Rolling the dice
Catching angel eyes
Acting surprised
Looking at the stars
Unveiling my scars
Always raising the bar
I’ve come so far
Never looking back
On the things of the past
That I can not change
I can only make way
To the future ahead
Don’t hang my head
Just have faith
Hope will guide your way...

Rolling the dice
Catching angel eyes
Acting surprised
Looking at the stars
Unveiling my scars
Always raising the bar...

I never got to meet you
Since I was saying goodbye as soon as we met....

I never got to meet you
Since I was saying goodbye as soon as we met....

FAITH
      R
      U
      S
      T

There is a girl...


... who is insecure

....who has no confidence

....who carries the world on her shoulders

...who doesn’t like anything about herself

...who hides her emotions

....who had no self esteem  

.........that girl..........




Is ME.

When I see a storm rolling in
The rain starts to trickle down
Drop
By
Drop
Then a full blown rainstorm
It eases my mind knowing a rainbow is in sight
Full of colors illuminating the sky
Brightening my day
Knowing that your shining your beautiful rays
For everyone to see that your passing by to say hi
A beautiful dark storm turns into glorious painted picture in the sky...

Oh happy day
It’s my birthday
I am 35 today
Entering the world
Prematurely
Never stopped me
Living gratefully
Happy Birthday to me!

Eyes can’t focus

Brain can’t process

With all this hate and discrimination

Sadness

A dark room, night light on, as the light is illuminating off my sand bottle collection casting a rainbow upon the wall even though there was no storm, showing love when you need it the most....

Still holding on to something I never knew I had yet still blaming myself for letting it slip away...

In times like these
I fall to my knees
Praying for all
To be heard and seen
If we stand together
United and free
We can make a change
YOU AND ME

My heart is tired
Yet full of joy

My eyes are dry
Yet full of tears

My mind is racing
Yet my thoughts are silent

I am only human...

Maybe one day
I’ll be able to say
All the thoughts that have been in my way
But for today
I’ll keep them at bay
Until I am ready
To free them away...

The writing is always right on the wall...

.... even it’s it hidden behind the layers of paint and dust....

...look closely...

The numbness feeling you have when you have so many emotions swirling around but yet continuing to dig deep and sort them all out like a scattered puzzle that isn’t complete...

A
Day
Without
Smiling
Or
Laughing
Is
Just
A
Wasted
Day


Be Grateful

In a world where there’s ........


Be the ......

It’s like a silent and invisible tornado reeking havoc without causing destruction to properties yet diminishing the economy and putting everyone in panic.....
This storm too, shall pass soon...

Trying
to
run
between
the
raindrops
can
be
achieved
through
determination
and
strength
but
always
be
aware
of
the
sudden
downpour

It’s like a silent and invisible tornado reeking havoc without causing destruction to properties yet diminishing the economy and putting everyone in panic.....
This storm too, shall pass soon...

Desperate times
Violent crimes
Inhuman acts
Facing the facts

Stand up
Take a stand
Violence is not the answer
Find a better plan

Let your voice be heard
Respectfully, but let it be known

We all matter
All lives are the same
From the inside
Stop all this madness
Suffering and pain

Peaceful and tasteful
Is the name of the game
Violence won’t solve the world
But if we stand together
We CAN MAKE A CHANGE!

Desperate times
Violent crimes
Inhuman acts
Facing the facts

Stand up
Take a stand
Violence is not the answer
Find a better plan

Let your voice be heard
Respectfully, but let it be known

We all matter
All lives are the same
From the inside
Stop all this madness
Suffering and pain

Peaceful and tasteful
Is the name of the game
Violence won’t solve the world
But if we stand together
We CAN MAKE A CHANGE!

It’s all about the perspective....

I can look into the sun and not be able to see yet a blind  person can look and the warmth is all they need....

The sunrise
Open your eyes

The sunsets
Take a deep breath

The stars align
Make a wish divine

The rain falls
Loved ones call

Rainbow appears
Releasing your fears

Cardinal, feathers, a penny appears
Loved ones are currently near

Make a wish
Hold onto it tight
Your dreams will come true
With you always by my side...

Looking for positivity, you and me, are faced with negativity, loss, and sadness...
Look for the signs when you least expect, you’ll be surprised what happens next....

Something so precious to you may mean nothing to me but yet we both have our passions that always can be seen if we can look in between the two different worlds, opening our eyes to the life of what precious moments mean...

Even a wilted flower who is losing its color and hanging its head, still has life when you continue to water it...

One
Foot
One
Foot
One
Step
One
Step
One
Day
One
Day
At a time
You will be fine...

I don’t know if and when I’ll ever feel the same again
It takes time to just to comprehend
Understanding all the feelings and emotions running through your mind
Wishing I could go back and rewind time
But to push forward looking to the future
Without forgetting even though it was torture...

I’m stronger than you think...
Even if I hide my emotions out in the open like a crystal ball if you look hard enough you can see right through imagining the swirling images of my brainwaves collecting my most inner thoughts and hiding them in plain sight...

Physically I am ok

Emotionally I have my days

One minute I’m good

The next I’m a wreck

But this too shall pass

Because in the end

Regardless, I am truly BLESSED

Even though he says
“I Love You Baby”
A million times a day
He doesn’t have too
A kiss on the forehead
An embracing hug
A little look
Holding my hand
Cuddling me
Is all I need to know it’s real....

I love you baby

Everyday is a new beginning to embark on a different journey but yet staying on the same path of life...

I don’t know if and when I’ll ever feel the same again
It takes time to just to comprehend
Understanding all the feelings and emotions running through your mind
Wishing I could go back and rewind time
But to push forward looking to the future
Without forgetting even though it was torture...

Sometimes things appear then disappear
Leaving you with unanswered questions or leaving you in fear
Wondering why and where did it go
Just like a butterfly drifting away suddenly  as the wind blows
Never knowing
Empty feelings
Emotional rollercoaster
Ghostly occurrences
One minute there, the next gone
What is the feeling?
Is it wrong?
Happy yet sad
Heartbroken yet positive
Sometimes things appear then disappear
For the timing is right but also wrong
Looking for the silver lining within all of this sadness, (happiness) and fear of it all...

Sometimes things appear then disappear
Leaving you with unanswered questions or leaving you in fear
Wondering why and where did it go
Just like a butterfly drifting away suddenly  as the wind blows
Never knowing
Empty feelings
Emotional rollercoaster
Ghostly occurrences
One minute there, the next gone
What is the feeling?
Is it wrong?
Happy yet sad
Heartbroken yet positive
Sometimes things appear then disappear
For the timing is right but also wrong
Looking for the silver lining within all of this sadness, (happiness) and fear of it all...

I blame myself
What if I would have known
Would the outcome be different
Guess I’ll never know
It just *****
I beat myself up
Its been something I’ve wanted
How did I not know?
For over 10 years, the answer was always no
So I had come to terms with that
Accepted it ( sorta) ya know?
Everything happens for a reason
I’m trying to think that way
But **** this is so hard to comprehend but maybe I’ll understand one day....

You’ve been my backbone through it all
Your always there to catch me if I fall
You have been my wings when mine are broken
Your amazing gestures don’t go unspoken
I am one lucky girl to have you in my life
Thank you for EVERYTHING but the biggest thank you, for making me your wife...
I love you always and forever baby...

It’s ok to be
B
R
O
K
E
N

Only if you can pick yourself back up
S
M
I
L
E

And be blessed for “everything “ that happens...

Sometime things fall apart but yet in the same token they are falling into place

To find the joy within the pain
To understand what you have lost but yet gained
To ride the emotional rollercoaster with the ups and downs
To know it’s ok to cry because something is lost but somehow found
To continue living putting your best foot forward
But also taking a moment to step back, feel blessed and smile onward...

Something I’ve longed to be
Finally happened to me
Unfortunately
It wasn’t meant to be (at this time)
I’ll push through
I am strong
I hope your up in heaven
Where God thought you belonged..

The ups and downs of life are just the growing process to learn and accept the challenges that may occur..

Something I’ve longed to be
Finally happened to me
Unfortunately
It wasn’t meant to be (at this time)
I’ll push through
I am strong
I hope your up in heaven
Where God thought you belonged...

Some days are hard
Some days are easy
Some days you wonder
Some days are just a blunder
Some days can be fixed
Some days are full of tricks
Some days you feel like giving up
Some days your searching for hope
Some days you reminisce
Some days are pure bliss
Some days you cry
Some days just pass you by
Some days you pray for a sign
Some days your just blind
Some day we will be fine
Some day it will get better, in due time
Some day will turn into one day at a time...

Trying to fit the mold
                  Of someone else’s expectations
Only coming to realize, that the mold your trying to fit
Is your higher expectation of becoming the best version of you

My
Words
Fall out
Of my brain
Onto a blank
Page filling up
The spaces and
Lines to create a
Raw and unedited
Masterpiece that is
Trying to escape my
Head, becoming  
Transparent by
The words
That fall
Out of
My
Brain
Allowing
My thoughts
That may otherwise
Be left unsaid, come alive
On this blank page of nothing
Fulfilling a work of art
By the words
That form
Inside of
My
Brain

Depression
Equals
Deep expression
Add a few letters and the meaning changing itself fully to become a more positive influence allowing ones self to emote an otherwise “tragic” word or feeling into something deeper than a so called “illness “

When you feel like your falling apart and your brain is scattered...
....remember a puzzle isn’t complete until all the pieces are put back together...

This feels like a never endless dream or maybe a nightmare turned into reality
Whatever it may be, let this pass seemingly
Allowing us to get back to somewhat normalcy...