AprilDawn

AprilDawn Jul 2015

and center
our  sad eyes
watch   you fade
into nursing home
bed sheets and blankets
hearts break
  with every
embattled breath
everyone
just trying to keep you
in some
sort of comfort
as you fidget and fuss
   propped up and down
moved about
like  a rag doll
not very long  ago
life was a bit more
normal
now your ravaged body
and  busy brain
are  totally out of sync
I didn't know you long
yet your life
has left  marks
on my heart
as your final days
loom
all too near
in the dead of night
I try to  comfort
your grown  son
whose lifetime  hero
is  leaving
this world
behind

My fiance's 72 year old father's fight with prostate cancer is nearing an end as it has spread.He put up a good fight and had a nearly normal life until about 2 months ago.Bed bound now his final days are agony to watch for his entire family and wife.I have only been a part of this family for 7 years and never watched a slower death like this , it is hard to witness.

#sayinggoodbyetogary

AprilDawn Jun 2015

Pretty Much

history
almost every one
shredded
dried up and dead
just  that
one last
stubborn flower
dares those ***** gusts
of late spring
showers
to shake
it down
a gamble  lost
in the flicker
of a storm
cloud

goodbye catalpa tree blossoms ,your sweet reign over the back yard is over for this year.Here is hoping I get to experience you again next spring

#solongsweetcatalpa

AprilDawn Jun 2015

Crummy Luck

this immaculate
vanilla  cake
whipped up   high
with expectations
eggs and fresh milk
begged  for fruit
my pie eyes
spotted
only  a dented seam
sour cherry can
in a  crammed
pantry
or
freezer burned
blueberries
not even the dog
would deign
to nibble
still
it's safe to say
that even this
naked baked cake
will find it's way
into my
greedy grasp

cake dilemma in the kitchen today...but still there is delicious cake to be had

#vanillacakedreams

AprilDawn May 2015

Not so long

ago
my face was supple
as
a sundial peach
moss rose
in bloom
enveloped in solar rays
and water play
these stark days
multiple tubes
of rich creams
and  peachy mineral
powders
make it
to fake it
that  last wisp
of  tangible youth
clings to the  petals
with a slippery grip
the next bud
ready to
to take it's place

oh to remain a dewy beauty in the physical realm of being for a few more days or even decades before the stark reality of gravity and it's cruel minions...
there will always be those fairer than thee.

#bloomgoneoffmossrose

AprilDawn May 2015

Sweet Wanderer

you traveled
to the other coast
hungry for adventure
a break
from the  daily grind
revisit a page
from the family history
a chance  to see
another
way of life
hope this  journey
pleases
your wanderlust
my girl
the path  you take
back here  to me
will be fraught with
that same old
everyday
reality

For my daughter who is looking to relocate , she is on a trip to visit and figure out if her destiny will eventually take her there.It is bittersweet , as her travels are and will take her far away from me.

#findingherway

AprilDawn May 2015

Batter Up

bring it
little Louisville Slugger
poised for action
hits just the right spots
crack of the bat
such simple satisfaction
smack down
straight
into the crowd
hungry for the win
eyes light up
its another
homerun baby

Not actually about baseball! I do ,however, use a miniature Louisville slugger from my stepkids to crush our bunny shaped cheese crackers for our tuna patty dinners. Word play...love it !

#playswithfood

AprilDawn May 2015

Blaze

a bright trail
of stark Spring sunshine
through the  bedroom
window shade
pry my eyes open
to see
***** dancing
dust bunnies
reminding me
that
spring cleaning
needs to  move up
on my  to -do
list

yeah....dust bunnies, dog hair and winter clothes have set up camp at our house .Got to get to it !

#dirtydancingdustbunniesgetout