find a straggler
anyone stupid
or deserving
to get it

i'm the maintenance man
city garbage man
taking care of this **** they can't keep clean
you think it's mean?
well you should see how it feels
to wake up from my dream
or was it a nightmare?

keep quiet and don't say a word
it'll only get you more hurt
who needs a gun and a bullet
when these bare hands can do it
i'm a ***** nasty *******

my scowl looks like a smile
it's so jaded
and foul
but today's just another day
cleaning up the neighborhood
and ******* your wife

i don't have time for games and emotional roller costers
i feel that **** is over
rated
a cliff i never wanted to **** with
i never wanted to climb it
don't have the proper equipment
my heart's equipped with
love
that has gone unforgiven
rotten lies
and sweet words
wish i could take them back
a foolish trick
a silly prank
heart got cracked

if you don't have empathy
for someone who is in pain
you must be numb
and dumb
to all of my remains
all of the spills
and blood that i bleed
it's friendly fire
and you're a friend to me

thought we'd always be friends
but now you're enemy
i wouldn't take you back
if you begged from your knees
i have urgency
about my life and who to please
who to choose and who chooses me
and your time expired
all cuz of friendly fire
you weren't there to stop the bleed

she ****** everybody in my clique clique clique clique
had to pull the trigger make it go click click click click click
i don't ever have to see that ***** ***** ***** ***** *****
and all these bad ******* man they want the..
they want the..
the want the..

what the **** do i think about
that makes me want to think these things
what brings these dreams
at night
shades no more sunlight
i cannot see through the window
why is this in my mind
these things that i think so twisted
tornadoes and avalanches tsunamis and destruction
dark horses ridden by men wishing to ****
black faces
eyes glowing
what are these thoughts i cannot escape
why do they keep my mind up
why do i think of gruesome images
and bodies *****
mangled
heads sawed
eyes popped
torture
is what it is
i must enjoy it
why do i like to see these things
and feel these things
when i see them
if they make me feel
criminal
the pain is minimal
when i let them flow by
like leaves on a river
and do not grasp on
to the evil that is within
must avoid it
at all costs
and never carry out
those thoughts

here is something new to brew in the coffee *** maybe make a stew
do whatever it is you need to do and get ready for some **** i'm gonna tell u
it's late at night bout three in the morning i'm the only one up and i'm not even yawnin
no food in the kitchen but i got cigarettes, smoking so long it's hurtin my chest
i take a deep breath and i hear a ruffle, somethings in my muffler, the exhaust makes me exhausted
need a nap can't even move cuz of all this smoke, ****'s up in my throat
i get up to stretch out can't do it anymore
i'm tried of smoking i need exercise to get this right
my mind takes flight when i'm feeling healthy and right
**** all that **** i'm gonna be alright
i want to quit smoking and stop smoking so much ****
i feel like i'm creating a brand new disease
that no one ever knew except me cuz it's me
i'm the only one that gets to really see
what i do to my body and my mind and my health
it takes away my wealth, i'm poor in my health
and it just might help if i take a break from the ****
blowing smoke out my mouth is something i can't quit
it takes me a minute to even stop thinking about it
i feel like it hurts just to not think about it
and i get so bored what do i do with my hands
i can't even cut this ****, and i'm a grown *** man
******* cigarettes man
and all this **** i do
my life style
just isn't ringing true
to my body
it's ******* me up
i gotta get healthy
i keep ******* up