what happened to it all ?
when happiness depended on yourself?
when you would walk out the doors confident about yourself ...
living the life you always wanted to live as a child .

generations change .
we care what others think about someone .
following what others do or say .
being afraid of being made fun of .
our generation isn't how it used to be

we act like other people just to fit in

what happened to being yourself ?
everywhere you go , you can't find someone unique .

momma always told me don't be foolish with my heart ,
don't give it to someone who will break it to a million pieces .
to recover from a broken heart isn't easy .

love as if you never loved before ,
careful tho
the love you give wont always be the love you get

12:38 am ....
they say at night is when the mind wonders more ....
feelings in all mixed places ,
wishing you can vent to someone of what's going through your mind ,
but than you wonder ...
from one thought to another .

than you realize ..... what if ....
what if people didn't care for you ?
what if life was completely different ?
what if you weren't good enough for someone ?
what if ....

I miss it all .
when life was with no stress .
boys didn't matter .
when I was excited to go home and play outside when my homework was done .


it's all different now .
I wake up everyday just hoping to get my days over with .
now I stress over a boy who hurt, lied, betrayed me .
but I never seem to be able to let go .
I can't let go of the past .
I reminisce every night thinking what could have been .
would life have been different if I chose my life a different way ?