Your silence is hurting my ears.
Your expression breaks my heart.
Your indecision of where I stand is tearing me apart.
Your questions burn my brain.
Your statements smite my words.
You can see right through me...
That's not even the worst.
Your distance breaks my body.
Your disappointment makes me cry.
You're ashamed to just be near me...
I can see it in your eyes.
My weakness makes you angry.
My mistakes cause you pain.
My disregard for the love surrounding
is driving you insane.
My words speak out in circles.
My thoughts are out of line.
My irrational explosions
are cutting you inside.
My raging brain is affecting
My lack of knowing what to do.
My only glue to solid ground...
My only way is you.

On paper this is bad. I'm possibly the worst you'll ever have. This isn't good. Listen to your friends, you really should. I'm a mess. Politically incorrect in a dress. I'm a fool. And I'm heels over head in like with you. On paper this won't last. You're the type to love and leave her fast. This won't work. Wild and possessive, you're a ****. You're too free. And you're heels over head in like with me.
On paper it says that we are never gonna happen, basically. We're not smart. If we stay together, we'll come apart. "We won't learn," says the crinkled paper.

Well, let it burn.

Truly and deeply
Beyond sad, I press bruised lips
Upon the marble
Curve of your neck and breast
Touching only memory

And the wind did shake the dust
In preparation for the rain
To wash away the dirt.
No one asked any questions,
And no one stared at the Earth-
As everything they stood on
Throughout their entire lives
Was blown away.
  By the wind.
        The Wind. of Change.

Be curious not judgemental,
Be careful what you say
Speak in turn of another
as if they were in the room today

Be careful what you wish for
You have already what you need
Learn to change your perceptions
Open your mind to being freed


Things evolve and change
Like your personal life view
Sometimes peoples opinions
are opininons you once had too

We're not all too different
In a world that can be demanding
all we need is a little love
friendship and understanding

for those days
when hope will not help
because it is not hope that you want
but a cessation
a finality
an end

for those days
when comfort only hurts
because everything hurts, everything
is tender to the
point of
pain

for those days
when kisses feel like
dagger blades between your shoulders
and promises like empty tin cans
tied together
with string

on those days
I will be silent
I will be absent, even when
I am very near
I will hold you
without touching

and when you cry
I will catch your tears in
a vial of crystal that makes rainbows
in the sun
to hang around your windows
when you are smiling and
laughing and
joyful
and
content

to remind your tears
they are safe to fall

Is found in your arms,            
                                  calm me down,
                                  calm me down,

Quiet solitude in your arms
Makes the voices stop,
Makes the hurting stop
                       momentarily
                                relieve me of the pain...

Help me to be stronger
               (maybe -
                             I have not yet decided      
          if being stronger will be worth it again...)

But in the meantime,
Quiet solitude        
                      in your arms  
      Makes the world

              ~STOP~

((And I remember how to breathe))

When the sun sets at night,
And the sky turns orange,
I will think of you.
When the moon shines on the mountains,
And the stars gleam across the sky,
I know you will be there with me,
When I watch the news and hold my breath as another one of you is killed I feel myself going through that day again,
I will always love you and think of you everyday,
I just wish you was never taken away from me.