your eyes were red
blood shot
you looked at me
but all I could do was panic

you shut your eyes
continued your rest
but blood shot remained in my mind
and all I could do was worry

what is it like?**
to smile in front of a crowd
but going home, to an empty room
then crying to yourself

what is it like?
to laugh out loud
to show that you are okay
even when you are not

what is it like?
to counsel the weak
but knowing that you cannot even
keep yourself afloat

what is it like?
to live each day
beating yourself up
thinking you do not deserve anything

what is it like?
to say 'I'm fine'
because you want to be a hero for others
but you are shattering inside

you know it's impactful
because it's wonderful
you know it's unforgettable
because it's untouchable

Once again
An arm was extended
It was welcoming
Until I saw his face...

Majestic horns and hollow eye sockets
Bones and sharp teeth
He grinned with a certain growl
His claws pulling me in

The murderous music plays...
As I hesitate
I am frozen still
It was just him and me...
In the darkest ballroom

*And I am
Once again
Being enticed
To dance with the devil

the night twinkles
and his face runs in her mind
the moon watches over
as she holds him tight

It all starts small
And then it accumulates
It gathers within a small compound
And the feeling explodes

With impact
And great strength
It affects
And it continues to grow

It was oh so trivial
But before you realised it
It had already happened

*And in that heat of the moment
A little thing became...
...everything