Your heart is encased by ice crystals
You stand behind the smoke and mirrors
You build a wall around yourself
Putting up a facade of who you really are to the world
Ice crystals start to melt away
The wall begins to crumble like cookie crumbs falling to the ground
Your guard in which you once had built is loosing air like a pinhole in a full balloon
Expose yourself like an unexposed Polaroid picture
Focusing the lens of your eyes like the lens on a camera
Once your focused on who you are to the world
You can removed the mask of doubt and send them back in to the lens of your imaginary life

Like a boat sailing in the wind
Crashes through the forceful waves
Pouring out your emotions like the fish swimming through the waters
The feeling of freeness as you release all the
Hurt
Pain
Anxiety
Sadness
Guilt
Confusion
Anger
But also having the feeling of love
As your surrounded and being engulfed by the simplicity of the open waters with no end in sight
Be fearless and release all the emotions out in the open
You’ll begin to feel the heaviness of the weight being lifted
Like the anchor being pulled out from the ocean deep
You still got fight left in you
Set sail across the great big ocean blue

Close your eyes
What do you see?
The person in which you want to be
Imagination inside of your head
Who you really in when you are asleep in your bed
Your true character comes to life
When you close your eyes and sleep at night
Let the world know the trueness of you
When you open your eyes
Face the world and
Let your imagination of you come true

I’m finally getting the help I need
You obviously didn’t want me to succeed
No thanks you because you didn’t believe
Believe the things that you have done to me
A total stranger has seen my pain
It now proves to me that I’m not insane
The feeling of anxiety
Depression and motivation
May not be fully functional or recharged
But I’m getting the help that was never there before
I’m going to get better with each passing day
Taking the rights steps to a journey at which may lay
Walk with me on this journey ahead
I will finally get better on they days that lie ahead...
Of me and my scrambled thoughts in my head...

Standing alone and glance up to the sky
I see a black and orange butterfly
Wings are spread as it’s floating by
Not a care in the world as it’s soars so high
I whispered to him “I love you and miss you so much”
In hope that he will deliver the message to my daddy in the sky up above
As I’m writing this the butterfly reappears
Swirling around my head then suddenly disappears
I believe my dad heard me
To send me love from high up above
A tear falls down my face
A flutter in my heart
Knowing you probably heard my message
Sent from the black and orange butterfly
From the ground to high above