AprilDawn

AprilDawn Mar 2015

Quell

my aching mind
races
through the places
I have
lived
from young  girl
new wife
baby in life
am I doing this right
these question  burned holes in my
head
early widow
murdered mate
fear and loss
stomped me like a
a buffalo
start a  chapter anew
didn't know what to do
just keep head up
look for the light
somehow it will be alright
another partner
from school bus days
makes his way into
my heart
more love
scary accident
crushes my body
just for awhile
daughter marries
changes change again
sometimes
at night
the pretty lights
keep me
Awake

A sleepless night's ramblings

#tiredbrainscramblings

AprilDawn Mar 2015

Flirty

Spring
coyly hid
behind a snow skirt
twirling around trees
teased and taunted
pleased kids
filled with glee
for days  on end
then flaunted
as  they remained  school free
no respite really
as winter's will
named
snow storm Thor
hammered  down
all around
and temperatures
chilled  to nil
temptress Spring
finally
showed up again
pockets of mud
her  calling card

Here in Kentucky we had a massive snowstorm, almost two feet of snow a few days back .Not normal for around here.Warmer weather can not come soon enough for us ...

#waitingforwarmmoments

AprilDawn Feb 2015

Distress

squeals
on train tracks
through me tonight
a discordant cacophony
jangles   these
jumpy nerves
through cold  corners
dread steadily
rises to meet
the digital clock that
flashes
another sleepless  hour
on this
high old ceiling
that still needs  crown moldings
just want to stay
marooned in bed
trepidation
an arm’s length
away
tucked inside
my fuzzy slippers

Had to go to the dentist today, for a cleaning and a filling.Not a fan of the old drill , even numbed up and all So , of course could not sleep a wink alllllllllllllll night practically ...

#longlivethedramaqueen

AprilDawn Feb 2015

Growl

crawl
into bed
like a bear
hibernation
  not far from my brain
want this  day
over and done
sweet solace desired
in warm repose
pull the covers
up to my ears
behind me
the snow
is pressing
itself
obscenely
against my bedroom window

Dreary winter daze ,it's like life is on hold.

#snowendinsight

AprilDawn Feb 2015

Drifts

swirl  up
deep piles
of blinding snow
your bones  and skin
stockpile  memories of
winters past
you use
to  get warmer
so much
quicker
go ahead
take  that little  nip
  of  liquor
to take the edge off
puffs of icy
chills
and  porch step spills
as  slick spots
catch   tensed boot
soles
  you see white
up close and personal
not quite
the  sweet  winter treat
you envisioned
partaking
in

getting colder and whiter ...not our usual weather sphere here abouts

#chillydriftalong

AprilDawn Feb 2015

Polar Vortex

flexes
a choke hold
on our icy  slice
of the world
tonight's
  snowstorm
still a dicey
proposition
at least
some evenings
will be  wrapped in
rose colored glasses
as the sun passes
the horizon

this weather we are having....

#vernalequinoxorbust

AprilDawn Feb 2015

Whiplash

They ran past me
at breakneck speed
to capture
those
last minute
trinkets
of love
I never cared
much for anyway
until I no longer
had them
to look
forward
to

Grocery store Feb 13 ,2005 . Widowed almost 3 years at this point .Almost being run over by this mad rush of husbands and boyfriends buying their last minute Valentine Day stuff for their sweethearts .I was both aggravated by the stampede , while simultaneously feeling a cold wind whipping through me and a gnawing ,empty hole inside my heart. The lack of cheap chocolate hastily procured on my behalf ,impacted me more than even I had presumed it would..

#invisablewoman