That sour taste at the back of my mouth
lingers
I try to wash it away
with
food
drink
starvation
It's become a lump
I cannot swallow

That ***** of yours that rules your life
has stabbed and torn my
flesh, spirit, mind, heart
apart.

Are you blind to the carnage
in plain view?

My warm blood that you say you hold so dear
puddles and pools
coagulates and cools
in front of you.

I see your footprints walking away
leaving a trail of maroon to dry
to a dusty brown.

I am empty of
hope, trust, will, want.

You have taken all of me

my tears
my safety
my health
my self-respect
my desire
my dignity.

You have it all already.

What more could you possibly want?

I am a void

and you want more....?

He married twice
     once to her
     once to me
He married twice
     once to her
     once to her
I married once
     so says that faded piece of paper
     kept in a safe all these years

My heart knows
I've never been wed
Never been
     loved, honored, cherished
like all those hers out there
like I deserved to be