He was intellectual, had a soothing soft voice that can be spoken thru any threads of yarn. He can have wits of spoken energy that bursts thru any sunlight of any given day. He can be jealous but not too clingy to the point that you want to give him up, he always has you on your feet. He balances frost and heat, never gets old with his love. Always has a giving hand and shoulder to lean onto, never gives up! His energy is full of grace, just being by him, makes you want to melt the cover tops of any bad days to come. Just seeing his smile and making you calm kills you inside because you are ready to fall down in depths of hell because that is what you are used to. You are used to being beat down, walked over, shattered in many pieces, you are just ready to break apart. But with him, it is like the world does not collapse, just keeps spinning and no stopping at any point in time. His shadows gives you a glimpse of reality that could breakthrough broken glass.

I always wondered why people judged others for their sexuality. Shouldn't love be just the words like "love is love". People should be able to express themselves thru words and actions. Sexuality is something others take for granted or even advantage of. If a guy comes out gay woman usually always say "the pretty boys are always the gay ones" or how men always come up to woman who are lesbian say "I can turn that girl straight in just one night". Or even hearing still to this day people are protesting on the street against gays and gay marriage. Today's society rather care bout brands, religion, race, and someone's sexuality rather than someone's cultural background and getting to know someone deep within. Teens who hide in the closet due to their families being against their sons or daughters for being gay become suicidal and the suicide percentages go up. People take deaths more serious than those who are a live and trying to make some of their selves. Rumors that are spread round by high school students bout someone's sexuality turns into harmful beatings, but the school system is too into themselves and care bout their job title rather than to take care of harassment and bullying. Celebrities who hide their sexuality then later come out are the talk of the town, then there is always that one person from paparazzi who screws with the news headline and puts lies into everyone in society and everyone believes what they see rather than to think outside the box that not everything they see online or TV is true. Parents who are gay are looked upon as to "who wears the pants" in the relationship, or "whose top", or even whose the "daddy or the mommy". Then the children who have gay parents become victims and are always assumed they are also gay too or just not normal in today's society. A lot of countries for example Russia abuses their laws against gays and soon enough fights and killings close to murders happen every minute of every second of every day. Even presidents in a lot of states and countries are against gays and try to pass laws made by the government which by then a lot more people hide behind closets. The world is more ******* up than people may think, if we just stick together and except people as they are then there would be equality.

Your body pumps, beneath my embolded universe.
Makes me fear of the day, that has yet to come, to a final inn.
Don't make me stress, but destress me with the power of wisdom and dignity.
Don't let others fool you by the way they pull you into the sins of darkness and loneliness.
It can get better, I say, don't be afraid to be who you are.
But, love who you are, because no one can tell you otherwise on how you see yourself.
Be kind but don't rewind. That can pull a lot of hazards into one swine.
Don't catch a cold, come beneath my arms, and let me free you from diseases.

I'm scared, that my bones start chilling up against my ribs, and everything feels out of place. I wonder as I look upon your glares, if you start feeling the same pain and regret on what your past was like between two people like us.
The beast is very compelling between wisdom and despice, yet again mysterious and worth while. It's hard to put into words, that I feel uncontrollable and unpredictable with the words that come to mind that come out without a sence of time.
The power of tingling sences, of overpowering love makeing, will allways surround how I, as a person, comprehends the feelings of torture with not physical fetures, but just the way you put the words together like a hard hearted child, who mistakes of the feeling of "Love", with hatred and disorders that are not diseases to the body, but to the mind itself.
Even though you have become the beast, the beast of controlling and pills of withdraw, I can tell, deep inside, that you are very honest and thriving to what is yet to come to the world of vocbulary and words that can not describe how fondumental and focusable syllables, that contrest between two opposite people that have the same feelings, but, still afraid to show it in opposite ways.

When I saw your eyes,
I couldn't dispice
That there was just one surprise

You took me by the hand,
Without giveing me a helpless plan
Everything was like a clam

I was speechless,
Tat everything I knew was fearless,
And now everything is a clearness mind to empathy pride

I was so confused by the beatings:
was it that I missed HIM, or was it the passion love we used to make
He never complained untill he moved past me

I know I ******* complain, but sheesh, you should've seen this comeing
I told that to myself all the time
untill I mistankenly took the last blood of my pulse out of my body

All it took from him was to act so agressive, beatings and makeing me curse to promises
Letting people down took my troll of pills, knives, and scissors
Couldn't take the last drop, just had to hear from him that he actually cared or "I LOVE YOU"

My life was shaken, and taken away by someone so beautiful, but yet mysterious
My pure beating blood, took it's place as a last withdraw of poker and cards
I couldn't and didn't gamble my feelings towards how I felt, but how I saw things through my own eyes with Him