Any present moment

Any present moment Nov 2013

I
cut
you
loose
and
feel
equally
less
buoyant
and
less
burdened
simultaneously

Any present moment Nov 2013

You think you're with me
when
you sink your fingertips into
my flesh.
You want so desperately
to believe
when you're inside me
you actually know me.
The mirage you believe
of a union complete
does not exist
with me.
The trespasses on sacred territory
have polluted
as far as the eye can see.
Recovery from the chaos
-the desolation-
no breath to catch
from your sucker punch.
You think you are
knowing me
when you are inside of me?
You are with
my
empty remains.

Any present moment Nov 2013

You can't be in my club anymore (second revision)

I stopped calling

     stopped texting

             unfriended you on Facebook (LOL-not even my account....I don't have one) today

We've been friends for more than half my life

     more than friends from time to time (FWB....BFF....NSA.....OMFG!)

            and now it's like neither of us exists

Because you had to lie

     you had to hold out....lead me on

          to cover your *** for doing something I repeatedly told you to do (***!!??)

So painfully slowly I'm erasing you

      deleting you

           turning my mind off  you (IMY  :-(  XO)

*TTFN

Any present moment Nov 2013

Be mine...? (Is this a joke?)

Will you pretend to forgot
     all that can't be forgotten?
Could you look away
     from the past that left you so broken?
Might you clean the slate
      erasing the sins that shattered?
Should you wave your hands
     to clear the dust from the air?
Can you ever allow yourself
     to breathe again?

Any present moment Nov 2013

inaudible scars

mark my words
they are in my head
and infuse my heart
with deep meaning
and trivial blather
no room for
fantasy
no foolish wasted
energy
hoping for the
happily ever after*
silence is all you hear
with your deaf ears

Any present moment Oct 2013

Bittermuch

As you can plainly see

I've been consumed

By a series of painful wounds

Inflicted by careless and selfish emotional rapists

Shooting the arrows of their defective lives

At me

Any present moment Oct 2013

So what? (revised)

Your I love yous
tumble as effortlessly
as every lie
you ever licked me with.
Your resounding sigh
of passion's release
surely sounds the same
as it did with each of them.
Your empty promises
to honor and cherish
remain broken and suffocated
beneath your ego.
For us
there is no
before them.
How can there be
an after?