There are four seasons,
Winter, summer, rain and,
When I fall in love with you

Tides turn, come and go,
Seasons pass, things keep moving,
Life keep moving forward,
But some things never change.
I hoped that some day I'll get over you,
I feared I was becoming obsessed,
It seems so simple, that I had to just let go.
But no.. Its been 4 years since we met,
Three and a half of which I have spent being in love with you,
I'm glad I told you from the start,
You've been my saving grace.
That you never loved me hurt often,
More so when you said you'll never be able love me back,
I always knew, it still hurt. And I accept it all now.
Despite knowing, here I am today, still finding myself thinking of you every spare moment,
Hanging to your every word,
All the little things you have that define you,
Wondering how your day goes, if you're alright,
The longer I spend away from you,
I steadily wither inside,
Knowing you belong to some one else,
It doesn't seem to change my feelings,
In fact your happiness is my main concern.
Through this mess I can only recall the times we've spent together,
Those moments where you allowed me into your world,
I think you are worried of hurting me,
But those times, in the club at night,
Sitting in at home and getting drunk,
Laying on the same hammock hoping we don't fall,
Staying up all night to see the rising sun,
Those moments where we were just.. We were.
It wasn't much to you, but in those moments,
I soared, I healed, I was inspired,
Proving that you're good for me.
And again I'll remember you're not mine,
That you don't want me and never will,
And this rant is all a waste,
I still don't understand why I can't get over you,
Why even after 4 years of not having you,
I love you so much

You are the sun to my earth, my first prize.

Your hushed laughter so sultry,
Makes me want to kiss you over and over,
And taste you top to bottom,
You **** thing

I'm like Snape. Always

What if I am a figment of my imagination?

If I woke up one day to not remember you

The cloud that is my love for you,
Burst for I could contain it no more,
A lightness creeps into my gloom,
As your season comes to pass from my heart,
I look back at the times I thundered and roared,
You faced me like sea of calm,
Accepting all my anger and distress,
Making them into paper boats to float away,
The rainbows that shine are testament,
Of the magnificence that spawned this undying love.

I wanna lie in with you,
Caress you cheeks like its the best thing,
As I run my fingers through your hair,
Drawing you in for a kiss,
My hands run down your spine
I feel you like the work of art you are,
Tangled in your embrace like a blanket

Because when you're here, I have got nothing to fear

Spending sleepless nights,
Listening to b-sides,
Thinking of you as I play that song,
Hoping you'd see with you is where I belong,
You that I never had except in my head,
Seeing me my friends say,
"He's at a party he never went to,
He never knew what her love is like,
He makes it all up in dreams,
He doesn't have to leave there",
I tell them I know what I'm doing,
That some day you will come to me.
Or some day I will get over you.
Some day, all of this will happen again,
And I will always stay by your side.

One day will come again,
When we will waste the night,
Talking about distant things,
Watching the stars cross the night sky,
Away from the world we'll watch the sun rise.

I want to make you feel
How I feel when I think of you,
What it takes to be in control,
And not die under the weight of the love
I carry for you,
That every cell in my being craves you more than oxygen,
That you are the earth to my moon,
The sun to my darkness,
So oblivious of your own beauty,
Blind to my suffering.

I wait for the days when,
Loves songs stop being about you,
When I can again make promises of forever

What hurt more than anything else,
Was seeing you lay there,
And knowing you'll never wake,
With glance at those glassy eyes,
Crept in grief that weighed a ton,
It all crashed down at last,
When the flames consumed everything.

Unless I start to walk I won’t get anywhere, unless I take action my destiny won’t be fulfilled,
I wait here to realize my purpose,
So does my purpose wait for me to fulfill.

From our birth we travel,
To our home,
To school,
With family and friends,
Discovering new places,
In the process discovering ourselves,
From mountains and continents,
Across the oceans we shot for the moon,
Soaring through the skies,
One day we may journey to a another planet,
We endure, till we travel to our graves.
Forward is the only direction,
So keep walking,
Towards to our future.

From a seedling to a tree,
My love for you grows free,
Through the storm of loneliness,
Through gloomy skies of emptiness,
Waiting the warmth of your sun,
Hoping some day we'll be one,
Is it pathetic that after all this time,
I think of you every spare moment?
Or is I just that I am in love with the idea of you,
And don't really want you?
May be I will never know,
The truth still remains,
I'll spend my days wanting you,
Wasting time I could be happier.

Could we just lay on the roof,
And gaze at the stars,
Slowly they'll pass as we spin around,
We'll hold hands and I'll smile as I wonder,
How in the vastness I found you,
Nothing short of a miracle.

Like indistinct windows of a passing train,
Shifting my eyes to keep up with the stories,
Stories and people in each window,
Life passes me like the blurred train,
I am afraid I'll miss it, not fast enough to keep up.  

Once every now and then this feeling creeps in,
That I'm not good enough, may be I don't belong,
On days I soar higher than the clouds,
It comes down to my abilities and limitations,
And my fear that I don't know enough.

When I soar I remember the feeling,
Like I'm invincible and can do anything,
More importantly though, I feel my existence is justified,
People in my life with their kindness and affection,
Make me feel loved.

I forget that often, that I am loved,
Trapping myself in a bubble of misery,
Chained to the burden of my fears and failures,
Then out of nowhere you come along and carry the whole of me,
With my good and bad, I fly again in your love.

Shivers ran down my spine,
As I heard the song play,
Goosebumps tingled on my skin,
With the crowd we sway,
In the euphoria of having you besides,
Dancing I want the night to stay,
Have I gone mad?
So this is pure ecstasy

We are all the same space dust.
Millennia after we are gone,
Our light, will keep shining,
Travelling on and on, when some day,
We may be seen in another world,
As the stars we are.

Standing in the shadows,
Waiting for your chance,
Life will pass you by.

Like occasionally mine does,
As I lay waiting to wake beside you.

I quit smoking,
I learned to live without you.

But I still love you both.

After every time spent together,
We part to go about our lives,
As you walk towards that door
I hope you'll look back
And hear my eyes say:
STAY.

I can now accept
There are things I cannot do,
It puts into perspective what I can do,
And it guides me to my future
Where I can be happy.

We came together,
To rebuild from the pieces,
Left after the storm.

Every sunrise brings an opportunity,
Every sunset a sense of well being,
For I have conquered another day,
The trail I leave behind on this world,
Is but a sum of my actions,
Through joy of being cared for,
Through suffering loss of dear ones,
Through pain of of love,
I grow compassionate towards fellow humans,
Everyone has their story,
We all share this bundle of emotions,
I love you not for some casual cause,
I love you, because of what you bring to my world.

Happiness, contentment, peace,
They are all but petty,
When I am dying,
Drowned in the void
Left by you
When you stole my heart.

I wish it would mean something to you,
When I say you are the best thing to happen to me.

Thank you for holding my hand, else I'd get lost.

The light breeze brushing the skin,
Eyes staring out the window at nothing,
The hum of the city that is a hum no more,
The ears escaped to seek sounds of shores,
There is no noise in the thoughts that came,
A remark on the irony of time is made,
The pictures are old, faces in them are young,
A wonder as to whom those faces now belong,
As the piano plays the eyes see a montage,
Tears find their way across a cheek,
Echoes heard from memories gone,
Wishes are made to return to the past.
Today will be a memory again,
May be full of hope, or of regret,
Arms searching to hold them,
Hands wanting to make the future,
The mind a fallen leader with wisdom.
Happiness is sought, had less often,
Some understood it was not to be found,
But accepted.

We should be together because,
It took six billion years,
And a lot of violence,
To get to here, to us.

I asked for you,
To melt me
With your fire.
I asked for snow,
To numb the truth,
Instead this December,
The sky gave company to my tears,
Drenched my soul in the rains.

A triangle is the most stable form except in relationships.

My sentence is still being written
In the book of life.

I am awaiting that punctuation,
That brings us together

Time is running out,
Soon it will come,
When I will see you,
Fall in love for the last time.

I want to fly away forever, but not without you.

It's late in the night,
But we kept awake talkin,
It was always comforting,
Knowing you are there,
My first thought in the morning,
My last though as I drift into sleep,
Always you,
Even now I'll catch myself thinking,
Of you,
And I miss the times,
When you were my first thought,
In the morning, and my last thought,
At night when I did not dream,
Because you were with me.

I reached out, but the stars are too far away

Mist that bears on my mind,
I sift through to gather my thoughts,
Like sand they escape my grip,
Making signs along the corner of my vision,
Mocking me, teasing my failure to grasp them,
I know an idea lies therein,
If only this fog would lift,
Where is the sun that can cleanse my being,
Free me of this mist?

In my home,
I see out the window,
There's a world out there,
Sunshine and alive,
But my bed is here.
Let me sleep,
Leave me alone

I am not writing,
I am talking to you,
Whomever cares to hear,
Thank you.

Fear is interesting.
It strengthens some.
Makes some irrational.
Cripples me in my tracks.
I fear, that I am not good enough.
Not for others, for myself.

I want to tell you my secrets,
I know you will keep them with care,
Until the day you give them back.

Because you're not mine to have.

Today the world is bearable,
Good even!
Or maybe,
Today I'm bearable,
Good to the world.

I will see you through the window,
Living your life in your freedom,
Sure I'll wave to you from time to time,
But I'll never show you my misery,
Trapped in bubble of loneliness,
Depriving myself of anything but your memories.

I will try.
The feeling of a hot cup of coffee on a rainy day,
The warmth of the blanket on a cold night,
The want to stay in bed every morning,
The first time witnessing snow fall,
The satisfaction of having cake,
These feelings of ecstasy,
Put altogether,
That is kind of how it feels to love you.
And much more

Drizzle to downpour, the gloomy light lit up my day

Received a letter from myself,
It said,
"I forgive you"