The inner child in me
Is waiting to be released
Awakened from a dormant state
Awaiting to take the leap of faith
Sleeping slumber
Arising so fast
Welcoming me
From the
Past
Life

The inner child in me
Is waiting to be released
Awakened from a dormant state
Awaiting to take the leap of faith
Sleeping slumber
Arising so fast
Welcoming me
From the
Past
Life

Fall diamonds
Dew drops
Settle on top
A pile of leaves
After the fog
Lifts slowly
Over the trees

So many feels when I see social media posts:

“We’re expecting “

“Gender reveals”

“Welcome our new baby”

I try to put on a brave face, smile and be happy...
But deep down, I’m breaking more inside...
Why not me, why not us?

It’s a daily struggle to say
“I’m ok”
“It’s ok”
“ No worries”
“It’s all good”

Because, honestly, ITS NOT!
It *****!
It Hurts
It’s Heartbreaking ...

But, that’s what I, we, have to deal with on a daily occurrence....

Unspoken word
Your not alone
Shedding light
Unto your darkness
Walking hand in hand
Even when we are apart
Forever and always
Your in my heart
The past
The present
The future
All are in existence
When hopes and dreams
Become a reality
Then, too, you will start to
Believe in spirituality
Of that which you cannot see
But only in your dreams...

Inadvertently
I wanna cry
Upside down
So that my tears
Never hit the ground

My silence is louder then your words any day  
It’s ok not to be okay
But what’s not okay is to feel uncomfortable
Talking about things that are not ideal or causing friction in any way
Break the silence
Turn the volume up high
Breath a sigh
Of relief
1
2
3
Feeling the weight being lifted off of me...

Sometimes I wish....
I
W
I
S
H
I could let go of the things inside of me that are eating me alive
Like bugs harvesting on a rotten piece of food
Throw it away
Let it go
Take control over the emotions that are making me
Rotten to the core...

My head is fogged with tears that haven’t reached my eyes
Leaving me feel anxiety deep inside
Swirling around like a snow globe filled with glitter
Slipping from my hands
One drop and it
S. H. A. TT. E. R. S.

I’m sorry you couldn’t stay around
But Heaven you have found
You gained your wings
Now fly high in the sky
But forever in my heart
You will always stay
As your spirit walks next to me
Each and everyday

I’m sorry you couldn’t stay around
But Heaven you have found
You gained your wings
Now fly high in the sky
But forever in my heart
You will always stay
As your spirit walks next to me
Each and everyday

“I’ll never forget the beginning of May, the day you grew your wings and flew away...”

“I’ll never forget the beginning of May, the day you grew your wings and flew away...”

I’m
Frozen in
Place
No break
In the
Glass
How do I
Escape from
My past

I close my eyes
I’m going down a path
Slow then fast
Slow then fast
Images started popping up
A babies face
Blurred pictures
Trying to speak to me
I open my eyes and it’s gone
Slowly close them
It’s starts moving on
Surrounded by beautiful trees with no houses on sight
The blurry pictures come to life
I close my eyes
I’m going down a path
Slow then fast
Slow then fast
Slipping into a realistic dream
Of those angels speaking and surrounding me
As I drift off into my amazing dreams...

To have
So many
Emotions
Feelings
Swimming through
Your body
Yet the biggest
Feeling is
Being completely
Numb

It’s ok to hurt in the privacy of your own home
It’s ok to heal within the silence of your own thoughts
It’s ok to pretend to “be ok” in the public’s eyes

Do whatever you need to

Hurt

Heal

Be ok

But make sure you feel all of this and conquer your heart’s emotions until you feel love within..

I want to sit under my own branch that covers me...

I want to be surrounded by (other) branches that support me and love me...

Come sit under my tree
Spread love
Like the roots underground
Fly away like the leaves
That are dead to me

F    A   I    T    H
———————
F   E   A   R

GETS ME HERE
TO WHERE I’M
MEANT TO BE

Faith
Over
Fear...

The truth is written in the
S
T
A
R
S

You just have to find the right constellation
Connecting the galaxy through the darkness....

Before the Election Season...
DID YOU:

Like that celebrity for their music, or roles they play in movies and on television?

Like your neighbor(s) and town?

Love your family for who they are?

Like the connection of friends through Social Media?

Like me?

Like them?

Like us?

Before the Election Season....
You liked a lot, for who EVERYONE IS.....

Indifference of opinion is a part of life but hate and blockage shouldn’t be one of them...

Stay Humble, Stay Strong, and always Stay You...

To
Drown in your
Own tears or
Float on the top
Can’t hold the water
Of all these emotions I’ve got
But I chose to let it go
Let them flow
Catching them one
D
R
O
P
At a time
For then I can
HEAL
in
Hopes of moving on..

My heart hurts
My heart is cold
That’s why I’m just
N      U      M     B
Deep
Down in my
s.   o.   u.    l.

I cried in pain
The night you gained
Your angel wings

“ Why would you want to remember that day?”

“ because in my mind, it’s on constant replay, I can’t get away...”

Every
Night
When
I
Go
To
Sleep
I
Hug
You
In
My
Dreams
And
Hold
You
Close
To
My
Heart...

My angel baby...

To fall
Asleep and slip into
A dream
That turns into a
Nightmare
Only to wake up
Realizing it’s actually
Real life and it happened
Not a beautiful nightmare
But a haunting experience
That you can’t erase
From you memory

I don’t need anything but for you to
W. H. I. S. P. E. R
In my ear and say
I. LOVE. YOU.
Kiss me
G. E. N. T. L.Y.
On my forehead
Hold my
H. A. N. D
When falling asleep...

It’s only US baby...

The haunting truth
A full, blue moon
Unleash the ghosts and ghouls
Wear a mask because you must
Light the candle, remove the dust
The spooky night will soon be upon us

To look at your reflection and only see what is looking back you....

....Close your eyes, and you will feel and see the real beauty that’s skin deep...

When your voice can’t be heard....

....write down your thoughts....

Those words will speak volumes and be heard by all....

When one battle
ENDS
Another uproar will
BEGIN
It’s like closing a
B  R  O  K  E N
Door that never really shuts right...

Fall
Falling
Falling
Failing
Failing
Fail


Try again
Neve give up
HOPE

Just because you fall
Just because you fail
Doesn’t mean you give up
It means try again until you
Succeed

It’s Simple...

B     E

RE  SP  EC  TF  UL  



RES
            PEC
                         TFUL

BE

K
I
N
D

SHOW

L     O   V   E

Discoloration in a snowy
No signal picture
Black
And white
Words decide
Pixilated billboard
Red
Swollen eyes
Moving forward
One
Day at a time
Tiny bubbles
Floating
To the top
A big surprise
Mouth
Has dropped
Candles flickering
Wind
Blowing still
Falling asleep
Dreams
Are real
Waking up
Before
You drop
Standing on
The edge
Of a big
Rock
Mindless
Entertainment
Makes no
Sense
But maybe it
Does
Thirst quench
Hydration needed
Gulping down
Fill my
Body
With this
Drink
It’s never to
Late
Post haste

Today’s treasures become tomorrow memories and tomorrow memories become hidden treasures...

And even though we are in shambles, we will rise up from this chaos...
Rising like the sun on a brand new day, rebuilding ourselves, overcoming challenges, and take everything at face value, giving love, come want may...

It may have been a blessing in disguise but that doesn’t stop the tears from falling from my eyes from time to time...

Clouds
Produce
Rain
Like
The
Heart
Produces
Tears

My most beautiful existence is my most terrifying dream that turns into a nightmare with no happy ending, just tears streaming down my face, leaving stains on my shirt and a hole in my heart...

Your love
Is like
An IV
Drip to
My heart
Keeping me
Alive

Wishful

Thinking

Means

Dreams

Are

Happening

Why is it on a constant loop
Continuously on replay
That tragically, emotional day
I’m reliving it  constantly
It won’t go away...
The day I lost
My baby

Love just isn’t shown
It’s also felt deep
Within our hearts

There are angels who roam the earth
Hiding their wings in plain sight
Letting their love pour from their hearts
Silently walking right by your side
They are your Guardian Angel in disguise

When you’ve come to the point of no return
You quickly learn
The past is the past
Look toward the future
You’ve been through so much
The best is yet to come.....
........Your here for a reason.......

The root of happiness starts with self care for yourself from the bottom of your heart...

I think we’ve connected to hard lately because we can be healers for each other. We have similar stories and struggles and the connectivity of our spiritual levels help us conquer our inner thoughts and feelings.

One comment
One phrase
Makes for a long day
Changes your mood
Instantaneously
For something you can’t control
Yet makes your mind race
Uncontrollably

Even though your flame may burn dim
Maybe be blown out by the cause of wind
Doesn’t mean that you should give up hope
For you can relight the flame
Burn bright again
Regaining light
For future
Plans