verbal contracts
and eye contact
make for good contact
future bedroom contact
**** so hard lose an eye contact
six months later marriage no contract
no prenup
no time for that
it's all rushed
no consent
of the heart
just quick, no smart
now you're there
it's all ****** up
life is twisted
your heart's wrenched up
never knew
what this **** could do to you
all this extra contact
now you're hurting
need a hospital bill, 911 contact
all from too much contact
now you gotta delete out your phone contacts
so she can't contact
cuz that **** got crazy
if you ever see her again
hope you dont make eye contact
cuz you'll fall twice
for that ******* trap
don't let it happen again
it's a breached contract

Fall, fool, fell, leaves fall
and they float
sometimes they blow
sit soft on the ground
come around
over and over again
the tree stays planted
roots from growth
each leaf that falls
deeper seed grows
always hope
sometimes doubt
but the tree stays planted
leaves fall down

if my rent is late
**** em
they can always hate
the landlord
she don't appreciate
she just be like
what's that noise?
***** i'm tryin to mate
**** u *****
i gotta steak
and some eggs in the kitchen
now grab a plate
and get u some
of this good ole ****
it's nice and thick
just like ur landlord hips
i wanna **** u til i owe no rent
i wanna **** u til my security deposit spent
i wanna give it to u in the leasing office
we'll make an agreement
to tell no one
and when i sign the lease
that's when i *** on ur fleece
baby ur my landlord
now take this 435 dollar **** i spent
and put it towards next months rent

i got pulled over tonight
i wasnt driving
guess the drivers color
race
or origin
and you will win
a free trip to prison
nah, that's not where we went
but it was something they wanted to do
put us behind the bars
they said they saw 3 cars
one was the leader one was middle and one was third
they put on their lights
my stomach chirped like a bird
each one of us out
one by one
first the id's
then out the car
lined up in front of the police car
padded down
searched
you smell like ****
have you been smoking **** today?
yes
i have been smoking **** today
when
silence
and then they move on to other questions
full search
pockets emptied
jacket
pants
inside jacket pocket
both sides
spread em wide
haha
but still i smile
he doesnt know
the truth behind
where it is
or what he smells
it's a smell of smoke
a tease
something that he will never find
no matter how hard he tries
he will never know
that this whole time
it was in my *******

never
cannot
do not
will not
does not
won't
can't
not
no
pain won't go away
why
i don't know
i tell it every day
that it needs to leave
and when i feel it's finally gone
it's got another trick up it's sleeve
it's an old disease
memories leave
pain travels
in new directions
when i feel lost
and need direction
i use protection
the next time my heart
is vulnerable again
vulnerability from the start
i'll never not know
it'll always follow me
love at last
will consume me
make me someone
i had not planned on becoming
life, love, does not have time
for you to make plans
with someone else
but it will wait
until pain fades
and I can do it again
I can
I will
I have
I do

love anew

Thinking about pizza as I'm here
it's warm with the ovens going
the order has been placed
i sit and wait
and wait
and wait
no time erased, only 1 minute elapsed
I feel like I'm swimming laps
in a tomato sauce pool
with black olives for floaties
the sauce is well past my knees
so hungry
and desperate
just to get a slice
of this great American pizza pie
it makes my heart swell
my eyes not dry
i'm gonna get eat pizza until i die

and if there comes a day
when they say no more pizza no way
your stomach can't handle it
your intestines will flare
i'll say i don't care
pull the trigger in my underwear
crime scene investigates
saw it on the news
a man covered in pizza
and bottles of *****
they couldn't get in the door was unlocked
a wall full of pizza boxes had the entry fully blocked
but deeper inside was a man no one knew
cheese oozing under the doorway cracks like glue

i'm still here waiting for pizza
no more imaginary trap
i look at my watch
the tenth minute elapsed
the lifeguard gets out
he's done with his swim
his whistle blows
everybody back in
the pizza is ready
time to dive in

a tear is coming down my face
do i get negative press
in my own way
in my own weight
i get psychological tricks
people trying to demonstrate
in other ways
i'm not familiar with
so i think it's shade
i see smiling face
after smiling face
but i wonder who
is really trying to hate
who is hiding behind
some other mask
that i can't really see
i visualize a mistake
what's this contemplate
all these feather weights
need to meditate
before they try to demonstrate
before they player hate
but it's cool i take it good
i put it in my system then i spit it back
and make it hotter than a kettle cracked
no anger just love and feel goods for the people
that feel bad about me
and their conscious speaks clearly
through their visual cues
sneaking behind the closed doors
artificial inseminates
should be inmates
i free my mind to escape