There's a disconnect,
Between you, me, us.
When I reflect
On our relationships, all I see is dust.
We are not broken.

Distant, self-absorbed
We travel the world
In little orbs,
Caught up and whirled.
We are not broken.

You, me, us.
Our past is in the rearview.
All we can do is entrust
Ourselves with emotions long overdue.
It's time.

A waterfall of emotions,
Crashing,
Churning,
Breaking.

A bleak, desolate cavern
Hides behind the majestic facade.

A rainbow sparkles in the spume.

Stubborn, bold.
Your heart's a tarnished gold.

Brazen, brash.
Life passes you in a flash.

You zip past, thinking only of you,
And it's hard because I exist too.

I love you but it's difficult
Because the end result
Is you over me
And you just can't see
That it hurts.

Smooth on the outside,
Rough on the inside,
Your ******* facade disguises your inner turmoil.
Behind a smirk and a laugh you hide the pain,
And I watch as your emotions boil,
Your demons begging to be slain.

It's difficult to watch and be helpless,
And for only watching, I ask your forgiveness.

You've struggled long and hard,
Playing the hand with whatever card
Would keep you alive longest.
You though, you never quit playing,
Though the game has changed for the best,
You're still staying.

I'm proud of you for looking past the bars
Towards the sky and seeing the stars.

Let's rewind, me and you.
Begin again, a relationship fresh and new.
Smiling, you made my heart skip a beat,
And everything you said or did was an amazing feat.

Wait.

Fast-forward to the middle
Where our love began to dwindle.

Keep skipping.
Watch the passion fading
In hyperspeed
To the moment where I made your heart bleed.

Stop.

Let's not rewind, you and I.
Our story's crossed in the sky.
I remember why we ended.
We were broken and couldn't be mended.

I'm lost in a whirlwind
Flustered, blustered,
Tossed and turned
Churned.

Then I hit the ground.
I still don't know whether
I'm lost or found,
But I've weathered the storm.

Sleep always wins the war.
The dead never rise,
The living always sink
Into the darkness.

Lethargy succumbs to nothing,
And no matter the struggle,
There is no circumvention of sleep.
No evasion of death.

We all end the same.

I'm petrified
Of the monster inside.
Locked behind the façade
Of a beautiful mirage,
It rages,
Rattling the bars of its cage.
Snarling and slavering,
It begins carving
Its way out of my soul
With one goal:
To expose the beast.
And the belle will revel in its release.

Lost in the maze of myself,
Distracted by the glittering caverns,
The glitzy, glowing hallways of my mind.
Trapped in artifice,
Terrified of reality.

My soul screams for solace,
My body burns for rapture.
My walls are too high.
I pose atop the turret,
Unreachable.

Face to Face with
Anger and Discouragement.
Constantly rejected,
Fueling rage.
The cycle continues--
             Eruption.
             Calm.
Then--
             A fissure.
             Pressure.
             BOOM!
Destruction is at hand.