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Like I said
..... ******* coward.....
22" of snow couldn't keep
our stars from
crossing

First kiss
took me by surprise
I felt you
for that moment
in my soul
my
body
you
own
me
My apology is automatic
  in my moment of weakness
I know what I want and
  seek safety before that.
Safety in disconnection
  flattery a lure and a
  weapon.
The urge so strong
Unstoppable until the
Moment of weakness then
Insight and
Clarity
Dare to stand on the edge when your
Integrity has been called into question
Slanderous accusations bellowed
Malicious
Intent falls short of its goal
Soar above the fray and
Stay true, stay strong and in the
End honor and truth will prevail
D**are to care, even for the careless deviants
Officially exonerated
Neither
Time
Nor
Heartbreak
Fate
Or
Luck
Could
Save
Me
From
You
the years since our introduction
Takes
     My
           Breath
                Away
Dearest
Real-est
Truest
The ones who mean the most
Missing a few
And my heart breaks for that
But love the ones who
Love me back
Perfect birthday gift!  Thanks ladies !!  Made all the monsters go away for a little while.
I realize I cannot get back to sleep
Fall back into the bittesweet dream
of you
All of my neurotic fears and
insecurities
Realized in that dreamscape
But at least I could touch you
And feel you
through the fog of sleep
scrawled in my iphone while walking early in the morning-Autumn 2012
Who do you seek when your spirit is weak?

What do you do when the bluest of blue pumps throughout you?

Where do you go when darkness grabs hold and turns your heart cold?

When do you cry after the years of tears have run dry?

Why do you let your heart be ravaged and torn apart?
The discovery of time travel
Bittersweet
Takes my breath away
Electric current convulses
Every exposed nerve
Inside
  and
Out
Curious if this has changed
who I was
am
will be
a good day

a smile on my face

my life touched with grace

**a good day
The memory is voracious
Imposing itself in real time
The flashbacks come
     Highly anticipated
Like a satisfied trauma survivor
     Actually waiting for
           the next movie showing in my mind
My mind is clear
     Eyes open
Such a microscopic line between
pleasure and pain
right and wrong
should and should not
can and
will
This life with you
     without you
     has driven me
     mad
The
Swirling
Twirling
Hurling
Whirling
Riddles that represent
This life with you.
Without you
I am nothing
     and
with you even less
who knew....
could have predicted
This carefully orchestrated
Mess?
Only you
No matter where you are
                     or where you've been.  
          our time together is
                     still rough spun........

Can't you see the
                    crystal shards
         a black light prism
                    heart's beat prison......?

My voice heard only in
                    black and white
           choked by your
                    unspoken truth..........

Will you ever stop
                    mourning the love
         you turned your back on.....smothered then
                    walked away from.....?

Will I ever feel
                    a pure heart
         beat......flutter......pump
                    al­ive.....?
Ah, beautiful truth
such a visceral experience
I give life
I give love
The riches I receive in return
infuse and protect me
A safe haven
for me
in me
My beautiful truth
champions all
truth requires no defensiveness...no cruelty....no justification....no threats ....only pity for those who can't find it
Your presence a void
"He's not here...."
Laughter echoes with a hollow tang
Missing has become the way
I crave
Your presence....voice.....aroma
Reminded now of then
Pretend you know
I pity you for not knowing the truth
Lying back
I feel you around me and in me
Knowing....me
Knowing you
The perfect blend
sun
sand
laughter
Tipsy with love
Surrounded by mine
Ever connected
Today is a great day!
It started as a tickle
an unfamilar sensation
and built
to its culmination
the explosion
at first frightening
after the initial
shock and confusion
I realized
there are no limits to my
love
with immense gratitude-XO
Look at poor Alex slumped on the floor.
Preoccupied with her own inferiority, talking to Bob to try to escape the life she hates.
Her incoherent mutterings co-mingle with her dribbling drool.  
Poor, poor Alex living in the shadow of everything she thinks was stolen from her.
Alex has learned to cope through the haze of chemicals and denial as she percieves those flames of hell licking at her to be the warm sun.
Poor, poor Alex.
Always wishing there was something more.
youdon'tdothattosomeoneyousayyoulovebutIguessifyou'realiaryouprob­ablyneverreallylovedheranyway
howwouldyouevenknow?
I can feel you

     Wish I couldn't

I know

      You feel me too

Here
There

Everywhere
Coming and going
as the weavers work their magic
Forth and back
words hollow promises empty
through the ages and stages
My era began and ended
bloated with disasters
of the less than forgettable kind
I am defined by the stillness inside
I came from and put forth
love
The unmentionables  try to devour me
I continue
until.....
"I stood in the doorway
half into the room waiting there
for something more than
what I've known before
She said that the girl you came to see
is now the girl I used to be
She doesn't live here any more
so won't you close the door"

Strangers...definitely
and your fingers play my rhythm still
a rip off from my days of youth
I
cut
you
loose
and
feel
equally
less
buoyant
and
less
burdened
simultaneously
Such a tease
you perched above
me
intent
on your pleasure
but I know
your

only

desire

is

mine
I've no time
to cast stones
those that you feel
are simply
a deflection
protecting my world
my truth
from the likes of you
We aren't given a guidebook of the
    life in store for us.  
The best we can hope for
    is a life with
   maximum joy
     and
      minimum suffering.


I struggle with the thoughts....

Have you ever imagined being
     fatherless
     partnerless
     rudderless....?

Small graces that I never did.

So I only had to experience each
once.

Despair that now I am.
I grasp the blush of spring green
      that drowns the
waning gilded tresses
bleeding into the blonde stabs
      a glow of radiance........
A sudden spasm
brings joy
      then, pain
You
  And
I
no I
get it?
Indulgence


                                                    ­            freedom



                      Forever



commitment
Subtitle: concert cherry popped



His eyes, full of wonder
glued to the stage
waiting for the band to assume the position
sun not yet set
the thump thump thumping
begins.
His hands raise up
he joins the crowd
still melting in to the beat
as the sun beats too.
Intermission intrigues and builds suspense
he doesn't know the process yet.
The sun slips behind the flagpole
then the jumbo-tron
racing the light show (all purples and greens).
The crowd roars to life at the first
strum and drum.
He jumps to his seat
already wearing the overpriced t-shirt he bought
lips moving, reciting the words he has
memorized from setting the CD to repeat
head bobbing
keeping a perfect beat.
When the sun finally sleeps
he gets the full effect:
light show, big drums, guitar solo, stage smoke-
No encore (musically speaking)
but a visual symphony
as the fireworks make smiley faces in the full moon sky.
Not a bad first concert experience for a 9 y/o boy (and his 7 y/o sister)....free tickets for Imagine Dragons....outside....with hip-hop band Atmosphere (hometown heroes) opening.  I couldn't take my eyes off of him despite the giant stage in front of us.
I just want to numb out

She said

and then

she never said anything

Again
The irony is not lost on me.
No wonder there are so many
soul-less
selfish
sadistic
evil
****** up
liars
in this world...
Look at the media we worship.
Movies about horrible bosses
abuse
******
corruption.
Songs about
killing
destroying
leaving and
being left.
Reality TV
trading spouses
prison life
keeping up with the Joneses.
Pain and suffering are worshipped
by your
neighbor
coworker
friend
husband
wife
lover.
There is no safety net.
No one is immune to the
Dis-ease.
Rise above. I have found an anti-venom and will outlast them all. I soak it up like a sponge all day every day and wring myself out as I leave and bring only my integrity home with me.
you  were in my dream last night
but I know that was my doing
it's the only way  I'll have you in my bed now
the dream was so very strange
as dreams are prone to be
not a word from you
now that we are on the same soil
no  "Doin?"
to the one you claimed was your salvation
lighting up my text alert
missing you and
resenting still feeling
the electric  connection
when I cannot  get close enough
except in my dream
See Lonely Larry lost in his
******* fantasies
knowing he'll never
not be utterly alone.
Using whoever he can to
forget who he is,
actively ignoring the scars he leaves on them.

There's Twisted Tina, she's hard to miss
her only friends, flies and spiders
she lures them in so sweetly
then perversely plucks their legs and wings
then squeals with delight
watching them suffer.

Hiding beyond,  Wicked Wray
who paces with her vile sashay
refusing to acknowledge
the lives she stole away
pointing fingers, calling names
but it's only her reflections in the mirror
she has to blame.

I see Androgenous Alice
hard to tell if it's she or he
doesn't really matter because
she or he will use whatever
she or he has or doesn't have
to take what she or he wants.

Senseless Sara, watch her run
far and away
with her unibrow furrowed
chasing the demon rabbits
unleashed by her careless couplings
not even worth a word of truth.

The list goes on and on....
Swaggering Stevie
Malevolent Mandy
Cat with the Claws
So many more
banging their heads in the padded room
lost in thier sickness and disgrace.
His voice has that pleading
moan
As he asks
again
Are you ever coming back to me?
The subtle whining
undertone
But the irony
lies
in his query
The question he should be
posing
is to
**himself
He forgets....I never left
your hot moan
sails over me
the rush
of
ice and fire
take
me
away
walking away
           from
all you
                    gormless drones

master of my domain

finally
           the shackles of
CORRUPTION
                    melt
      away
                            and
I am truly free
no better feeling
they're all over

wish I would've known

when she was on my couch
Could've saved a lot of heartache.....always assume the worst about others. You're probably right.  (Hilarious......some people are so full of themselves.   Presumptuous much? What is the old saying....? "He who doth protest...."  Feels good to smile. ).
What you fail
to see
thru
your twisted
perspective
is that I’m not taking
your power
and
I never have.
What I am doing
is taking back
my power
so
I won’t be so hurt anymore.
It’s not
my fault
you gave all yours away.
It’s not my job to restore that for you.
I rescinded the invitation

You can stop your invasion

Careless
Cruel
Calculating

Perhaps even dumb like you said

Inhuman  you are

You are not welcome here
She does not deserve the privilege of my prose
Only empty shells
     on either side of the Formica

gracing the stool
     you stoop
a level lower

Bottom of the barrel
     The bottle
           The banal

I rose above the facade of romance
      clinging to the stale smoke residue

True
I've moved on from your carelessness. Your lies. Your insidious invasion.
you descend alone
exhaling a soul empty
entering your tomb
I remember that night

(a fresh faced ingenue....)
Feeling so cosmopolitan
     we were framed in the oversized windows facing the busy street
     like one of those old black and white photos capturing
          the romance in the moment
Probably a dish with
“Au gratin” or “Alfredo “ in the name....
Assured by her breathlessness
     anticipating something (but what?)
His smoky Greco stare
almost pleading
     definitely hungry
eventually
her loss
Her gain
their Wild At Heart refrain
echoes still in my ear
My gaze ascends over a hue of celery
officially labeled "yellow wax pepper"
but most definitely a gentle backdrop
holding securely the reminders
of all the love the world has given me.
My toothless, cow-licked, mussed-up babes....
perfect in every way.
Across the room
a single stem stands straight and tall
deep magenta peony
plucked and giddily gifted.
A token of sweet adoration
and a gentle reminder to receive love
when it is offerred.  
Under the canopy of my white tree
the green green leaves
comfort me.
A sanctuary, my own little world
in which I can listen
for the chatter and giggles
lose myself in wonder anew
awash in a world-true.
simple pleasures :-)
Will you pretend to forgot
     all that can't be forgotten?
Could you look away
     from the past that left you so broken?
Might you clean the slate
      erasing the sins that shattered?
Should you wave your hands
     to clear the dust from the air?
Can you ever allow yourself
     to breathe again?
In the vicinity of midnight
After a sticky city day
The sweat of the streets washed away
The glow of the flat screen
And the anonymous king size bed
Prone and captive
No urge to escape
Captivated
Kneading
Leads to
Needing
Your touch topples towers
Avalanche
And then the
Quiver
Shiver
Lover
As you can plainly see

I've been consumed

By a series of painful wounds

Inflicted by careless and selfish emotional rapists

Shooting the arrows of their defective lives

At me
As we travel
     through the hills and valleys
          the calms and the storms
The words
     strewn and carefully placed
Lead each of us to experience

His joy
Her heartaches
His regret
Her boasting

There is one here who wails
Suggesting she suffers from slings and arrows
When
     in fact
Her wounds are self inflicted
She begs mercy
But deserves only disdain
She is a maurauder
     the quintessential wolf in sheepskin
Her only comfort comes from
     licking
     and
     *******
     the
     bones
Of the few and fair she pledged protection
     lying a tangled mass
     a macabre resemblance of
     pick up sticks
     in her corrupt cage of  corpses
It must've killed you to lie on that pull out sofa  and listen to him "make love" to his wife in the next room....
life
is
half
over
and over before you know it...,
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