Do I deserve to burn alive while everyone watched me
Did a angel come down and save me and tell me I deserve to live
I can cut so deep and penetrate the skin
I can commite suicide, and pull that trigger
I can make sure the rope is tigt enough
I would run in front of a bullet aiming for the head
I would be left for the dead 
I want to be put on the cross, have nails pinned to my hands and sacrifice my life for theirs.

the best version of myself exists in clearance-nike-outlet-wear
pulling up hair made blonde by the sunshine
bending over tanned and strong legs
tying shoelaces
and laughing musical notes
willingly escaping genuine smiles
my tummy is strong then, but with soft edges
i'm proud because it's held my body together all these years
i'm proud because it will carry a mini human
someday
inside my head there are coloring books
sprawled across a playroom factory
and all the gears are turning and i'm functioning
i'm breathing
my heart is beating
and i'm not scared of eating girl scout cookies when i'm with my girls in clearance-nike-outlet-wear
i'm not scared to let laughs float to the surface
or hiccups
i'm not scared of anything at all
we're real together
and we have freckly runner legs
that love splashing in the puddles our tears make
we're not always gonna be together
we are always gonna be real
together