Beguile me like bioluminescence.
I love you, doe-eyed siren, take all my money.
My friends envy caused them virescence.
They’re too casual to see my summer tan.
But he’s just my type.
But he’s what I like.
I hear assurances of love twice as much.
Like a werwolf, come night I am a ****.
But he doesn’t cry on my shoulder ever.
I only trash my curse of obsolescence.
But he’s so attractive.
He’s exactly what I want.
But before I throw it in the fire.
Let me get my summer tan on.

Aquamarine swimming costumes don’t make me blend in enough.
Pearls poked through and imprisoned with a string hanging about.
Just want to kiss you on the bridge.
Bend you backwards over the railing as we do.
Stare at the blue lights in the swimming pool.
Most of all be with you.
I opened like a pearl from the ocean depths.
But I think I’m closing up again.

Wonder what you think of me.
If you said you needed me right now, I’d break my back to be there.

I often contemplate how you perceive me.
And if I were a magician, still wouldn’t read your mind.
Let the truth be hidden.

But don’t you think I’m marrying you for the money, boy.
It’s not true.
Don’t let my attitude fool you.
I’m not mean, just defensive.
And I think I’m closing up again.

Make it alright.
Since we love Nicki Minaj I’d listen to her with you till daylight.
Share my headphones and hotbox my vape all night.
Make it alright.
Because we both get off on the same things let’s laugh together.
Play those videos from a decade ago but hot forever.
Make it all right.
I’ve a rough past and I need to spill tea or it overflows.
I do it anyway, but I’d rather keep somebody close.
Make it all right.
Make it overnight.
I’d hold your love like diamonds in a vault and watch it all life.
I’d write you a love song whenever you feel like you wanna cry.
I’d take you out and have you come in and out on repeat.
I’d make it so that you’re never alone and I would never leave.
Make it real life.
I want your love but I’m just not in a mood for tossing cards.
But regardless I do daydream about us.

When I noticed you side-eyeing me smack dab in the middle of the square
I figured either you were just into me or that was a look of judgement
I didn’t get near
I remember what I sacrificed
Last man I liked I mistakenly tried to earn him and look what it got me
He’s nobody
My caricature
And he brings out the cold ***** in me
But the boy I saw at the pride parade
He was like me I could swear it on my life
He was with a group of friends alike
I was alone and feared that type
But he was so pretty I could wear his shirt after he wore it
Mend his heart after they tore it
I could change his life
Turn it into paradise
But I failed so many times
Say I did say hi
I did like you I…
You say I too
I look into your eye
Like I own this life
Fearlessly take you out on a sushi date or something
I know one thing
I’m the best you’ll ever have
But I can’t promise you’ll appreciate it
My last didn’t, his loss, he wasted it
But who is he when I have you
Across from me
Alive and true
We laugh at nothing
We want just one thing
Get to know you
Explain my emotional scars
Tell you about my music
Heartbeat of my heart
I follow your lead to your place
Netflix ta-dum, I’m on your lips
They taste like dragonfruit
Get drunk I would if I could
We keep at it and it’s getting late
I take your clothes off
Throw them aside
Dimming the light
Make love all night
Fall in love like they never did
Don’t care what they say to it
Be happy it worked out for us
Lucky this time
This could’ve been real had I not been so broken and said hi.

Forget the dogmatic ******* and love me.
Like you would if we weren’t at the verge of crucifixion.
Lay pink leaves along the way to the bathroom and I’ll leave you.
That would be too cliché for someone my type.

I love cherry blossom trees, take me there.
I love you boy, please love me back.
Forget the stares and talking.
Know I’ll always be walking under cherry blossoms if you take me to one.
So take me to one.
I get so obsessive in love it’s just too much.
But take me to one anyway.

The knife you cut me with
You hold it with pride
But you don’t know how it feels to be proud.
You would still hurt me if you knew
how painful violence is.
You’d slit my throat if you knew you’d get away with it.

Don’t cry, it’s alright.

I hide the pain so well you keep taking more and more.
You don’t have the satisfaction of poking through my soul.
You wouldn’t know the pain.
Cause you know only bliss.
You never held hands and got called out at the streets.

Don’t cry, it’s alright.

I’m proud that I’m still standing.
Tougher on the surface but inside there’s still emotion.
Your devotion to break me penetrates through.
But I’m over listening.
Taking it into my heart.
You may think I’m going to hide
But I’m walking away with pride.

If that was you Camden I want to know why you came back to me after 4 years.
Your face looked familiar.
But the girl and guy from the polaroid were just there to fill the space.
We could’ve been together.
You could’ve taken me home to the state you grew up in.
Smoke something funny on the stoop.
Call your buddies over to hang out at dark.
I almost said hi when I saw you standing aimlessly by the main entrance of that fateful institution.
But I let my fears win.
I remember your IG handle but that was too much for me to handle to write you a message.
I didn’t wanna end up with you thinking I’m an idiot.
But you could’ve cause there’s men in this world who think that.
And I don’t care what they think of me.
But you said some things to me when we were on that green hill just before we split.
You could’ve talked to the actors but you chose me out of everyone there.
I know it was you.
You changed your IG handle so I can’t find you anymore, but I know your face.
And I wonder if you ever caught me looking.
If you ever knew my true intentions.
Now you’re just another American man who I could’ve made happy.
But you were just like the rest of them.
And I was broken.
Forever.