is it, love
or
is it torture
do you love me
or
are you playing me
cause I love you

is it wrong for men to cry
or do we just think that way
I've seen guys cry
what's wrong with that
before being men
they are human

little girl plays on swings
waiting for them
those who abandoned her
but they never come
so she fades away
to dust

I'll keep quiet
You won't even know I'm here
You won't suspect a thing
You won't see me in the mirror
But I crept into your heart
You can't make me disappear
Till I make you

every night I went to the cliff
to escape the city
under the stars
there were none of the flashing lights
sirens......
and scents that constantly
threatened to drown me
the cliff was my refuge
the only place I could hide from the world
that wishes I'd stay hidden

after killing me
you left a
purple hyacinth
on my grave
that's funny
I never gave you permission
to leave it on my grave

I have diamond tears
with crystal eyes
a forgotten life
in a hidden castle
never to see the light of day

I am lost in reality
free of my imagination
I am true to all
but none is true to me

we are like stars
in endless void
forever faithful
to exist
in emptiness

I know I'm hurt
the wounds have healed
but
it burns
I swear
it feels like it was yesterday
believe me
please
heal me
it
it hurts

I have friends
more than I can count
we laugh
they're real
but I don't trust anyone
I don't tell them my secrets
my  fears
I believe them
but my secrets belong only to me
maybe if I told someone
id feel better
they all wanna listen
but every time I try
I break down

Your revelations don't look nothing like the pictures
You read between the lines and don't stick to the scriptures
You only follow rules if others follow with you
That doesn't sound so holy only playing victim
You were standing there like an angry god
Counting out my sins just to cross them off
Saying that my tongue was too loud to trust
And that my blood couldn't keep you
My dear, you're not so innocent
You're fooling Heaven's gates
So you won't have to change
You're no saint, you're no savior

if there's anything
that's stronger than love
its guilt
we learn that the hard way

they said
why don't you hate him
I know
he didn't want this
even when the world
is cold
I want the heart to not be

there was a puddle
on the floor
I could see myself
I
didn't know what I became
I seemed so lost
yet the people
around me didn't notice
my friend tugged my shoulder
said come on let's go
I realized
how fake they were

after a long day
I sit to write
I can't
my papers in tears
all wet
I try
to stop the tears
in the end
I sit in a corner and cry

we were driving
sirens in the distance
someone died
it's funny
how often people
around us die
we don't even care

I apologized to you
for crying
when I was the one hurting

this world is temporary
the money
it won't be in our graves
our possessions will be left behind
so live your life
fully
while you can

we were all afraid
of monsters
until we grew up
and became them

love is a feeling so mutual
with an ending so brutal
life's a game
were all the same
we have different names
yet were burning in flames
in the end
to death is where the angels send
so don't love
live
or feel

"someone somewhere"
is searching for you
in every
person they meet

shoot me
it hurts less

it just took
one word from her
to break the trust
we built for years

it's not alright
if everyone's doin it

i'm selfish
i like the high  of watching the blood drain
from beautiful women
you can't blame me

this filthy world has gone to **** anyway
why can't I have a little fun with it
we're all going to ******* die sometime
no one cares anymore

did either of us have
a way out of the
mess we've
gotten ourselves into?
has the world
always been so ugly?

am I really me
when I try to be you
I am still me
since you are me
and I want to be you

i use coffee to stay awake
when i sleep
i fade into our memories
than i see you break me
over and over
i see us together
than you leave me
an endless pit of darkness
you abandon me
i run after you

I love black
its the color of my fate
the color of my shadow
the color of your love
the color of my blood

you are the reason
I don't believe in love
you're all my past that turned into memories
my chocolate
which destroyed my teeth
guess you broke me pretty well

you know my name
not my story
you've heard what I've done
not what I've been through

I see humans
but no humanity

I'm so strong
now that I'm hurt
no one asks whether I'm okay

black and white
day and night
wrong and right
don't run
hide in sight

eyes
surprise
us
thus
we're
unclear
whats
reality

I'd cry you an ocean
but you wouldn't even tear me a drop

do monsters
make war
or does
          war make
                             monsters

I guess I'm just
a side character
in your story

silence
is the most powerful scream

don't compare yourself to other people
there's no comparison between
the sun and moon
they shine when the times right

I told you I write for peace
to say what I feel
turns out
you didn't really care
how I felt

for what little you know
I might be dead
when you realize
I existed
maybe shot
maybe sick
but I was happy
death felt warm
unlike this world so cold

I have secrets
but no one worth sharing them with
they won't believe me anyway
just shrug me off
as if I was a fly
following them around
they all just get tired of me
after a few days

Silence Loves to Hide
the Feelings
We Carry So Loudly
in Our Hearts

I overthink
I'm a lot more sensitive
than people think
I'm afraid
my jokes are not always jokes
maybe I'm really lost
so don't show up
and say
you know everything about me

pain is your friend
it's your ally
it tells you when you've been
seriously wounded
and you know
what the best thing about pain is?
it tells you
you're not dead yet