My brain has been running wild as I live in the holes in my heart.
My brain wanders and loses track of everything
And my heart just shakes and rattles against the walls of my lungs
My skin sweats and my bones shiver
My brain is worried about everything except my heart
Because right now it's so broken the my brain doesn't know how to approach it

Everytime I think my brain turns to you. And in turn my stomach churns hoping you’ll reply with an I miss you and a smile

what if you wanted to be that girl for once?
the one with the cute engagement photos and beautiful ring
what if you wanted it all
but wont let yourself admit it

If you gave me a moment

I'd squander it

Telling you how awful I am

Who am i to tell you who i am

For you are the force that keeps me awake at night

Trembling at the thought of eternity alone.

Once i knew a girl who would smile about the smallest things
Now she frowns and looks away
Thinking to herself "i have to much to do today"
For shes not alive in the city she loves
And shes torn between what her heart wants
And what her brain tells her

What do you do when you realize it was supposed to be you in that white dress?
What do you do when you realize
You may never again?