We were a lot alike
     You and I
You looked so tough
     on the outside
But we always knew
     your bark was just your voice
There was no bite
     Only love and unconditional adoration
Big brown eyes gazed at me
     bathing me with love
Always understanding and warm
     We were each others' shelter through the storms.

Oh can't we just steal away....?
          Taste the magic for a day.....?

Displace the dread
living in my head

Just
me
myself
&
I

We'll abandon the ghost town.....
          In Nowhere I can pretend to drown.....

Not another soul
just
me
myself
&
I
here in this place
Anywhere
I can be in peace.

no reason to yearn
for the past
gone

hoping for better
in the time yet to come

Live strong
Live fast
Live hard

and let go

A transmitted version
     virtual you
the only you
                you ever shared
While you
     absolute
     remains
firmly entrenched
on the other side

I didn't know
     I just wasn't ready
To say goodbye
I loved the way
     I felt with you
Probably because
    I got to be me
Except for that last time
When I wasn't
     Free to be me
I never wanted to be
     Anyone
     Or
     Anywhere
Else
Except for that last time
When I wasn't
     Free to be me

I have no claim on your time

I have no claim on your memory

I have no claim on your heart

How is that freedom?

take a breath
and jump right in

over and over

            it never ends

give and give
then give some more
                                             nothing left
except the door

The lapping of the water
as the waves  lick the lake shore
leaves me feeling lonely
wondering where my rudder is
to steer me through
the murky waters ahead
Lost within the moon glow
under a sapphire sky
I shudder and shake
withholding the tears I cannot cry

Seattle

I came

I saw

I conquered

Well....

Not sure about that last one

Now a game of

Wait
And
See

I had the strangest thought
as I pulled up to the stop sign

You lifted your finger as if to wave
when I signaled you to proceed from the
four way stop

and I thought
“What if that was a potential ….”
the possibilities endless
and the moment lost

There's not one thing you've done

           with me
           for me
           to me

during our relationship

that you haven't done

           with, for, to
           someone else
           many others

during our relationship

Your presence makes me sad
absence....fonder
First thought "I wonder...?"
almost pulls me under
Tidal
Crash
Breathless

.......heartless

You move me

1978:
Tonite
made a tie blanket with my daughter
AND
watched "Grease"
Even though they started out
looking old and sounding squeaky
she was
singing along by the end
We go together like sha-ma-la-ma-la-ma......
1985:
**** vampire
Camp (hint fright night)
Perfect reminder that
I once was

No bells rang out
On that fine day
Each moment
Imprinted
In my mind
     Spilled red wine
     Sunshine chasing the clouds away
     Acres of shoulder high corn
     Spreading green
     As far as the eye could see
Now these memories
Tarnished
     with
Time
Boxed up
Locked up
So obviously
     obliviously
meaningless
meaning
Missing still
Silver band's embrace
Shiny shadow on that
     second finger
     left hand
Missing still
No bells ring out
On this fine day

.......




exactly

The golden lights glow and
          twinkle and
          dance
The magic of the bulbs like
     fairies prancing
     through the trees
Jumping from one snowflake to
     the next
The slap of the bone-chilling
     air tempered by the
     bewitching
     bouncing
     brilliant
     forest of lights in the middle
     of the city
The beat of my hollow heels
     follows me as I trace
     a path
Around this oasis
Forgetting myself for the moment

this is what it looks like



barren

blank

in absentia

So
Tired
Of
Losers

Part of "tending my garden"
is to exterminate the vile
and toxic weeds
sown by the contributions
of the vultures who
invaded my delicate earth
The thorny vines will
be terminated and
the vultures will die
a lonley and pathetic
death of irrelevance

4/16/13

My love
a quiver
of broken arrows
each head
destined
to miss
its mark

She looks just like your type

The kind you leave eventually

     because she’s not me

I will see    you     again

.

Keep watching you corrupt waste of DNA

Your whole life is wasted trying to be a part of it

So desperate

But you will never be one of the chosen

Always a reject

Protect those cankles

Surely there must be a way
To shake away the urgent
Emptiness
The missing being missed
Truly there must be a tool
To clear the thoughts
Hung like cobwebs in the
Rafters of my mind

i want to write you
                                                             ­                       
                                        the stars in my eyes

send you swooning

     with awe

                                        from the breath of my sighs

follow me ever so secretly
     as i float on your gaze

                                          the tendrils of your worship
                                                      wis­h
                                                                ­ to
                                                                ­        trip
                                                    ­                            me up

follow me ever so desperately
     you'll never know

                                                i know you're there